The Broken Ties

• Since I wanted to see Raavi's monologue, here's something I have written as an aftermath of today's as well as tomorrow's events. This is completely my imagination as I know we'll not get such elaborated scenes so just enjoy!! My first attempt!! Feedbacks are appreciated!! Let me know your thoughts on this! It was raining. Such a simple sentence right? But was it just 'raining'? No, there was a downpour outside but her heart was also crying as if rain was falling when the clouds could no longer handle its weight just like her tears when her heart could no longer bear the pain. She wished to reverse the events. She wished the rains could wash away her pain, her fears mixed with her tears. Walking without purpose, the echoes of their voices with contrast to the rain was deafening. "Tera mera rishta khatam" " Teri meri shaadi khatam" "Tune meri zindagi barbaad kardi" "Tu sachme junglee, jaahil, gawa....... "Sachme Raavi? Tu aisa sochti hai uske baare me?" " Tu to mujhe bachpan se jaanti hai na?" " Nahi jaanti !! tujhe jana hota to shayad aaj ye sab nahi hua hota. Nahi nahi hai tu waisa jaise duniya bolti hai . To phir maine kyun kaha wo sab aur agar kaha bhi to tune maan liya. Uss din mujhe fark pada tha iss baat ka jab Rishita.... aur tune kaha tha tujhe koyi farak nahi padta duniya kya sochti hai tere baare me aur aaj itna farak padne laga ussi duniya ki baaton ka? Kyun Shiva? Kal aur aaj me kya badal gaya?Kuch to hai jo tujhe achanak itna affect karne laga par wajah kya hosakti hai? Maine sirf guess kiya tha par mujhe kahan pata tha ki tujhme inferiority complex iss had tak hai. Kya karun thak gayi hun me tujhse ladte ladte, duniya se ladte ladte, khudse ladte ladte? Kya mujhe bura nhi lagta? Kyun achanak ye bharosa dekar ki hum saath me reh sakte hain, hum humesha nhi lad sakte, tu achanak dur chala gaya itna ki koshish karneke bawajud na tu waapis aaya na mai paas ja payi . Aur ab Rishta khatam? Aise kaise Shaadi khatam? Are Shaadi hai koyi gudde gudiya ka khel nhi ki aaj ki kal tut gayi par ab mai iss shaadi ko akele nibhane ki koshish nhi karungi. Par....... agar mai nhi to phir kon? Mai chali gayi to usse to wahi lagega na ki sachme hum dono ka rishta khatam . Usse jo lagna hai lagne do.. mujse ye bardasht nahi hota aur. Paas hokar bhi itna dur rehne se to achha hum dur hi rahe. Par mujhe itna dard kyun ho raha hai ? Aisa lag raha hai koi khanjar se mere dil par waar kar raha ho. Kahin mujhe use khone ka dar to nhi ? Mere bachpan ke har hisse ke har kisse me wo hai. Shayad apne bachpan ko khone ka dar. Shayad use chot pahunchane ka dard magar usne bhi to kuch kam takleef nhi di mujhe. Phir mujhe itna dard kyun ho raha hai? Itna dard apne dil tutne par bhi nahi hua to phir kyun? Kyun? Sawaal itne jawaab ek bhi nahi. Ek aur sawaal aa raha hai man me .Par shabdon me utaarne se dar lag raha hai, khayalon me laane se dar lag raha hai. Kahin mujhe ....." She opened her eyes. She was breathing heavily, Sweat beads were representing her lists of fears, pain & inner turmoil. Suddenly everything came crashing down in front of her. This sudden realization forming pools in her honey brown eyes. She became conscious of her surroundings, it wasn't a place she was meant to be, she was supposed to be somewhere else. Everything was dark, everywhere was darkness filled with never ending silence. She could hear her heart beat. Something was missing,she couldn't exactly point out, there were no reasons, there were no logic, no justifications, no causes,no explanations but something was out of place as if an integral piece of a jigsaw puzzle and no matter what or how it is, it just falls in place and completes the puzzle. " Mere jigsaw puzzle ka zaruri, wo ek aakhri hissa kahan hai? Kya meri zindagi itni ulajh gayi hai?" She never felt like this, no however much life played games with her but now suddenly this thought.......... Will try something similar with Shiva if you guys like this one!!