i never believed in love.. i always thought it happens in books and movies.. but not in real..
i saw girls talking about their boyfriends and their "love".. but i always ignored them..
to me, it always thought that love is nothing but a waste of time...
i never went through such feelings..until...
until.. he looked into my eyes and filled my maang with a pinch of vermillion...
my heart was beating so fast at that time.. as if he could hear that...
i closed my eyes at that moment.. and when he placed that maang teeka back on my forehead i opened my eyes..
he was looking at me.. as if he was waiting for my response..
i looked at him.. and he passed a loving smile to me...
i couldn't react for a moment..
i actually found that smile loving... we have been engaged for 3 months..
but in those three months i never found his smile loving..
we used to meet every weekend and spend some time together..
even a day before our marriage.. i was not in love with him..
i was worried how will i spend my whole life with a guy i don't love...
but right at this moment when he filled my maang and looked at me with so much affection...
i felt that my eyes were tearful...
i don't when.. how and why i also smiled back...
i kept looking at his face.. i was so engrossed in him that i din't even notice when he made me wear a mangalsutra...
he looked at me and widened his eyes slightly.. asking me..what happened??
i could only smile and then i touched my mangalsutra and then again looked at him...
after a few minutes pandit ji asked us to get up for taking phere..
he got up first, his sister helped me to stand up.. but my wedding lehenga was too heavy...
i din't understand why.. but i asked for his help.. he looked into my eyes and i lowered my eyes immediately and pulled my hand back...
he forwarded his hand and nodded in yes.. his sister took two steps back and smiled...
i din't look above..and held his hand...this was the first time when i actually held his hand...
i was shivering with his touch.. he held my hand and helped me to get up...
his sister said him something..and he nodded in no..
she forced him and i noticed.. he held my hand firmly..and started taking pheres...
i was so lost in his touch..
i never thought he will actually do that...
it was sounding so romantic to me...
i couldn't take my eyes off with his hold on my hand...
and then i noticed that ring i made him wear on our engagement...
we were only four people in this car.. his sister was on front seat and his brother-in-law was driving..
i looked at my parents through window
and then i saw him meeting with my parents...
he touched their feet and then he opened the door and sat in the car...
he was sitting a few inches away from me.. i shifted a bit towards my window..
in nervousness i was playing with my dupatta and that rose bud he gave me at dinner...
he was about to say something...
when his sister gave him her handbag and asked him to keep it on backseat...
he kept it on his left side..so he shifted towards me...
his shoulder touched with mine.. and i shivered with his touch...
he too realized that and shifted back as much as he could...
his sister and brother-in-law kept talking all the way..
he too replied them sometimes...
suddenly his BIL said something and he laughed..
i looked at him..
he stopped and smiled lovingly...
but i was lost in his laughter...
i was stealing glances at him...and i was actually blushing seeing him laughing and smiling...
i was lost in him.. and din't realize about time...
soon we reached home..
it was a new start of my life...
and when i entered in the house.. i looked at him..
he closed his eyes and nodded in yes...
he assured me that everything is okay..
i don't need to be scared...
soon he left and his sister and other relatives were sitting around me...
i was looking at him leaving from there...
he joined his friends and some relatives..
i kept looking at him..avoiding what other people were saying...
and my heart skipped a beat..
when he turned and looked at me...i lowered my eyes.. and he smiled..
i knew he did...
i clutched my dupatta tightly...
i was feeling shy...feeling is he was still looking at me...
i opened my hands.. and saw the initial of his name written on my palms...
i caressed that letter with my fingers.. and even that name felt so romantic...
i knew it was stupid..
bt i couldn't deny the fact...that i was in love with him...