So its totally dedicated to HIMA...
HAPPY MITWA ANNIVERSARY to all my Taareyan friends
Two Shorts on TAAREY...
LEARNT TO LOVE
Chapter-1
Dear Diary.
Today I got married , I was his father's secretary, he was an old man (Ranvijay Singhania ) he loved me, like a daughter and treated me the same.
Who am I? I am Taani Shekhawat- a orphan (oops Taani Reyansh Singhania, no more an orphan, now wife of Reyansh Singhania- MD of RS-industries.)
I don't know what will be my life in future because he married me, but still i am unable to see love in his eyes, unable to feel his affection for me , he had a pale and stren face through out the proceedings of the marriage which was done in a temple in a simple way in front of my maternal uncle- a drunkyard.
Yes Diary my bff I understand you may be thinking if he have no love no affection for me , then why did he married me?? ?? The answer is very simple...a cutiepie- Anaya- a little girl of 6- daughter of PUrvi and Arjun Shinghania..( elder son and daughter in law of Ranvijay Singhania)... but now she is an orphan , last month she became so due to the disastrous car accident where my fatherly boss Ranvijay Singhania his wife ,elder son and daughter-in-law died ..
This was the reason Reyansh married me to become her caretaker an official one her chachii ,but I knew he will not love me , neither treat me as his wife, but i will try my best to become his wife and Anaya's ma, because nobody more than me don't know the pain of being an orphan...
Its my first night as his wife but its 1.30 AM and he has not turned up...When I came Anaya already slept and while waiting for him talking to you my bff- diary.
Ok got to go bff the car honked at the main gate...my newly married husband returned, he is back TATA bff see you soon.
It was night rather the next day 1.45 AM sharp, I sat in the bed hell nervous still in my bridal attire..the door knob clicked he came inside his steps were stable but his eyes was blood red he was drunk I was nervous as well as bit frightened...
HE opened the door he came inside he felt good seeing her in his bedroom and waiting for his arrival...but just then his mind reviewed him her rejection in his college days a...and even after two years she still behaved the same whereas she has a carefree loving attitude towards others and specially ...He had reached towards her and stopped once he thoroughly invaded her personal space. She slowly shifted her sight upwards until her gaze hit the curve of his jaw, strong and currently tightened in what looked like extreme displeasure. That wasn't good. She lifted her gaze more, passed his high cheekbones and straight nose , until she reached his eyes and sucked in a breath. She'd been wrong. He was more than displeased. Furious was a much better word for it, though even that didn't seem to encapsulate all the emotion she saw in that astonishing gaze of his. He was looking at her as if he hated her,. She felt ashamed of herself even though she knew she had nothing to be ashamed about or maybe she has??
"So, you dare to enter in my room?" Now what happened you have to surrender to me...disgust dripped from his voice. Taani flinched away from the coldness of his words and the warm tight grief of his hand.
"Ouch.." It hurted like hell.. but after regaining her voice back and her brain back into working from the shock mode due to the sudden invasion in her personal space..
"Wha.. What do you mean'? " she said
"Oh.. so Miss Innocent doesn't know what I mean..." he was more than close enough.. His eyes filled with anger and burned into hers. "Your ignorance is beyond comprehension.. You always don't know what other meant to say..??" He said in almost a deadly whisper..
Silence fell. If possible, those scary eyes became even more intense and dark.. Taani's mind once again became numb.. Unable to understand what to say and what to do she just stood there. She looked away from his intense look, fidgeting slightly..With her gaze cast downwards and with her heart beating at an electrifying speed..
"So Mrs Taani Singhania' I suppose it's our wedding night today.."
"Wed.. Wedd.. Wedding night.." Taani shuttered..
He circled her as he spoke, coming to a stop just over her right shoulder so that his words ghosted across the back of her neck like a chill. It made her uneasy having him so close, and where she couldn't see him, but she suspected that's why he did it, so she forced herself not to turn around or move away.
"Yes.." Rey sucked on her neck roughly after shifting her hair to one side, sending wave after wave of pleasure and anxiety sweeping over her entire body. He slowly started removing her necklace and dropped it on the floor..
"Every girl dreams of having this particular night after wedding.. They dream and fantasize about their husbands.. Don't you want your fantasy about me to come true.." His cheek was in her hair, his lips by her ear, and his breath tickled her earlobe as he whispered in a barely audible voice.. And before she knew he had removed her earrings and had started sucking her ear.and then all her clothes were parted from her body, she was ashamed her eyes were closed.
He started to caress her navel squessed her breast . His cold hands again swept pleasure inside her body .. She was too numb to react.. Her eyes automatically closed and she started enjoying the sheer joy of pleasure... Sweat ran down the sides of her head and neck.
He again came in front of her.. He didn't know how and why.. But something about her attracted him towards her.. He initially didn't planned the night to go like this.. But seeing her in front of him with eyes casted downwards and so close to him when he stood near her invading her personal space.
And now he turned her,she was infront of him,her eyes closed and sweat tickling from her forehead and neck and disappearing God Knows where.. He felt a sudden urge to trace that sweat disappearing from her neck.. Her chest was teasing him due to the heavy breathing she was taking.. Unable to control himself more he lowered his head in the crook of her neck.. Biting on the sensitive spot of her neck..
She hissed in Pain and pleasure and her mind again came to right place.. She at once opened her eyes and pushed him away. The sudden disturbance first confused than irritated him..
"No," she said, pretty much out of breath, " You are drunk.. and it's not right.He leaned down on her and his forehead and nose touching hers.. "The way your body reacted on my touch just before,it doesen't seemed you wanted to stop me. So what changed now." He started rubbing his hands on her back, pulling her towards him, the closest he could get to her..
His face was too close to hers. She could hear his heavy breath. His eyes were unblinking and different emotions were visible through them.. Pain, Hurt , Confusion , Sorrow and Lust.. She could smell his cologne.. She felt his warm breath trickle on her lips His face towering towards her as it inches closer with every passing second... . Consequently, her face started heating up and she found herself not just speechless, but unable to move also.
She lowered her eyes to the finger that were holding her wrists and felt tingles spread through her wrist to the rest of her body. .
"I want you'" He said suddenly while cupping her face with a hand.. and tilting it back up so her eyes were looking right into his and then he carried her to his bed and then the whole night he nibbled her gave lovebites on her body in all sensitive place but never tried to sooth it..he was rough and ultimately parting her legs he entered her..marking her as his...she bleeded he was happy to see her virgin and he fulfilled his lust and long desire of marking her as his ...but was it only lust or something else unknown to both of them???
It was early morning Taani woke up it was 5.30 AM she woke from bed ,with lots of difficulty as his hands were wrapped around her lower abdomen ,she was naked she bleeded last night ...she wore a bath gown opened the window and inhaled the morning freshness...nature was always her friend...she stared at the early morning dews and her thought process went on she started talking to herself...
Taani's POV
Yesterday was my first night with my husband , yes he tortured me , we had physical love but i am sure it was not his love it was his long time desire to have my body and he fulfilled his physical desire to touch my body to feel me to make love to me...again I wonder LOVE?? But I was prepared to face his wrath I so knew he will treat me like this ..it was his wish to do so since the day I rejected him...I still remember it was my first year of college, no one was my friend as being an orphan I was always alone and he was my senior , girls drooled over him and he was a Casanova every week he had new girl friends but I don,t know why how and when he got attracted towards me... but don't worry he didn't love me but he wanted to have me just as he have his all girlfriends whenever he want right in his bed...but I refused him as being a orphan I was alone I also wanted to have someone in life and somewhere down the line I liked him ...ok I admit I loved him but I wanted to have him as my own and wanted to be his own ...not one of his so called gfs...but after college our path changed my time to stay in the orphan was end I became adult and now I had to earn my living for that I started giving interviews and I got a job in RS-Industries unaware of the fact that it was his father's office..but my boss ...oops now my late father in law was really a good person treated me as a daughter... but as the saying goes world is round he returned from US after two years completing his MBA but by the time I became close to Singhania family my other boss...oops now my late brother-in law was also a nice person and Purvi bhabii treated me as her sister... but when he returned , everything changed I again started withdrawing me from the family because he was never nice to me...he again started his ways to put me in his bed ...he wanted to take me to outdoor business trips ...but my father-in- law never liked his younger son his ways of living ..there by he never allowed reyansh to fulfil his desires...later I came to know .. my father-in-law and brother-in- law was really fed up off his affairs so sent him abroad to study. OK now no more of thinking of my past ... let me concentrate on present ...it is already 6.30 Am ... let me get ready I am here only for Anaya...
IT was 7 in the morning ... Taani came out from the washroom drapped in a red saari looking simple yet gorgeous...she sat in front of the mirror she dried her hair and while doing so she looked at the bluishred mark on her shoulder ,her swollen lips ...it pained ...she couldn't even stand properly...it was her first time she bleeded but he never cared he was force full...again her thoughts started...when she combed her hair and put the sindoor on her parted hair ...wore the mangalsutra
... TAANI's POV...
IT could be the best morning of my life but it became the night of fullfillement of his desire and lust for my body, but still I am happy because I lost my virginity to the man I loved ...afterall now I am his...he claimed me to be his...though it was not of love but still...I am now his ..physically and spiritually ...and mentally I always belonged to him long time back...I scolded myself again thinking about my life but how could I stop myself I looked at him as he was looking so cute while sleeping...I brushed my thoughts and went outside..
She went to the kitchen boiled milk for Anaya and then took it to her room..the doll was sleeping cuddling herself with a teddy and her cheeks had the dried tears smearsed..in her hand was her mom and dads pic...taani felt a pang on her chest ...and went to the window and opened the curtains the cute doll frowned in the sleep...Taani went to the bed ruffled her hair then called the cutiepie and woke her up ...she was bit afraid but seeing Taani she smiled and hugged her...she was very happy seeing her and asked...
A- Aunty ab app yeha hi rahogiii? Roz subha ap hi uthaogiii? Woh ganda wala Pinki dii nahi ayegaa..(maid)...ab woh mujhe nahi Dategaa???
T- Nahi mere bachha...mai hu na ab meri parii ko koi nahi dategaa...koi pinki di nahi ayega mere parii ke pas...bas sirf meri pari aur mai hum khub maja karengee
A- Par pehele to mai abko aunty bulatii thi aur kal pinkie di kahe rahii thi ab aap mere chachii ho.aur ab ap bhi mujhe chachuu ke taraha datogee...baat nahi karogee
T- Nahii sona mai Chachii to hu aap ki but mai apni pari ko kabhi nahi datungii...mai apni parii se khub sara payaar karungiii...aur apki chachuu bhi app se bohot payaar karta hai isiliya to woh mujhe apke chaachii bana ke le ayaaa...aap mujhe chachii bulao
A- Kya mai aap ko Chotii ma bulao????
Tears started flowing from Taani's eyes ...she was happy ..she was so happy at least after so many ears she got one relation in her life the cute doll completed her life by calling her ma...she took the doll closed to her chest squessed her and ruffled her kissed her and hugged her tight ...and then started a pios relation of mother and daughter from that day.
Reyansh's POV
I woke up in the morning it was near about 7 AM ...I was going to step out from the bed then I hard a click in the washroom door... I don't know why immediately pushed my self again inthe bed and acted sleeping...she came outside in a red simple saari she was looking like a fresh angel she sat infront of the dressing table and started drying her hair she looked so fresh and tempting yet pure ...ahhh this was her look which attracted me from her college days...I felt an urge to go and hold her., to touch her ,to take her in my embrace but I controlled when I saw her eyes , when I saw her looking at her own swollen lips when I saw her caressing the marks of my nails and teeth on her neck and shoulder... I too was surprised on seeing her like this.. That's when I again noticed her , I saw her eyes were red from crying..
I knew she was crying from long time..But I was not able to see those red eyes before due to my anger and frustration.. But then how could I ..??
I was still angry on her.. Then why wasn't I able to say anything to her now.. After seeing her crying so desperately I immediately feel guilt wash over me and for some strange reason I actually felt'bad.
'No.. I can't feel like this... Mei yeh hi too chahata tha.. usse hurt karna.. Fir..'?????
I again felt hurt... But what fault I have...Yes I admit I wanted to have her in my bed in my college days I just wanted to win the bate to my friends...I admit I was a jerk... but when she refused...she insulted me ...a girl insulted me ..my Image of cool dude was insulted ...but still did I force her?????
After college our ways parted I went to USA for my MBA and there I realized that I really liked her...she was different than other girls I longed for her...I decided after I return I will search her out and propose her...and when I came back to India my fate was in my side I just saw her in dad's office...and i was sure I will win her...I decided to take her with me in official tour and decided to propose her there but she misunderstood me and right in my face in front of my dad and brother she said she knows about my character and she will not come with me in tour ...How could she??? Couldn't she give me a chance?? Am I that bad?? Even my bro and my dad agreed to her why would they not ...they too judged me according to my previous deeds...no body believed me and I was left alone...all because of her...and even before the accident my bro and my dad didn't believe me...my daad even plan to marry her with a employee of our industry...but the world is round she ended up marrying me and now I will show her the real place I will hurt her the way she hurted me by not believing me ...agreeing to get married with someone ...else ...I was right ...but still why does her tears hurt me so much????
In this way life continued... months passed a tight bond grew between Anaya and T aani..a bond of mother and daughter...and an unknown bond between Rey and Taani...whole day life was mechanic ...taani used to arrange his clothes ,wallet, watch ,socks..etc in the morning and step out from the room before he wakes up and used to get busy with her cutiepie Anaya... for Anaya.her food dress school studies games revolved round her chotii maa...In the breakfast table both Taani and Rey used to maintain silence and Anaya was the nonstop chatter box with her chotii ma...Rey used to feel good and used to listen in silence...but never tried a conversation with them...and between Taani and Rey there used to be extream silence in the days...but nights Rey couldn't stop himself from touching Taani...some times it was harsh...sometimes soothing ...mild...and again morning used to have serine silence...even taani was used to it...she never stopped Rey in the night some where she longed for Rey's love and she accepted it in this way....
PRECAP-Building of relationship-- Aggression...love...realization...confession ....acceptence...
Ishaani
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