He can't see her!!

He was blinded years back by the desertion of one beautiful woman. He lost his gaze when he saw a betrayed man's pain every moment of every single day. His sight was better lost than face the consequences of trusting a beautiful woman, and her betrayal. And his darkness increased with every taunt, every barb from his heart broken father. The old man finally found his peace, his sight, in Paro's innocent and simple face, but the son remains in the dark, or to be honest, chooses it over light.

In essence, today, he does not see Paro, neither does he hear her pleas of innocence, or her requests for trust...all he sees is his mother walk out. Paro's defence does not even make a dent in his defenses. A woman who walked away without a care, without a thought, that's all he remembers. Paro is but a shadow of the ghost from his past. For him Paro is not an individual, just a representative of an unworthy species. He just cannot see or hear, or even begin to fathom the girl, whose eyes speak volumes of her mistakes and her repentance. All he sees is a woman, a beautiful woman, and all is lost. All her regret, her actions and arguments are lost on him, cause he is lost in the past, was lost the day she walked out.

All that stands before the brave girl is a wall, an empty, concrete wall!! Try and break it, scale it, crack it...the wall stands...Blind eyes, deaf ears!!

In order to give Paro her due, the fogs of past will have to lift, the mists of distrust and abandonment will have to clear, bygones will have to bygones and Rudra is just not ready to move on...he never was. His heart and mind stopped, froze in that moment of time, when she left him without a backward glance. His father has found his courage, his strength but Rudra remains in the dark recesses of horrors experienced and never forgotten.

Rudra simply stated the truth of his life when he said ask life for yourself, ask death for me...but don't ask for my trust...not in this life...cause I will never give it and I don't even have it. End of the story.

True.. He can't see paro as an individual.. He just sees her as a person not to be trusted.. His defences are up.. Not for himself, he can bear the pain she might inflict.. But he can't take the pain she can cause to his father.. Not again.. Never again.. So even if his BSD wala dimaag says something else, the little boy in him is scared to believe it.. He can't risk his father getting hurt again :(