Fiza' OS Gallery... RahGuzar Pg42 21/3/2014 - Page 25

u know my opinion partner...dubaara not posting here LOL :)

Bht din bad tera koi os read kia, ar bht acha laga :-) love u dear :-) tu bht achi likhti hai, n with tym u bcm an awesome to greatest writer :-)
chal ab jaldi se 2nd part updt kar :-)

Firstly to big hug for u... 🤗 thanku sooo much for writing jano api...
but second why u said its boring...kaha sa boring h yeh..its not necessary to always write romantic n whi ek he jaise love stories...I really like this ts veryy much...beautiful n poetic...
waise to I already told u ka mujhe kase lga yeh pehla he...but again yha bta rhi ho hahah
I love the starting ...ya sometime hta h aise u feeling lost..sab bamatlb sa lta h..n agar is bech agar calculus karni per jai to ek simple se integration b nhi jti haha I love it u give maths touch...

ahaa poetry was to good..sharyrna andaz me goftogo mujhe bohat pasand...specially the mayank rply wali...
nupur know yeh prank b ho skta h still she can't stop her self to rply back..
Yeh kiya kaha end kar diya apna... MEIN yhi kahti agar pehla para na hta lolzzz..
but still mujhe intezar h q ka ap kuch new add karna wali ho isme..jaldi sa update dna...
n lastly again a big thankuu jano api for writing...
seriously its fantastic OS ..different n peace ful..beautiful...jisko pardhta wakt face per ek pyari sa smile rhti h.. 😊

Nicely written Fiza and loved the poetry in between 😊

red nupur

blue mayank

Part: 2

You know tht feeling... no u donot know tht... whn u looked each n evry page of this book ... 100 times.. than u went and issue all the editions of the same book in an urge to know mayb he wrongly wrote it in another one..but u know ur wrong ... weaving stupid dreams and making hopes out of nothing... u just ignore all the eyes on u who believe that u have turn mad .. a single person wanting all the edition of same book.. and then not willing to give back too

And that is exactly what happens tht day.. I kept rooted there and then I look all around mayb sumone is there just psiing me off... but I found none... with all the strength I can master I stod up from there and took other side of the libray putting all books back ... so tht I can still hope and belive tht he might just appear and took that book n wrote sumhting... sumthing anything even a goodbye would do yet I need sumthing to hold on to ...

The whole day passed and it was 7pm in the evening I kept siting there.. yet I found no one there ..with mom continuously asking me where I m .. I stod up .. trying to make my tears go back and went home .. numb .. lost and torn ..the whole journey of my home was just thinking wht went wrong and I know I had the answer ... everything.. it was nothing and I was expecting a fairytale out of it...

I straight went to my room on the account of being tired and than I check my cell again to rechk wht all that was my hallucinating ... but it wasn't ...the image was right there it was just me who was building a story out of nothing...

The whole night passed away in me shedding tears.. have no intention of going to the that place next day.. but my mom err... and that stupid prof who asked me to do sum changes in tht assignment...

It was just I have to go to the place again.. I have to go to the library too and use the same book too.. wht I m gonna do n how I just donot know..

The whole day classes passed with me in a state of lost... and dragged my feets to the place again with nothing in me.. I was just feeling like walking for the heck of it .. I took the book in my hand opend it and star working on my assignment ... I need a distraction and following my ambition nothing can be best than that ...

Completing the work I closed the book and than I stoped ... My whole world stoped... I felt a pank .. as if sumthing hited me with such strength tht I can almost feel everything spinning around me... it can't be .. I am just imagining it .. no it cant be true...

Gulping the choking feeling inside my throat I slowly and not looking at it opend the last pages of book again... and place my eyes there... and there I found sumthing again..

Apki nazar Nupur ji...

kabhi asa ho aansoo chunney wala koi na ho
aur rone ko bhi jee chahe mujhe yaad karlena

jab koi bhi na aae maseehaee ko
dard jab had se barh jay mujhe yaad karlena

PS: muskurahat zayda achi lagti hai ap k chehray per... woh halki se.. sharmati hoi..woh jo ap ki chehray per badlty tewro se jalhki thi us din... in ashar(poem) ko parhty haoy...haranee se kissi ko dhonti hoi...aur phr apk chehray per khelti hoi... frown doesn't suits u tht was there yesterday..:).. sorry about yesterday too

MAseehaee: maseeha is the person who heals treats..

WHt is this... I just was hearing this question repeated with evry heart beat of mine... I was feeling it will cum out any moment... my name write there on tht top...my smile his earnest request...now wth the hell it is... I felt my self really dropping a tear and closing my eyes... Dipping my head in those pages.. I cant let everyone see me so broken... how can u just do tht... in a day u disappear and than cum and ... sigh...why cant he see tht wht he is doing to me in all that... can u blame me to be drowning in this ocean of words.. sumone was just hiting the finest cords of my heart... he was just making me feel so special... the feeling of sumone having so much time to just come here n rite for me... to think, to write to but effort... this time there was a note.. his PS was in form of a small paper attached to it .. tht I detached from there n read... he is here I can feel it... he will not be taking the risk of adding this note if he isn't sure only im gonna read it.. I cant even smile now.. nor I cant stop myself to feel so much insde.. just mere words can thy do this to a person... but they were just not mere words... the very feelings. Pure and divine feelings... Today I got to know wht he has done to be... I was feling hyperventaled or over the moon... suddenly I realize I wasn't breathing since yesterday... I felt each cell of my body suddenly getting alive.. I felt..i really felt

har husn-e-saadaa lau, na dil mein utar sakaa
kuch to mizaaj-e-yaar mein geharaaiyaa.N bhii ho.n

PS: just flirting ??

I took the risk... of telling him tht I m getting effected my this as I was.. from past three days I am back to my reading habit of all my favt kalam's... im back on weaving those beautiful emotions inside my heart... thos lovestroy wch happens just like tht... those feelings wch aroused in ur heart no matter wht u do ... all this is cuming inside me... I need to tell him wht he has done to me... yesterday was hell... and I cant take it anymore... I need to tell him he has to cum clear.. I cant play games ...

I have been a simple person to much involved in my ambitions and goals tht I never paid attention to all this... I donot say I donot believe in all this yet does u actually really fel so strong inside there.. and these days I m afraid yet I m feeling .. those all feelings...tht I always have for him are cuming on surface with such force tht I am afraid thy will make me drown ... feelings of going to libray just to search this one book... getting worried and irritated seeing it with sum other girls... as if this was my possession...and than realizing they donot have my edition.. fanatically waiting the whole day the whole day yesterday I was in library yet whn he wrote these lines I donot know... I wasn't able to locate him ... I wasn't able to see these words...and I was so sad, so deavested ... n I felt tht the pain tht the stupid dream im weaving is stupid enough tht it will break ... it is meant to be broken... this a smiple game for sumone... he might be just having fun in rplying all this... and I m no one to blame him for wht he is causing me... wht he is doing to me... but he was there.. even yesterday I know its very scary but shud I say the truth its feeling tht ur floating in air ... air having just love...

So I took the risk to tell him tht I m taking it in wht way... I so desperately want to know everything... placing the book back a passed a silent prayer closing my eyes... tht 2morow I hope an answer does cum... as I wont b able to take the pain of playing the game n losing evything... it now or never..

duniyaa ke tazakire to tabiyat hii le bujhe
baat us kii ho to phir suKhan aaraa_iyaa.N bhii ho.n

PS: hum tu dil k haal kah rahy thy... apko rusva nhi..apko daarna pershan kerna maqsad nhi.. hum sirf qadam agay barha rahy hain.. apki marzi ap qaboolain ya nhi.. per pls usko assay kisi bhi nazayba harkat k naam na day... pls

He had continued the same gazal.. yet I know I was having tears in my eyes... shy smiling playing on my lips... I did it wht my heart told me to do... trust him...stupid It might feel yet it felt so rite... to just let him hold all of this... let him have all of me.. than he decide he want s to destroy me or make me...I want to tell him I just accepted him.. I had done it before .. long back.. evrytime him attaching a note makes me feel amzed... I have sumthing to hold on to.. yet I nevr saying anything doesn't bother him.. does he can read me so well... yes I know he can read be very well ..the way im beliving it his him just him

pahale pahal kaa ishq abhii yaad hai 'Faraz'
dil Khud ye chaahataa hai ke rusvaa_iyaa.N bhii ho.n

...

This time I felt he is rite behind me whispering it in my ear... and literally feel myself shuddered... suddenly and so easily he called me his...

faasale aise bhii ho.nge ye kabhii sochaa na thaa
saamane baiThaa thaa mere aur vo meraa na thaa

woh ki Khushbuu kii tarah phailaa thaa mere chaar suu
mai.n use mahasuus kar sakataa thaa chhuu sakataa na thaa

Oh god this blush and her twinkling eyes evrytime she reads my note will take away my breath... I never thought that one day im gonna show my feelings to her like this... I even never that this such happy go lucky, always making others happy has such an amzing taste and in depth feeling of love... tht day whn I saw her looking out the window with such a far away look, it made my heart skip a beat... I have seen her here like me its her escape from everything everyone... and many a times I have seen her thinking about sumthing ... and many atimes.. as if asking sumthing.. tht day she made me so curious to know wht she was writing in book... there was a smile on her face, forlorn expression and she spread her fingers on the word chukled pitfully and than placed the book back... I rushed to it and open and look at her retrieving figure... is she feeling tht alone tht writing words make her feel good..

I couldn't hold myself and I issue tht book for a month.. nobody dares to read her words... i look out and try to locate her .. and then I found her in alley.. it was not a crowded place rather not at all a people place... she was walking along deliberately on the dry leaves enjoying the sound of it.. playing with a kitten who was actually enjoying playing with her.. whn my feets moved to her I didn't knew and than I was standing behind her just an inch away.. her hairs falling on face making me more drown to her... but luckily my lord made her turn and I came back to earth.. she was scared and she gasped.. I couldn't cum up with any words.. I tried and than just left from there...

At nite whn I was in my bed an I looked at thses words.. I thought of sumthing and than I wrote sum more lines in it.. and I was looking forward to place it on the shelf back but only whn she will b there.. I passed a prayer to god tht pls make her take this one only.. and than in all this here we are... I cant imgine she actually has started to feel all tht I have in my heart with these words...

Tht day when she didn't find the book...I hated myself... but I cant help it I want to be sure to make her know .. to be sure of where she is heading towards... it shudnt be anything like fling... or sum shoulder in her rainy days... I need to be sure tht she is feeling wht I want to say..she is reading me... I need to know... and whn she read and fund my note for the frst time.. the tear she was hiding my diping her head I saw it.. and hated myself more... She was as daam involved in it... like I am.. and her words her fear told me .. I need to say it

And today whn I actually said I really want to feel her close.. the shuddered she felt made me smile as if I was there.. and I m actually saying her tht I want to touch her feel her.. and there was red on her cheeks.. she again look around to see if I m here anywhere.. and I chukle u cant see me not yet.. im here behind the shelf of books.. hiding perfectly .. and enjoying evry reaction I get .. her knowing tht im watching her... her shying.. her in awkwardness placing her hair strand unnecessarily behind her ear.. than biting her lip.. and writing sumthing again...and yet again I found my self impatiently waiting for the moment she will place the book back in shelf

next post pls...cont

PRESENT

PAST

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I said it ..this time I clearly said it tht I m falling for him, and I want this time tht this dream cum true.. so tht in my eyes those weaving dreams can he make thm true

sab log liye sang-e-malaamat nikal aaye
kis shahar mein ham ahal-e-muhabbat nikal aaye

ab dil kii tamannaa hai to ai kaash yahii ho
aa.Nsuu kii jagah aa.Nkh se hasarat nikal aaye

I know its time ... with her words she has asked the ultimate question... im playing or ready to claim my words... tht they are not meraly words they are true feelings of mine... taking a deep breath I wrote these lines to her...

Ye khwaab hai, khushbu hai k jhaunka hai k pal hai
Ye dhund hai, baadal hai k saaya hai k tum ho !

Is deed ki saa'at mein kaee rang hain larzaa(n)
Main hoon k koi aur hai, duniya hai k tum ho !

Dekho ye kisi aur ki aankhein hain k meri !
Dekhoon ye kisi aur ka chehra hai k tum ho !

Ye umr-e-gurezaa(n) kahin tthehre to ye jaanoon
Har saans mein mujh ko yehi lagta hai k tum ho !

Har bazm mein mauzu-e-sukhan, dil-zadgaa(n) ka
Ab kaun hai, Sheereen hai k Laila hai k tum ho !

PS: can I see u on those aisles again... where leaves falls.. and make ways.. can I have u there just for me.. where u weave dreams and I make thm true... this time for sure..

Now..

I closed the book and took a deep breath several breaths to clam myself... He has called me.. I will meet him. Or rather finally will get assure tht its him... But I was scared wht my heart has thought all this while wht if it isn't true.. he has never been such kinda of a guy and if he wouldn't be the one... does my feelings will change... I know it will...change everything.. I have felt hoped with these words.. for the love I had for him. Tht he reciprocate it.. wht if its sumone else... but this is now or never... I m just hoping tht im not going there to break a heart.. will I be able to do tht god..

I took the book in my hand ... and went to the aisle.. from the day it started sumwhere I know wch aisle he is talking.. on same aisle where we have been ... never together but have always be around there.. sumwhere whn today I look back and pass these path to tht destination... I feel he had never left me alone... whnever I was there from nowhere he had always appered... And I just hope today one more time he does

As stod there turning around here n there.. I couldn't find anyone... was this a prank... I was already in tears just thinking about it.. and than I voice a voice I so wanted hear.. a voice I have heard so many times yet never felt like this they way it is feeling today... my name never felt such the way it is sounding now... n I closed my eyes more cluthing the book to myself... As I felt the foots step near me and he stop just at my back..

Ik dard ka phaila hua sehra hai k main hoon !
Ik mauj mein aaya hua darya hai k tum ho !

Wo waqt na aaye k dil-e-zaar bhi soche
Is shehr mein tanha koi ham sa hai k tum ho ?

This was it.. and there was a pin drop silent the only thing I could feel was his breath on my ears and his n mine hearts beating lound.. our panting breaths yet I cant do anything neither turn ... I so want to turn around an look at him... get sure of it tht it is him yet I couldn't find any such strength in me ...

Nupur.. he again called me and than I felt him move .. he came in front of me...his hand slowly made there way on my face... bruning my skin with his warmth...

Nupur look at me... Pls... his voice tht was cuming choked I can feel the fear of rejection in to.. and slowly I opend them and saw him standing there and felt him having heavy sigh just whn he read my confession in my eyes and next I slowly made myself neared him and my hands went around him and I felt push on my back he made me crushed in his arms.. and I hugged him back too.. it was an ultimate destination ...being in his arms was wht actually felt home...I clutch to him tightly and he brought me close even more if tht was possible...

Standing there for wht seems like just a sec though was quite along time...he slowly broke away... and I looked upto him... as he wiped the tears tht I just realized were cuming out of eyes...and than I got all this back... I pushed him back and he was shocked

Nupur..???

Wht nupur... tum seedhy se nhi bol sakty ...aur us din pora ek din .. tum ko bht maza arhaa tha ...

Nupur pls meri baat suno... Nupur

Choro mjhy nhi suni,..mayank choro...

Nupur us din I just want to b sure k tum meray sath Mazak tu nhi ker rahi ho... Ya yeh sirf koi fantise tu nhi hai tumharay liyan... I need to be sure..and I am sorry mein tum ko bht rolaya...

Tum ko kasay pata...tum mjhy dekh rahy hoty thy...I pulled more my self away and he holded my shoulder strongly n pulled me more near

Han I was watching u.. cause I can't take the risk of letting others get to the book or our talks.. I want to see k tum ko kasay lagta hai ... k u feel k yeh mein hoon k nhi...har daafa jasay yaha mjhy dekh ker rasta badla layti thi wasy tu nhi kero gi...

Ofcource I can feel its u.. warna mein pagal ho jo sab ko pyar jatati raho gi...

Per tum ko itna yaqeen kasay tha k yeh mein hi hon... aur jab mjh per itna yaqeen tha tu har bar bhag kyun jati thi...

I can read alittle annynouce and disappointment in his voice... and yes its true evrytime he tried to be friends with me I would just flew away from there...but even today how to explain all tht I felt inside me.. all the time he was around me...

We have been in same year and same set of courses from past four years even a common frnd to.. there have been many time whn our path crossed more in just acquaintance way.. mayank has always been the star of the class either it was academics or his personality or his ways with everyone he was always one person talked about ..it somewhere always sacred me to talk to him... why he is being frndly with me... thousand questions always pop up in my head... yet in these four years one thing was cleared he does not think of me as any random girl if not special yet he respects me... and that was really big for me...enough to..

Ervytime we use to talk.. my attraction to him will always increase...

First time we had a proper talk was ..whn in my 1^st semester he joined me on the walk to the bus stand ..

It was an extra class.. and with god grace his n my frnds were not on this subject so it was just me n him left ... As most of the class we didn't..being both a little introvert..

Mayank: u mind if I join u in the walk..

Nupur: tumhari bhi uni hai jaha jhahy chal sakty ho...

He looked at me n laughed n I joined it too... as this was exactly wht he said whn once I asked to sit on a table at my frnds party... and he said.. tumhar abhi frnd hai jaha chay bhaito

Mayank: hey tht day.. tumhain yeh tu nhi lag aim being sarcastic

Nupur: hmm... honesty

Mayank: fish... really im sorry I was just joking... tum itna boring expression lay ker bhati thi I thought of changing th mood.. tu tum waha se islyn chali gait hi...sorry

Nupur: its oky.. I smile n we can't to walk not knowing wht to talk about..

Mayank: tumhary frnds is course mein nhi

I was just able to shake my head in no... I was surprise I talk so much tht my frnds at times say shut up plss... n now when I really want to be frnds with him really wish to say sumthing im just tongue tied...

I looked at him he nodded his head.. he was the only one who was trying to converse... yet me just tryig to fins sumthing and here cums our bus stop.. biding bye to each other we went away...

This was how always it was... I wish every day to just get a chance to talk to him and whn I get I will find ways to run away.. but wht binds me more towards him was the way he handles me... he was never pushy or sarcastic or anything he was always so modest humble and trying to make me at ease as much as possible... the only thing in all this I was afraid was tht maybe he is just like tht and treat everyone like this yet im behaving as if I being treated specially... And to all this the route I chosed was to escape from him... yet he always mange to make me stick to him only...

Mayank: tum ko kya mein bht pakata hoon

Nupur: nhi asa tu nhi,..kyun... I was surprised the way he just appear and said this...

Mayank: tu phir tum ko meri shakal kisi horror film k hero ki yaad dilate hai

Nupur: nhi ... tum assay kyun bol rahy hon...he nodded his head in ok I get it way

Mayank: tu phir jab bhi mein baat kerta hon tum asi kyun hojati ho

Nupur: huh

Mayank: yeh lo phir se.. hum kya monosyllabic way mein baat keray gay... He said this so srsly yet michiviouness was ozzing out from his eyes... and I couldn't help to laugh with him...

Nupur: kerti tu hoon baat...I was red with embarrassment... he almost caught me...

Mayank: ya ya dekhta hon frnds k sath tu itnaaa bolti hon meray sath nhi... ohhh so u donot consider me a frnd ah im hurt...

Nupur: har larki se asi hi baat kerty ho... aj pata chala mayank sharma k ass pass woh kyun ghoomti hain..

He leaned to me and was left stilled..

Mayank: kyun tum ko bora laga...

Nupur: huh... nhi.. mjhy ..kyun

And I heard him laughing... I taged my hairs back...

Mayank: just tell me tum mjhy dekh ker kis horror hero ki yaad ati hai Edward mat kahana pls mein suicide kerlo ga

Nupur: oh plss... woh itna bora lagta hai mjht k bus.. atay ki bori

(all twilight fans im sorry I donot want to hurt ur feelings yet)

Mayank: acha tu mein tum ko acha lagta hoon... he raised his eyesbrows...

Nupur: nhi han woh... and again I know he was pulling my leg... tum mjhy aj kyun tang ker rahy ho

Mayank: tang ker raha hon tu tum bol rahi warna tu han ya na mein sir hilati hoo

After tht day everything change we use to talk yet still in not frndly yet not rude maaner ... it was strange relationship.. relationship yes I named it one... we always use to talk about point of views and all.. nevr personal I donot know anything about his personal life nor he asked tht about me... but sumwhere we know eachother... as sumwhere we know POV of each other about things in life.. and every time I will listen to his side of views I will fall more in love with him

Mayank: hello ap meray kayalo mein kaha tak nikal gia... batao na tum ko kasay pata k yeh mein hi hon...

Nupur: tumahin samrat ki party yaad hai jis mein ap shiarana mood mein thy...tum us ko usko samjha rahy thy to move on after sheena .. do u rember wht u said to him... ...

kyun ata hoa hai gubar mein, gham-e-zindagi ke fishar mein
woh jo darj tha tere bakht mein, so woh hogaya, usey bhool ja

(ATA=covered, bakht=fate)

as I ended these lines he smiled and shocked his head...

Mayank: tum k meray words itny yaad thy

Nupur: haan .. lafhz ba lafhaz... jab tum ny isi gazal k start use kiya tu mein sirf tumahray aur ksis se relate nhi ker pai

Mayank: aur aj koi aur hota tu...

Nupur: tu bhag jati ..i smile and he laughed...

Kisi ko nhi jataya per Tum mjhy tu jata do..

Kya...

Tht u love me...

Kyun tumharay kahny per pabandi hai...

He chukled and I love it... His smile is so enchanting always... He locked his eyes with me and lean closer..making me hold my breath n my eyelids droped...

I love u ..i always have...ab tu nhi bhago gi na he whispered in my ears...

And I love u... and went again in his arms.. I place wch is now my home... I place tht makes me feel the world is rite there...

Originally posted by: --Sanchu--

two words: Simply Outstanding!

really😲😲 thank GOD fianlly 😳😃

amazing one..beautiful ending fiza
thanks for the pm

So dreamy.. after a long time im reading something like this, reading again and again..living each of those emotions. Thanks for writing this.