If love is the biggest happiness of life, loosing that love is the biggest devastation. If love can bring joys, loosing that love can fill your life with tears and pain. I saw the same pain in Dev's whole being today.
He had loved her like his angel, he had protected her like his baby, he had wanted her like his life, but all he got was emptiness and pain. His life was already a mess ever since she left (or to say when he threw her out), but today his life was completely destroyed. He was her life, he was her only claimer, but today, she was in someone elses arms, someone else was taking care of her, feeding her, pulling her up, laying her down, and oh my, the pain in Dev's eyes to see Aditya soo close to her was soo evident and heart breaking.
She refused to acknowledge him, he bent his head to save her from an uncomfortable moment when she is in Aditya's arms and he is standing right there, he saw Aditya laying her back on the bed, and that's it, he can't bear this closeness, he can't bear this sight of seeing his life in someone else's hands, and he walked out of the room.
Un-break my heart
Say you'll love me again
Undo this hurt you caused
When you walked out the door
And walked out of my life
Un-cry these tears
I cried so many nights
Un-break my heart
Come to think of it, you can't go even into the room of the person you have loved sooo madly. You are standing outside the window, watching that person – practically in someone else's arms, and dying a hundreds deaths. O my God, first and foremost I have to stand up and give the loudest applaud in the world to apoorva 👏. He was mindblowing in that scene. The desperation, the pain, the agony, what a brilliant portrayal of all these emotions. His one look was pain, the other was agony, the other desperation, and that drop of tear was the final straw. If I had the power I would give evey award in this world to apoorva for a performance sooooo flawless and sooooo heart breaking. I could actually feel my heart breaking into pieces, that look on his face when he was holding the window and looking at both of them. It was as if he was touching Kaajjal from there, as if he was caressing her from there. His head rested on the window, his hand still there, and the look on his face, it was as if he had his head on Kaajjal's shoulder and was telling her, "main tum say bohat pyar karta hoon Kaajjal, meri ghalti ki itni bari saza di hai tum nay, kay tumharay paas ho kay bhi tumharay paas nahi." The look in his eyes, o my!!! A complete combination of happiness for her, and a desire to have her back, as if he wants to run into the room, hold her tight and beg her, "give me a chance Kaajjal, please forgive me. please be mine, I will love you and cherish you forever and ever." And than that drop of tear, as if the last thought crossed his mind, "time has gone and Kaajjal probably belongs to someone else." O that tear said it all. A summary of his entire journey of pain was cruxed in that one tear that fell off his eyes like a diamond. The most precious and pious in the whole world. How I wish I had the power to get into the TV and had that tear fell on my hand. It would have been my most precious possession.
But his love, and his care for her honor, he hid himself from them when they were leaving the hospital. O how I love him for being soo understanding and careful to her honor and integrity.
"aap agar kisi ko chahain gay tu bohat chahain gay," well ab aur main kya kahoon, the conversation between Aditya and Dev was really heart touching. "mujhay sacha pyar chahiyay Aditya, and as if his heart said silently, "mujhay meri Kaajjal chahiyay Aditya , mujhay meri Kaajjal chahiyay." And his whole being was crying ….
Don't leave me in all this pain
Don't leave me out in the rain
Come back and bring back my smile
Come and take these tears away
I need your arms to hold me now
The nights are so unkind
Bring back those nights when I held you beside me
o my God, how my heart went out to him at this sentence. My janu baby has never got the love and happiness he deserves. O lord, please be kind to him. pleasseeee.
And than the moment that made me really cry and I wanted to cry loud here, but ….. o those tears, that pain. He held his lips tight, and his face was a complete picture of devastation, "main Kaajjal ko apna nahi bana paya chachi." That was a true masterpiece. His confession in front of chahci, how he thinks he has hurt Kaajjal, and how it's hurting him soo much to see her in someone else's arms …. "main nay hamesha Kaajjal ko takleef di, shaid isi liyay aaj dar dar ki thokrain kha raha hoon …" o my, this sentence actually ripped my heart off, and all I wanted was to give him the tightest hug in the world.🤗🤗 Uff, how beautifully he expressed what he feels when he sees that strangeness in Kaajjal's eyes and when she runs away from him. When loving a person has been the only thing in your life and that person refuses to acknowledge you, your life shatters around you and you are left in a nowhere land. Oh that phone call made me cry like a baby. and I felt Dev beggin Kaajjal in his heart,
Take back that sad word good-bye
Bring back the joy to my life
Don't leave me here with these tears
Come and kiss that pain away
I can't forget the day you left
Time is so unkind
And life is so cruel without you here beside me
And than another highlight of the episode, Dev and Kaajjal looking at each other, Dev has love in his eyes, Kaajjal has questions; Dev has intensity, Kaajjal has anger; and her eyes stopped his steps and made him come to her. oh how I waited for them to come face to face again. to bring alive that passion, to bring alive that intensity, and my heart actually melted when Dev said, "kabhi main tumhari zindagi hua karta tha Kaajjal. tum sirf meri ho Kaajjal, sirf meri. Meray saath chalo Kaajjal, poocho apnay GB say kay main kaun hoon tumhara." Oh, What a beautiful portrayal of emotions and desperation, what a complete depiction of wanting to love and fear of loosing. The helplessness was no where to be seen, instead there was faith and passion. the intensity with shich he held her, pulled her to him, and not letting her go. Even in that saddest moment, my heart skipped a beat. uff, somewhere down there, i saw a glimse of DPS again. DPs who is so sure of himself and who will do anythig to get what he wants. what a beautiful scene. the best and the only hope in todays show.
And she fainted again. but pray kay tomorrow when kaajjal gets up from this, she remembers something about her past. sothing about dev. pleassseeee!!!
I once again give a standing ovation to Apoorva for his brilliant performance. 👏 As I always say, he is a heartthrob in that arrogant look, sexy in that smart sophisticated look, and completely huggable and lovable in this gentle yet passionate look.
Today was yet another masterpiece of emotions and love. 👏
Shiv Shakti
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