Always In Love With You
January 1,2009 10.30 p.m
Whoa what a day!!This year New Year Party at the college was rocking..as well as tiring. After a whole day of running around the campus and arranging the event, all the volunteers especially the final year students, including me, were still enthusiastic and energetic .Everyone wanted to make this New Year a memorable one. Who knows when we will get another chance like this to get together and celebrate. In fact the whole college turned up in the auditorium at 6 pm although the party was supposed to begin at 7 only, except one guy. None other than the great Mr.Mayank Sharma. I can't believe this guy. He spent his whole day studying and preparing the project, which we need to submit only the next week. He came to college half an hour after the party started and that too after I pestered him for almost two hours. How can I enjoy the party if he's not there with me? And who will be my dance partner? Yeah, to get him to the dance floor was an almost impossible task. But my filmy dialogs finally did the job and a cribbing Mayank Sharma ended up with me on the dance floor much to the envy of Excel college girls. It was the best moment for me in the entire party except the glares I got from those snobs, but who cares.
Being near him brings this immeasurable happiness in my mind. His eyes convey his love and care. His smile gives me goose bumps. I feel as if it's meant only for me. I am sure he's the one for me. Ever since the Holi celebrations last year, my feelings for him grew stronger in spite of me trying to curb it. I was ashamed of myself. How could I fall for my best friend? I was scared that someday Mayank would come to know about my feelings. And he might start hating me. Worse our friendship will be ruined. I couldn't afford to lose such a precious friend. He is the part and parcel of my life. The guilty feeling inside me nagged me terribly. I tried to avoid seeing him, talking to him. I stopped lifting his calls. But I hurt him badly in the process. I still remember the day when he came to my house in the midnight, even strange, he entered into my bedroom using the ladder because I wouldn't open the door. How could he expect me to open the door at a time at such an unearthly hour. My imagination was running riots on hearing the loud banging on the door. It was a shocker to see him there just in front of me. Before I could even scream, he hugged me tightly and started sobbing. He felt that he did something wrong which upset me and that was why I was ignoring him. In between his sobs, he kept on mumbling sorry. And when he said that he cannot live a day without seeing my smile and talking to me, I felt like a total jerk. I hated myself for making my best friend, the person who brought the ray of hope and happiness back to my life, cry. That moment I also realized that no matter how much I tried to ignore my feelings, the truth will remain the same. I was madly, deeply in love with Mayank Sharma. I couldn't run away from my conscience forever. I needed to give it a chance.
Somewhere in my heart, I feel that Mayank also loves me. Lately his actions seem to justify my feelings. He has become extra protective, or I can even say possessive. The other day when Adhi and I were sitting in the canteen and chatting, he kept his hands on mine. I was trying to remove it,but at that moment I saw Mayank entering the canteen. I wanted to see his reaction. And trust me,the look on Mayank's face was worth watching. His face had become red with rage. Later he gave me a big lecture on how guys cannot be trusted and how they take advantage of you given a chance. He came up with this big list of reasons for "why-I- should not-hangout-with-not-so-close-guy friends". And today, when I was trying to fake anger on him (I can never ever get angry with my sadu) for coming so late, can you imagine what he said "You can't blame me for that.I have to look handsome today to impress my lady. What if she leaves this boring guy for some charmer?" And then he winked at me. My heart was doing somersaults and I was staring at him like an idiot while my face became deep red. Thanks to Prof. Deodhar for calling Mayank away at that moment and saving me from further embarrassment.
I don't know if Mayank really meant his words today ;I don't know if he really loves me, but I know that he will never break my heart. He is my dream come true. My angel, my life.
