Memories In the Making-The Sharmas(MN)Link p.149 - Page 46

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Dear Nupur,

In the last two years:

We've argued with each other

We've hated each other

We've befriended each other

We've loved each other

U were with me at every step of the way.

But you left me all alone to live. Please come back.

Although it was simple, Nupur could feel the honesty of each word. She knew how painful those three years were for Mayank as well as for herself, but reading it in his diary brought back a fresh set of sorrows. Yet, she turned the page.

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June 04, 2010

Nupur,

It's only been three days since that horrible incident but life has turned upside down. Gunjan and others keep telling me that you are not with us but I don't believe them. How can my Nupur leave me? We have vowed to stand by each other through thick and thin and I know you will never break them. You can't break them! I know you are purposely away from me, like the time after our scholarship fight, to punish me for some mistake of mine. What did I do this time? Whatever it was, I'm sorry…I won't do it again. Please come back soon Nupur! I promise I won't ever hurt you in anyway and we'll live life the way you want. Please come back…………

Nupur couldn't hold back her tears. Although she knew he was really affected by her supposed death, this was the first time she had heard it from Mayank's own words. It hurt her…yes, she had stayed away from them so Dhruv won't harm them but she didn't realize that she had almost killed him, emotionally, in her mission to protect him, physically, from Dhruv.

June 06, 2010

Maa is here Nupur…I know you are upset with me about something but I also know how much you love Maa. I know you've missed her more than me in the last few months. She is here Nupur, don't you want to see her? Don't you want to tell her how much I've troubled you? Please come back…

June 08, 2010

Have you really left me Nupur? How can you leave me at this point of our life Nupur? You were with me through all my hard times. Now, when were just about to make all our dreams true…just when I had promised to fulfill all your dreams…the white house….the 4 cars…and our two kids…you left me! This is not fair Nupur! Please come back…I miss u so much………….

Samrat…I don't even want to say his name. He came to see me Nupur. After all that had happened, he had the guts to face me. I had thrown him out… I don't want to talk to him. If it weren't for him and his speeding, it'd be you in my arms and not this picture….

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June 25, 2010

Nupur the evrnt you've yearned for in the last few months has happened but you are not here to see that. ............(Flashback starts)

It had been about ten days since the accident. Mayank and Gunjan had been discharged from the hospital few days ago. Although Mayank and his mother were to return to Bangalore, Bui had asked them to stay at the Bushan's house as they still haven't performed the final rites for Nupur. Doctor had told them that Nupur's body had been burned badly but they still decided to do the final rites with her photo so that Nupur's soul will rest in peace. Bauji had returned from Dubai after the news of the accident and was totally broken at the news of Nupur's demise. When Bui had asked him to meet Mayank, he had denied saying that he would never meet the person who was responsible for separating his daughter from him, first by marriage and now by death. He blamed Mayank for his daughter's death and wasn't fond of the idea of Mayank doing the rites but it was the husband's right and he was not one to go against customs. They had decided to perform the final rites 10 days later.

The 10 days …it was like 10 years for every single person in that house. Mayank usually kept to himself in his room, never coming out and only answering in monosyllables. But no one saw him shedding a tear. He just sat there, pretending to be reading or asleep. Shilpa tried to get himself to talk and come out of that room, but it was no use. She didn't force him as she knew how it must be for him. She had also lost her spouse at a young age and she understood him. Besides, the loss of Nupur was something even she wasn't able to handle at this age and Nupur had been his present and future. So she let him be for the moment. He needed time and she would be there for him.

As for Gunjan, she could not stop crying. Ever since the day she could remember, her Di was always with her. She had been a sister, a friend, a guide and even a mother. They were only a year apart but when her mother hand passed away, 5-year old Nupur had filled that void in her heart. Dia, Benji and Uday also felt the loss of a friend, a sister but they knew that they had to keep their emotions in control as their friends needed them.

Bauji had mostly stayed in his room, mourning over the loss of his eldest daughter. People have commented about how Nupur resembled her mother and he had always been very proud of that. He had been happy about that fact but today, he wished Nupur had not been like her mother. He wished she had not followed her mother's footsteps in dying at such a young age. He regretted for ever disowning her. She was his daughter and even if she had committed a mistake, he should have forgiven her and not thrown her out. They had reconciled to an extent at the time of Gunjan's accident but there was still a crack in that mirror of relationship that they were not able to fix. He wished today that he had fixed the little crack but it was too late now. Too late.

Finally, the 10^th day came and a small group consisting of Bauji, Bui, Shilpa aunty, Gunjan, Dia, Benji, Uday, Dia's parents, and Chinki was assembled in the Bushan's front lawn along with the Pandit, who was there to conduct the final rites. Mayank walked down the stairs, at every step he could only remember one face. He gathered some courage and made his way down. There was a huge photo of Nupur resting on the stand. The Pandit soon began and asked for the name of the dead person. A deathly silence engulfed the room and suddenly, no one could speak. Mayank looked up and the Pandit asked again,

"Nu…Nupur," and what followed was a gush of tears. The sorrow he had hidden inside him found its way up to the surface and he sat there shedding tears. Some watched him with moist eyes while others like Gunjan had started weeping again. Shilpa aunty was frozen at her place for a moment at this sudden outburst but then moved towards him.

Mayank felt a hand on his shoulder trying to comfort him and then a voice, "Nupur, Nupur Mayank Sharma". That was when Mayank realized that it was Bauji who had placed his hand on Mayank's shoulder. Bauji sat beside Mayank, who soon controlled himself and finished the rites. As soon as the rites were over, everyone dispersed.

"Beta…"

"Maa…I need some time alone" she nodded and made her way up the stairs. Only the two men in white remained in the lawn, looking at the photo of the only person, who connects them, or rather connected them. Silence prevailed for a few minutes and neither looked at the other. They just stood there staring at the photo.

Bauji looked over at Mayank, who reminded him of his own younger self. He was about 10 years older than Mayank when his own wife had passed away. He had also kept his emotions to himself until the day of the funeral and he had a similar emotional outburst right after the funeral. Suddenly it hit him. Mayank truly, dearly loved his Nupur maybe more than he loved his own wife. He had been observing Mayank for the last 10 days. He was a like a lost child at some carnival. He didn't speak much and stayed in his room. He had seen him speaking to a photo of Nupur one day asking her to come back, just like Nupur had once asked her mother's photo. Somehow this 20 year-old young man seemed like the 5-year old little girl he had consoled that day. At that moment, his hatred for Mayank disappeared. Yet he didn't approach him, not knowing what to say.

"She was right, just like always" Bauji said aloud. Mayank looked at him, confused.

"She had always told me how her Raj would one day sweep her off her feet and that would love her so much. Before your marriage, she had told me 'Bauji, Mayank is my Raj. No one could love me more than him'. She was right," Bauji said looking at Mayank. The line was definitely hers, the filmy Nupur Mayank Sharma… Mayank lost control of his emotions for the second time that day. He was wiping off his eyes, when Bauji stopped him. "Let it out Beta. Don't try to put up this brave face. Let it out. It's the only way you can reduce your sorrows. She would want you to do that." Bauji's words brought out more tears and Bauji hugged him. The two men hugged and cried, over the loss of a wife and the loss of a daughter.

Few minutes later, they stood with Bauji's hand over Mayank's shoulder.

"Forgive me Beta," Bauji said holding Mayank's hands. Mayank was shocked.

"Bauji, why are you asking for forgiveness?"

"Beta, I've done a grave mistake. Due to my prejudice thought, I was blind to how much you two loved each other. I didn't even give u a chance. I'm sorry Beta"

"Bauji…please don't say such things. U were right in your place. We should've told you about our love sooner and I should've been honest when I had been to Morena."

"No Beta, I should've trusted my daughter's choice. I had always given her the freedom to make her own choice and she never disappointed me but I forgot all that when it was the most important choice of her life. Then when it was god's will that you two should get married, I disowned her. I disowned my own daughter. Now, she is gone forever and I can't even ask for forgiveness. I'm a cruel father." Bauji broke down.

"Bauji, please don't say such things. I know Nupur, she was never upset with you and she would never want you to ask forgiveness from her. Please. Don't say such things."

"I know, she wouldn't want me to do that but I must. My stubbornness has cost me a daughter, and I don't want to lose a son,"

"Bauji.." Mayank was a bit taken aback but one look at Bauji reminded him that it wasn't his imagination and he hugged Bauji.

Bauji talked to me today Nupur. He accepted me as his son. I could just imagine the smile on your face. I wish you were here to share this moment with me.

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July 01, 2010

Happy First Confession Anniversary Nupur! When I first proposed my love to you in between our play, my only fear was that you didn't love me back. I wasn't your prince charming, I didn't come to you in a white horse and I didn't sweep you off your feet but u made me the happiest man that day by accepting my love. I took a vow that day that I would keep you happy for the rest of your life. But I didn't know Nupur that our happiness would be shortlived…I didn't know I would be spending the first anniversary of our confession, all alone in this dark quiet room…with your memories. I Miss You Nupur…………..

July 15, 2010

I'm in Bangalore with Maa. She wanted me to stay with her until my departure date. She tries to cheer me up and pretend everything is normal but we both know nothing is the same and it will never be….Not without u….

Aug 31, 2010

As I stand here watching the water fall, I hear people praising the beauty of the Niagara Falls. I see honeymoon couple standing with their arms around each other. I see parents putting on the raincoat on their kids as they prepare for a ride on the Maiden of the Mist boat. I see an old couple sitting on the benches enjoying the view. This was our present and future but now this is like the forbidden dream. I wish you were here Nupur. With me. The Falls would've looked magical had u been here with me. Now it just looks a dull boring cliff with water pouring over it.

Jan 22, 2011

Happy Wedding Anniversary Nupur! We were celebrating our 5^th anniversary with our two children: a boy and a girl. The girl looked just like you: the same big dark eyes, the same nose that flares up in anger and she is a chatter box just like you, my choti si Morena express. When I had tried to kiss you in the kitchen, you had freed my hold and ran away. I chased after you…but u were not there. That's when I realized I was just dreaming all this time and you were not here. If u had been here with me, we could've wished each other at midnight. If u had been here with me, we could've woken up together in each other's arms. If you had been her with me, we could've gone to the temple and then to a delicious lunch at the Chinese restaurant. If you had been here with me, we could've spent the evening with our friends as we thank them for their support. If you had been here with me, we could've spent the night in our love, with your laughter echoing through the house and your smile brightening my night. But you are not here with me.

Last year, we were spending this very night at the Excel College Classroom. We had nowhere to go to and we didn't know what we were going to do next but we had hope. Today, I've money & I've a career but I've no hope…wish u were here with me. Miss u.

Like that, Mayank lived every moment with the memories of Nupur.

bin tere kya hai jeena - 2
mere dil ki raani tum
meri khushiyon ka mausam
mere khwaabon ki taaviz
mere sapanon ki tasveer
bin tere kaisi aas,woh jeet ho ya haar
tere sang hai sab kuchh, tu na ho toh bekaar
bin tere kya hai jeena - 2
suni khaali raaten
ruthi feeki baaten
har aahat pe chaaukun
tujhko harsu dekhu
tujhko hardam sochu, tujhko har pal chahu
tere bin toh jeevan mera hai intezaar
bin tere kya hai jeena - 2
tere saath jiye jo pal
kuchh unse nahi badhkar
tere khaatir saans main loon
teri khaatir jeeta hoon
marne ki tamanna bhi
tere saath main rakhta hoon
tu hai jeene ki wajah
kar mera aitbaar
bin tere kya hai jeena...

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Nupur closed the diary shut. There were more entries in the diary but she didn't feel like reading more. She was already choked up with emotions. She had suffered so much through those 3 years but today it seemed like nothing compared to Mayank's pain. Atleast she had known that they were alive and that what she was doing was only to keep them safe. But Mayank, he didn't know… he didn't know anything. She imagined herself in Mayank's shoes and she suddenly felt like she needed him by her side. She stashed the books back into the drawer along with the diary and went into their bedroom. Mayank was still asleep and not wanting to disturb him, she climbed cautiously into the bed and into his arms. She snuggled close to him as possible. He was a bit irritated at first but when he felt her snuggle into him, his frown turned into a smile and he went back into his deep slumber. She widened her eyes and watched him sleep.

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When he woke up, he saw her watching him. She smiled when she noticed that he had opened his eyes. He could tell something was amiss but he didn't know what. She suddenly pulled herself up a bit, there was a moment of shyness but then she leaned in and kissed him on his lips. Mayank was a bit surprised at first and didn't react but then kissed her back. They let go of each other soon and Mayank looked at her as she just placed her head on his chest.

"Wow! Kya baat hai? My wife is in a romantic mood," Mayank tried to tease her but though she blushed, she kept quiet.

Mayank used his fingers to raise her chin and turned so that he can see the expression on her face. She was blushing but her eyes showed tremendous amount of love and admiration. He also could make out that she had cried for something.

"Nupur, what's wrong? Did u cry? Why?" Nupur scolded herself in her head for not taking care of that before he woke up. She didn't want to bring up that diary since it might remind him of those 3 years they were trying to forget and move on.

"Umm…no."

"Nupur, I can clearly tell u've cried. Please tell me the reason," he looked at her straight in the eyes. Nupur couldn't lie to him when he was looking at her like that.

"I uh…I read your diary."

"Diary? What diary are you talking about?"

"The one in your old bedroom" Mayank realized what diary she was talking about and he was soon quiet as the memories came flooding back. Nupur saw his expressions change from confusion to fear and sadness.

"Mayank…"

"Huh?" he asked as he came out of his thoughts.

"Mayank…Why do u have to love me so much? I don't deserv…" but she was shushed by Mayank.

"Nupur, don't ever say you don't deserve love. U deserve much much more. You had to live with that psycho knowing that we were only hours away. It's hard to live with the wound caused by the death of a loved one but it is harder to live away from your loved ones when you know they are just some kilometres away from you. U had even done that just so Gunjan, Samrat and I would be safe," his face was serious but when he saw how she was still a bit emotional even after crying so much, so he changed his tone and with a smile said, "As to why I love you…well, Mrs.Sharma, I know u want to hear more praises and compliments but we've had enough for the day. So, I'll change the question to how much do I love you?"

Nupur looked a bit confused, so Mayank brought her close in his embrace and said, "I would like to show you how much I love you, rather than tell you"

Nupur blushed at this and hid herself in his chest whining, "Mayank…"

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ishi....i dunno why but i have tears in my eyes right now while typing this.I know mn were ficticious characters but the love i feel for them is real.Hats off to u....the way u showed mayank's pain is commendable.I was really touched by the part where he remembers their 1st confession anniversary and wrote that he was no prince charming who came in a white horse.....well i agree....he was much more than that......