Originally posted by: Mountains_Lakes
That's a beautiful way if putting it, but I always thought he wanted that+some who adores and lives family. Who doesn't have an evil bone/malice in their heart.
Remember beginning of the Haveli track when Raavi joined hands with Rishita and was being snarky (in the scene in my dp), where he tells her that I thought you wanted to be like Dhara, why are you changing then?
Maybe I'm thinking too much about this (after today's episode, I definitely have), but I thought @bold was Shiva's way of closing his heart off (essentially an excuse he tells himself so he never gets close to her) whenever he saw Raavi hugging and smiling with his family.
I thought that track you mentioned was another scene of him telling himself just how different they are, and how he is disappointed in her for "changing" herself to prove a point to him, hence him saying, "I thought you wanted to be like Dhara, why are you changing then?"