Hope An FF. Updated part 12

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Introduction

Soo im going to try a different version of the story by making it more dramatic,Basically a year after the confession has happened between Ishita and Raman and Ishita is 4 months pregnant but hasn't realized it yet because the thought of being pregnant never crossed her mind,During this time Shagun returns in There lives and devices a plan of seperating Ishra And through various tricks and devices makes Ishita and Raman both believe that Raman has cheated on Ishita by spending a night with her when he was under the influence of Alcohol ( For the people Who have watched Kis Desh something very similiar to that)

So Ishita decides to leave everyone and everything behind but Raman seeing that Ishita isnt going to stay back no matter how much he apologizes sends Ruhi with her too because he knows Ruhi could live without him but will die without her Ishimaa,

So the story starts 4 years after this has happened Ishita has spent a seemingly happy but secluded life in England all these years with her kids Ruhi and Ansh

Raman has now reverted to what he was before he met Ishita,Lives with his family and has arranged for Aditya and Shagun to live nearby,Misses his daughter and Wife very much but doesn't know of the existence of his youngest son His own child and therefore has this hollow feeling in his chest all the time he also feels very guilty and miserable because Shagun has now Made him believe that he has indeed cheated on Ishita, What adds on to his misery is the fact that both his families The iyers and Bhallas blame him for Ishitas exit from there lives and thus treat him with disdain and ignorance.

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Life is funny, Absolutely downright hilarious,And im saying this in the most sarcastic ways possible,

I Ishita Raman Bhalla, Yes Im still a Bhalla has always been short changed in life,I usually get what I want but it ALWAYS comes with a price,Many many years ago when I yearned for a child I had a love by my side In the form of Subbu,He left me broken waiting to be pieced together and that happened too, By MY child coming into my life Ruhi the child who made me a mother the child who is my most cherished possesion, But with becoming her mother I became a wife too A wife to a Man I then despised but life continued to play its Jokes on me and I fell in love In love with my husband. For a very brief time life was perfect I had both my child and my love by my side and Nothing needed to be changed but change is the only constant in life especially mine,

So it did just that and changed and what a change that was. The twisted exchange that god loves doing with me occured again so while he gave me a miracle in the form of my biological child with Raman,An event deemed impossible by medical science It took away from me the man I love or rather loved because that same man That I gave all of my love happiness hope trust and life too cheated on me shattering my very soul,

Raman in a lot of ways is the reason for everything good or bad in my life,He symblolizes all my emotions within him weather its love or hate,Trust or mistrust He's been in my life in a lot of forms,,Kabhi woh mera dushman tha toh kabhi dost.

Kabhi woh mera pati tha toh kabhi Premi

Kabhi woh mera Hamdard tha toh Kabhi Dard dene ki sabse badhi wajah

Kabhi usne mujhe Banaya toh kabhi khud hi todhdiya.

We've been living apart for four years now and in these four years there has never been a moment where I haven't felt his presence within or around me

I see him in the corners of my room I see him in my name I see him in the faces of my children I see him in my soul.

Hating him is the most exhausting thing Iv'e done Most days in this tiny town of Bradford away from home from family and sometimes even from myself all I try to do is will myself and my heart to hate him But my heart knows that these attempts are futile because while he gave me sorrow took my heart and broke it by cheating on me with Shagun He also taught me how to love how to live and gave me the two biggest gifts of my life Ruhi and Ansh

In that dark time 4 years ago when my self respect wouldnt let me continue living with Raman in a time where I had to go as far away from him as possible he let me take my ruhi with me,Sometimes I think Its because he knew that I wouldnt be able to live without her,

Exactly 5 months after I left India My little bundle of joy My Ansh was born this time to me,

His arrival into the world albeit a much awaited one wasn't as loved or as joyous as the one he deserved because as much as my mind told me to inform Raman back home about the arrival of OUR baby boy my heart which was now hardened from the betrayal it had received wouldn't allow it somewhere the fear of loosing Ansh or Ruhi had gripped me leading me to live in complete seclusion away from home family and Him,This resulted in Raman not knowing about a piece of his flesh and blood in this world not knowing about a life that was a part of his own not knowing that his son his child with me exists,The guilt of keeping Ansh and Ruhi away from there own father rackles me from within sometimes but the part of me which lives under the shadows of betrayal and hurt given to me by him takes over and I continue living with the two entities of my life that are essential to me as air.

With these wandering thoughts In me Im look at my two children who are sleeping soundly tucked into there beds away from the oddity that this world is,When they are like this in there most peaceful times I cant help but notice the resemblance they have with there father,While Ansh looks almost exactly like Raman Ruhi too has within herself many traits of Ramans, Many times I cant help but think that this is one of the reasons I cant bring myself to hate him as much as I want to because while he's physically not present with me I see and feel him everyday,I see him in My children ,I Can see him in Ansh's eyesor in the way he talks I can see him In Ruhis Nose or in the way she eats because as much as i try to deny it they are as much his as they are mine. and thus it can never be a complete seperation between us because There will always be two ties binding us even if Raman doesn't know of the second one.

Ruhi is now 11 years old Is still as smart as she always was,She figured out as a child that Her father did something with me that has hurt me deeply thus never asks me about him and has developed a stong dislike for the papa she once loved with all her heart and as much as Iv'e tried to eradicate this dislike or resentment that she has developed for Raman I haven't been very successful

Ansh at 3 years 8 months is growing up be the naughtiest happiest and The most intelligent kid I know,He hasn't yet given much thought to the absence of A Father asks me about it sometimes But ruhi who is very sensitive about my feelings shuts him up

As I go over my life The phone call that is about to change my life shakes me out of it It was from a local Indian number which both scared me and made me very anxoius to see what it was about from the other end I hear the sound of Rinki my young sister In law telling me after making sure that Im ishita that Mummy Jee is very sick and one of her last wishes is to see me.

Mummy jee has always been like a mother to me so the question of not going iwas never there .With a lump in my throat that I gulp down I decided to return to the place that left me broken The place that no matter what will always be home And this time I return with my two dearest possesions accomponying me.

Like I said, Life is Funny

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Returning to Delhi for Mummy jees sake was one of the toughest decisions I have ever taken,Returning to a life I had left far behind me,Returning to the family I had been running from all these years and Returning to the Man who had broken my heart.

Mummy jee was a mother to me and for her sake I'd do anything so when the call of her Ill health came I knew That I had to go back even if it was just for a day, The problem here were the kids,Ruhi who had adamantly refused to go back to Raman,Until I cajoled her into agreeing by taking her Daadis name a women who practically raised her for the first few years of her life.

Ansh who was wildly excited on the prospect of going on an "adventure trip" as he called it wasn't posing as a direct problem but the trouble lay in the fact that Back at home most people dint even know he existed not even his own father, Raman Bhalla had no idea that Ansh Bhalla existed which in a lot of ways breaks my heart,A few of the only people in my family who know of Ansh are Mihir Mihika and Bala jiju.Vandu Akka Amma Appa Mummyjee Papa Jee Romi Rinki Simmi no one knew.

So I took a week off from my workplace Sacred hearts Childrens hospital which has been like a refuge for me all these years and booked a round trip for a week to Delhi My home.

As I enter Indira Gandhi International Airport Delhi clutching the hands of both my children on either side a wave of familiarity and Nostalgia hit me, The feeling of longing for home that Hadn't been felt by me in years hit me all at once and All i suddenly wanted was to be at home in the arms of my husband a scenario I now knew never could ever happen again. I hadn't told anyone where how or even If im coming so there was no one to receive us at the airport but Delhi was and will always be home a city I knew like the palms of my hands so I securely take Ansh into my arms and clutch Ruhi's hand in mine while catching the next taxi I find and guide him towards Mayur Vihar A place where both my families reside.

As I enter the very familiar society My heart does a spin and After all these long years spent apart I can still feel his presence a presence Id vowed would not make a difference to me A presence Id decided was of no importance to me But i could actually hear my own heart laughing at me telling me Raman no matter what he has done will always be the man I loved and Will always be the father of my children,I hear Ruhi asking me if she could go while I pay the taxi driver I nod a yes and she runs inside,With Ansh in my arms I start climbing the steps towards home I can hear the exclamations and teary greetings that Ruhi is getting from everyone around her I can hear Mummy jee Shouting Meraaa Ruhii puttar I can hear my Amma letting out a shout of joy I canhear Romi calling out Ruhiii chuiii,In all this I can sense Raman quitely watching this whole odreal with tears in his eys somewhere in my heart I can sense his turmoil his emotions on seeing his daughter after years his sorrow at seeing that she doesn't adore him like she used to and the questions in his eyes questions which want to ask Ruhi about me but before he can he sees me entering And our eyes meet and for that brief second Its like the world stops and nothing else matters my knees feel like giving away but the only thing that keeps me steady on my feet is the weight of my son on me,A son who by now has started feeling ignored so In a loud clearly accented voice asks me Mammmaaa Where are we?

And In that moment its Like the bubble bursts and everybody turns towards us towards me and Ansh particularly Ansh.

I see Ammma running towards me weeping I see mummyjee coming towards me too I see the exclamations and the answers in everybody's face,Because Ansh looks too much like Raman for there to ever be a doubt of his parentage But my gaze is fixed on Raman who looks the most shocked of them all His eyes along with absolute shock also potray a mix of sorrow Joy and absolute hurt,Not knowing about his own son breaks Raman and I see that, which makes me feel strangely guilty for a while,but the guilt vanishes as soon as I see Shagun and Adi enter the house and that guilt in my heart is replaced by anger Anger very similiar to the one I had all those years ago.

Ansh : Maamma where are we? Who are all these people? And why are they looking at us funny?

Ishita : Ansh this is family Babu.

To be continued,,,,,,Please review

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