Yaadein Yaad Aati h Shivi Os

Don't know what nonsense I blabbered below

Hope you guys like it

There is one line talking about suicide not anything extreme

If anyone can suggest a better title please tell because I'm not finding the current one an exact fit 🤞🤞🤞🤞🤞

P. S will proof read later🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗

Raavi aaj tujhe gaye hue pura ek saal ho gya h

Aaj bhi jab uss din k baare main sochta hu toh khud ko koshta hu gaaliyaan deta hu ki naa hota main late toh aaj Shyad tu yahan humare pass humare Saath hoti

Apni wahi pagalpan wali harqtein karti pure pandya parivar par apna haq jamati pandya store main hukum chalati ghumti jhalli si meri Raavi

I know I know tu kahegi meri Raavi kbse hogyi tu

Main toh tujhse Nafrat karta tha na

Ek paal bhi bardaasht nhi tha tere sath toh aaj ye itna apna pan kyun

Aaj Aaj ye shiva pandya tere Saare sawalo k jawab dega apna dil khol k rakh dega aaj tere Saamne

Badi himmat jutayi h ye karne k liye par tu hi toh kehti thi na dil main daba k rakhne se dil ko ghutan hone lagti h isliye aaj sab Keh dunga main

Janta koyi sunne ya samjhane wala nhi h ye sab main ab kyun kisliye Keh raha hu ye sab par

Pyaar karta hu main tujhse Raavi aur Shyad hamesha se hi tha par ehsas ehsas hua bhi toh kab tere janne k baad Shyad isliye teri shadi ki khabar sunke itni takleef hui thi mujhe Shyad bardasht nhi horaha tha tera itna khush hona kahin na kahin jalaan ho rahi thi mujhe kyunki yahi ek ehsaas toh aaya tha samajh tujhe lekar bachapan se jealousy

Par apne allahad pane main samajh hi nhi saka ki ye bachpane ki jalan nhi pyaar ki wajah se horahi jalan h

Ab tu kahegi bachpan se kyun jalta tha main tujhse

Toh chl aaj tere janamdin par tujhe ye hi bta deta hu main

Jab tujhe Pehli baar dekha tha na 2foot 2 inch jitni height thi teri or ittu si height leke or aise kone main sikud k bethi thi manno gyab hona chahti ho jab mam aayi tere pass tujhe chup karvane tab pata chla ki tere Maa papa nhi rahe unki death ho gyi h tab mujhe tujh par bohot daya aayi tujhe aise rota dekha

Haan janta hu tujhe pasand nhi koi tujhe sympathy dikhaye

Par kya karta main Shiva pandya jo apne ma papa k bina ek pal nhi reh pata tha kisi dusre bache k pass dono k naa hone k darr se daya hi aati mujhe ab jitni akal thi utna hi samjhta

PHER ussi din sham ko hum phir mile aur maine tujhe rotlu bulaya kya aur tu sachii rona shuru hogyi isliye tujhe chup karne k liye wo gola phenka tha tere upar Yaad h pher kaise rona bhul kar tu gusse main maami k pass complaint lekar gyi thi meri

Tab mujhe pata chla Arrey ye toh apni mami ki behen ki beti h re

Ab apne aas pass k mahool main ek lauti ladki thi. Tu aur shiva pandya thera attention seeker aur tu h ki bhaav hi nhi deti thi toh hogyi humari ladai shuru wo ek cheej jo mami tujhe karne se mana kar rakha tha tu hamesha mere sath wahi karti thi ladai

Main toh khali tera dost banna chahta tha

PHER ek saal baad papa ki death ho gyi or or Maa ko jab pata chla ki unke bhai ki wajah humara sab kuch karje main aur issi wajah se papa ki death hui wo sadme main chli gayi raato raat meri toh duniya badal gyi thi Raavi aur tu pher bhi woh hansti muskurati khilkilati dhara bhabhi k Saath jab ghar aati toh aisa lagta tha manno tu hans raahi ho mere upar

Aur dheere dheere wo gussa Nafrat mai. Badalne laga aur jab bada hone pe samajhne laga ki teri toh koyi galti hi nhi thi I sab main toh teri yahi hansi yahi khilkhalat chubti thi mujhe ki kaise koyi itna khush ho sakta h

Kyunki parivar ki zimmedari achanak itna bokh daal diya tha ki bachpan jeena hi bhul gya tha main Raavi aur jab tujhe wo jeete dekhta toh tujhpe gussa aata aur jab tu mujhse aakar ladti toh mujhe lagta manno tu Jaale pe Namak chidak rahi pata hi nhi chla ki kab dheere dheere badhta gussa nafart main badal gya aur sirf yeh nhi aur bhi kayi choti badi wajah milti gyi mere gussel dimag ko uss Waqt akhir dil main 100 gubar jo bhar k betha tha

Pehli baar tere liye Iss sab se alag kuch mehsoos kiya jab tujhe dandiya night main dekha tha 15 k the hum just a fleeting attraction jo maine so khunas nikal k andar hi kahin dafan krdi

Aur 2nd time teri freshers main dekha tha uss din toh manno 360 turn le liya ho meri feelings ne.

Par Tab samajh nhi aaya aisa kyun hua

PHER aayi 2 saal baad teri shadi ki newzzz mere toh jaise duniya hi. Hil gyi ho tu aage badh rahi thi life main mujhse dur Jaane wali thi ek baar ko mann toh karra maar hi daalu tujhe ya usse par achanak Maa ko tabiyat bigad gyi aur unhe lekar surat chla gya main mujhe kya pata tha wo do din main meri puri zindagi ujad jayegi Raavi jaise jaise Maa recover karti Jaa rahi thi meri bechaini badh rahi thi aur uske peeche ka reason mila Jab ghar se phn aaya ki tere mangetar ne tujhpe cheat kiya h aur tune apni jaan leni chahi

Aur phir wo 10 ghante Maa k discharge tak kaise kaate h maine main hi janta hu par Issey pehle main wapas aa pata tujhe thori akal de pata

tu tu hum sab ko chor kar chli gyi

Aisa kyun kiya tune Raavi kya wo ek Insaan itna maayne rakhta tha tere liye

Ki tujhe kisi ki bhi parvah nhi ki chal ek mere pyaar ka pata nhi tha paar mera pura parivar tere mausa pa Massi Maa sab kitna chahte the tujhe dil ka tukda thi tu sabka hum sab kaise rahenge

Tere bina ek baar nhi socha tune

I MISS YOU RAAVI

I MISS YOU A LOT

AND I LOVE HATE YOU

KABHI MAAF NHI KARUNGA MAIN TUJHE KABHI NHI