Fobeidy,Milli:)
I am touched with your response and to see you cared :)
Milli,thank you for your offer but I have already dealt with it.I know how to use the spam key.
It is obvious your belief in me is superficial and I see no reason to prove myself to anyone.It was just a request and I am sure the person indulging in it will heed to my request.I am too old and not in sync with your world and am only requesting to be left alone.I regret having been a part of this entire exercise as I have never regretted anything before in my life.
I am not aware what htht is .
I am not one to be influenced by anyone's, least of all Zee's divisive tactics.
In my lifelong commitment to be with the youth and to guide them to better values in life I realise I have allowed my dreams to overstretch. I can not translate into virtual world what I was able to achieve in the real.
This effort will remain what it is... just an unfulfilled dream :(
However if I have been able to influence even one to safer activities I will be at rest.Though I have quit, my soul is in turmoil because I was not able to impact anyone here.But in life one has to learn to accept defeat as well as victory.
To trace back my futile journey on IF I came to QH/IF as my sister requested me to guide everyone to post images on Karan's celebrity page. I did that in all sincerity ,but was knocked speechless with the rot that prevailed on the forum.I was shocked to see the abusive language that was used and nauseated by the FFs etc. For me this activity flouted all the norms of decency and I was indeed distraught that the admins as well as the rest attacked me for moral policing.
I was about to quit with a firm resolve to take the issue to higher authorities ( something I am actively pursuing ) when a few asked me to stay on as there were some on IF that did their own things and did not indulge in the crossfire.Sheila was one of them and mainly because of her I stayed back to read the analysis of Karan's work in QH, some of which was brilliant I must admit.
When Karan quit I too decided to leave IF.It was destiny that drew me to read Milli's post and take the decision to support you in your crusade to avenge Karan's honour.
At that nascent stage I had no clue it was going to balloon to this scale.I had different views yet again but the reason I stayed on was always the same ...my love for the youth and a desire to guide them right. Which I did to the best of my ability trying dexterously to avoid a collision even though the methods at times appalled me.
I braved up to speak up when we were treading on slippery surface.Thank you for standing by me on such occasions,but it was to your gain to avoid the topic.
The latest move to convert our crusade to voyeurism to pry into the actor's life is not my practice in life and will never be. As the latest news that has come out in public the man is still unwell,and this is the last thing he needs ..especially from those who are 'fighting' for him.How is it going to help him if we remove the one support he has and that to my mind is his wife Jenny.
I had to make my protest public as I do not subscribe to PMs which can be monitored when shared with others .This was not washing dirty linen in public ..I think the linen had been taken to the cleaners with SJST by the very people who accuse me of doing that.
I just had to make my protest to this vagrant act public.I am sorry I did so as I can now see that most thrive on the juicy stories as is evident with the FFs etc.
This will be my last interaction.I am done with trying to restrain you.You have all made your choices clear and I accept that.I will not follow this path esp since Karan is yet recovering and I feel we should give him space.
QH no longer interests me ..you,the youth, were the reason I was here. I tried but I failed.If you have any doubts in your mind you are free to visit a Group on FB ...Loreto College Geography Dept.It is a free group and anyone on FB has access to it . It is my dept, my karmabhumi, where I spent a quarter of a century to lead young girls like you to achieve excellence in all walks of life.If you make the effort you will see many I taught almost 50 yrs back write to thank ..and many visit me here in Goa.
It is a pity I could not translate my endeavour to the virtual world .
Edited by mamta-s - 11 years ago