That was the day I joined the Madhubala - Ek Ishq Ek Junoon forum. Today is February 5th, 2014. The day I leave.
So much has changed in my life in the past two years.
Just imagine this. September 21st, 2012, when I made my first post in the MEIEJ forum, I was suffering from severe clinical depression. Today, as I make my final post, I am happy and cured.
Now you must be wondering why I'm even telling you all that. The truth is, RK and RishBala pulled me out of my depression and saved my life. I owe my life to DVD.
Before making comments like "she's taking this too far, it's just a show", I need you to understand that the show distracted me enough to stop negative thoughts from forming in my mind. I became attached to the show more than I had ever been attached to a show before. I dedicated my spare time to the show and to the forum. That's how I began writing, making posts, making siggies, making gifs, and making VMs. All to distract myself. Little did I know that it'd turn into an obsession which would be loved by many people.
I can't thank you all enough for all the love and support you've given me through my journey through the forum, from the beginning to the very end. From my first FF, Tum Dena Saath Mera, to my last FF, Love Goes On. From my first RishBala VM, Tu Jahaan, to my last VM, a tribute to RishBala (still in the process of being made). From my first OS, RK's Love Confession, to my last OS, The Daughter of a Superstar. From my first siggy, to my last siggy. From my first post, to my final post. There were times I ran four FFs at one time to other times when I was writing OSs daily and making multiple VMs a week. You've all been there for me throughout everything. And I am grateful and extremely appreciative of it all. Thank you. Thank you is all I can say but I know it is not enough to express how thankful I truly am.
I still remember the first time someone told me they were my 'fan'. I can't even describe how I felt upon reading that. It made my day so much better, it boosted my self-esteem and self-confidence. I didn't feel like a loser anymore, I didn't feel like I was worthless anymore. I felt loved and that made me want to do so much more for all of you. So not only did DVD/RishBala help me...but the members of this forum helped me a lot in my life.
I apologize that my writing, siggy, gif, and VM making has come to an end in this forum and I won't be continuing but I will truly miss it and all of the lovely comments you all used to leave whenever I'd post my creations or writing in this forum.
After this post, the last post I make will be the post for my final special hour-long tribute VM for RishBala, just so I can get it out to everyone, for everyone to see and so no one misses out on it. So keep a look out for that because I won't be sending out PMs I don't think.
Also, I will not be posting my writing in MEIEJ forum anymore. However, if you'd like to see some of my old writing works or updates on that new FF I started on RishBala, Love Goes On, you may go to this website: http://iprittbi.wordpress.com/
It is yet to be updated but I will be sure to post my writing there as soon as I get the chance. If you have me on FB as well, you can catch my writing there as I'll post when I've updated.
Anyways, I still remember the feeling I had the first time I saw RK. When he turned his head to stare up at beautiful Madhu the night of the Aa Zara Kareeb Se dance. I still remember the first time I cried over the show, when RK had been shot and Madhu said "you know, how many more things we have to fight over" and when she shook his limp body on the hospital bed and said "you have two options...wake up...or...wake up". I still remember the way I felt the first time I saw RK's dimples. The day they shared their special Mr. India moment and shared their first true laugh together. The Main Pareshan' dance and all the hype in the forum when we received our first promo of Madhu's love realization, trying to figure out if it was a dream or reality. All the adorable moments after Madhu realized she loved RK. Their growing friendship. RK's confession. Their moments full of love. When RK saved Madhu from hanging. And the betrayal. Upon seeing the promo...I can't even describe how I felt. At first I was heartbroken, then I was excited. Watching the whole thing play out was amazing. RK was back' as many said. It was a track that I loved. The way Madhu cried out her heart, the way she said how will I live'...she made us all feel with her. Then RK's slow realization and their close, passionate moments again. Their true marriage. I cried when Dulhe Ka Sehra started playing and they were putting vermala's over each other. The smiles on their faces when Madhu placed it over RK's head...I cried. Their moments leading up to their daughter's birth...RishBala's final dance. RK's final 'ahaan' and 'biwi'...RishBala's final 'I love yous'...And finally. RishBala's end...speechless.
I don't think I've cried so much ever before. I've been an emotional wreck since Monday. I had grown so attached to the show and RishBala over the past two years...I didn't even know I was so attached until I noticed how much their death had an impact on me. RishBala will forever live on in my heart and I can't even describe what they mean to me. Though they're fictional characters, they mean a lot to me.
Even though I had not been watching the show the past month, this past week's episodes were enough to remind me of my love for RishBala and DVD.
I still remember waking up every morning and instantly going to watch the live airing of the show online. Thinking about the show in class and not being able to wait to go home and watch the show. Always anticipating what would happen next. The feeling the show used to give me, I will never forget. It was a unique feeling, one I've never felt by a show before and one I never will again. A once in a lifetime feeling.
I came here, just interested in a show, hoping to talk about the show but little did I know that I'd also make wonderful friends here as well. Yes, I made many friends and most of you I have contact with outside of IF, like on Facebook, email, or Twitter. Some friends I don't and I hope we find a way to keep contact. Besides that, I will truly miss everyone here, even those who hated on me and gave me a reason to laugh. I'll miss this forum more than I thought I would the day I first joined. I never thought a forum would come to grow so important to me, but it has.
Yes, I've tried many times in the past to leave the forum but I never made a true farewell letter because I knew that I'd always come back for RishBala. I have taken breaks from the forum but I always ended up coming back for RishBala. But now? Now that RishBala are gone, I have no true reason to come back. Yes, I am a DD fan, but I am also a VD fan. I'm a DVDian to be honest. The first time I heard of DD and VD was in MEIEJ, so no, I never watched their previous shows. So I hope you all understand why I'm leaving. Even though DD's still here, for me...MEIEJ is incomplete without RishBala...our DVD. I only ever stuck around for RishBala...and I won't be able to stick around the MEIEJ forum any longer. RishBala were the only reason I was on IF for these past couple years...I won't be able to see DD play opposite anyone besides VD in this show because MEIEJ meant RishBala to me. I'm sure people understand how I feel.
I can't describe how I'm feeling right now...I wasn't expecting RishBala to come to an end so soon. I truly thought they'd last to at least 1000 episodes together...
Anyways, thank you everyone. For everything. I've had a wonderful journey in the forum and you're all to thank for that. I grew as a person and found talent that I never thought I had before in writing, picture editing, and video editing.
I apologize to anyone who I may have upset in any way in the past. I apologize to anyone if I've said anything that may have hurt them.
I've always just tried to help put smiles on people's faces because putting a smile on someone else's face always put a smile on my face.
You've been like a family to me for the past couple years. Whenever I felt down, I knew I could count on you all to cheer me up with your posts and PMs. Whenever I wanted to share my happiness over something; I knew I could turn to the forum. Whenever I wanted to share ANYTHING, I knew I could turn to you all.
"Friends are the family you choose." - Jess C.
I love you all, and will miss you.
I wish you all, all the luck and happiness in the world. All of you deserve it. Keep smiling and live your lives with no regrets.
And with that, for the last time, Positive Pritt is out.
How to keep in contact with me if interested:
Email: iprittbi@gmail.com
Twitter: https://twitter.com/IPrittBI
FaceBook: https://www.facebook.com/idesi.girli
YouTube: http://www.youtube.com/channel/UCfxpy5TrtQHMG6xR-GtCAbQ
Udne Ki Aasha
1