- Rudra and Paarvati- ff
No. He can't do this; he just can't do this to me. But he did. I wanted this marriage, but not like this. I wanted to marry the guy I saw in my dreams, my savior and protector, my hero. Rudra. Finally I realized how wrong I was about everything. My whole life was totally a joke. Tejawat is the one who ruined my family, he killed my parents, my sister and god knows how many innocent people. How can someone be so evil? No, how can someone be so stupid, how could I not see through his mask of lies. I should have listened to Rudra a long time ago. It's my fault, Rudra was always right. He was doing his job just the way he should have. He was doing it for his beloved country, and I was so foolish to call him the evil guy. I regret. How much I wish I could just go back and fix everything I did wrong and make it up to him. If I had listened to him, he wouldn't hate me like he does and marry me to make my life a living hell.
Now I'm stuck. No idea what to do. My life is over. I'm married with the guy I was starting to fall for, but who hates me and married me to make things worse for me. Its like I'm having an awful nightmare. The situation was so tensed. Rudra married while he was drunk, like a mad man. At least he didn't forget last night's actions after waking up this morning. I would totally have gone crazy if he somehow didn't remember his own marriage.
It hurts that he hates me this much that he even can marry me if that what makes me cry. It hurts that none of this means anything to him.
But I want to be strong. I won't let him see me cry, I can't just let him win that easily. Heads up. I will face everything that comes, and I will try my best to make it up to everyone in this house and do my best to survive and not break down.
And again, I need to make it up to him. This marriage means a lot to me, doesn't matter what he thinks. I will show him, that I'm not wrong and neither did I ever want to make things difficult for him. I've made mistakes, but I have apologized too, I know I was wrong. He needs to understand me. I can't bear his hate towards him, it killing me inside.
I was so lost in my thoughts that I didn't even notice Jijjha entering the room.
thats it😃 Please comment and dont forget to like. Tell me if i should continue and start the first chapter and come with suggestions :D
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