I wont ever let go...I promise!-a Sajan OS(upd 11)

A beautiful sunset was visible thru the window, the sky was filled with an extraordinary rainbow of colors....the sight was enough to soothe anyone down to their very soul, but it might as well have been the depth of darkness as far as the girl standing by the window was concerned....her empty eyes were staring right thru all the colors and only seeing the faces of two people who meant the world to her and always would.....

"di I saw him'..after all these years I saw him, I talked to him and I told him I hated him"'a lonely tear fell from a pair of beautiful eyes that were filled with sorrow and regret " I told him I hated him and he believed me...." she once again felt the shock and the pain that ran through him when she told him that the love she had for him died when her sister took her last breath'the intensity of that pain made her knees go weak and she fell to the ground holding her stomach to make it stop "but it's better this way di, its better this way...." She kept chanting rocking back and forth waiting for the pain to pass'

Her eyes fell on the picture of two girls, one with an angelic face smiling shyly into the camera and the other bursting with life ready to take on the world by storm " why did you leave me di?..How could you do this to me?...when Ma died you promised me that we will always be together and you broke that promise!..You broke that promise and you left me!" tears streaming down her face, all Gunjan wanted to do was curl up on the floor and close her eyes tight, hoping and praying that this was all just a nightmare, that when she will open her eyes again she will be back in that beautiful evening of her engagement with Samrat's arms around her and her Nupur di smiling, dancing with jiju....but the sound of the doorbell jolted her out of her reverie and brought her crashing back to the reality...

"Gunjan di are you in there???....Please open the door....I need your help!"

"Aishwini?"

"yeah di it's me...please hurry I need your advice about something" Gunjan got up from the floor, straightened her appearance in a hurry to make sure that all the traces of her tears and pain were hidden from the world'knowing very well that the only thing that will make her feel better is helping someone else thru their pain....and the thought of Aishwini in trouble, who in a short span of time had become like a younger sister to her, made her rush to the door

"Aishwini what's wrong?? What happened? Are you okay??"

"di what took you so long?....I have been ringing your door bell for past 10 mins!...don't worry di I am okay but I need you advice on something....will you help me?"

" Aishwini you scared me!" Gunjan smiled with relief that aishwini was okay...."of course I will help'do you really have to ask?"

"sorry di, I know you will help.....you have always helped" Aish gave Gunjan a quick hug remembering all the times her di had brought her back from the very edge of sanity "that's why I am here di'no one other than you can help him"

"him?....help who aishwini?....is everything okay with you.....you are not drinking again are you??"

"No di....its not me who needs your help....I am just fine...it's him!" Aish remembered how Samrat had looked when she saw him in that bar today'.eyes filled with grief, loneliness, regret and pain'the picture of a broken man who had nothing left to live for "di he can't go on like this....I am scared that if we don't do something soon, he will do something crazy like try to kill himself again!"

"Aishwini slow down!...who are you talking about?....okay come with me....let's sit down and you start from the beginning...all right now tell me who needs me? And why?"

"di it's the same guy I told you about....I met him in a bike race and since that night all I have seen in his eyes is pain and longing....he is always lost in his thoughts and memories like he has no interest in the world or the people around him...his eyes are always looking through everyone around him, always searching for someone'.but you know something keeps pulling me towards him....l wanted to help him di, like you helped me....I wanted to get him thru this grief he is carrying around with himself and help him move on but di nothing I say or do is making a difference'..its like he is determined to punish himself in every way possible!...its like he is stuck in a hell, in between life and death and can't make himself move in either direction'.but tonight di, tonight he seemed much closer to death than life and that scared the heck out me!...please di...please do something!!...I know that the only person who can help him is you!...you will help him....wont you?"

Gunjan put her hand on Aish's hand "I know you want to help him Aishwini, and I will do my best to help him as well but you have to remember that all we can do is try....the only person who can actually help him is him....for us to help him thru it he has to want to come out of this darkness'.do you understand what I am trying to say?"

"yeah di I know what you are saying but we have to do something....I can't let him do this to himself....I just can't!!.....come on di we have to go!...we have to go and get him before it's too late!"

"okay relax Aishwini, give me five minutes to get ready and we will go and see what we can do for this guy"

By the time Gunjan and Aishwini got to RJ's bar, the bar was bustling with people....loud music was playing in the background and the entire place was filled with people ready to party after a hard day of studying....When Aishwini didn see Samrat anywhere in the bar or on the dance floor she panicked! "di what if we are too late! What if he already left?" oh my god di how are we going to find him?"

"Aishwini calm down!...we will find him....come on lets go as the bartender about this guy.....by the way what is his name?"

"di his name is.....wait there he is!!" Gunjan turned around and saw Aishwini running towards a table in the corner of the bar where someone was lying face down, all but dead to the world'.She slowly started to make her way around the crowd of people towards them....As soon as Aish reached Samrat, she started shaking him trying to get him to wake up..

"di he is not waking up!!...di what should we do?...di?" when she didn hear any reply, Aish turned around to see if Gunjan had followed her or not and found her standing like a statue staring at Samrat....her face had lost whatever color it had and she looked like she was going to faint any second'.

"di??....di whats wrong?...di say something!!...whats wrong?"

But Gunjan couldn answer....all she could do was stand there and stare at the condition of the one person who was everything to her'the one person whom she loved with everything in her....the one person who she can do anything for....seeing him in this condition broke her already broken heart to pieces...

"chashmish....come back...please come back...please don't leave me" Samrat mumbled in his sleep...

His mumbled plea brought Gunjan out of her shock and she slowly made her way towards Samrat "oh god what have I done....what have I done!!"

"di whats wrong?..what are you talking about?"

"I did this to him Aishwini...I did this to him!!...oh god what have I done!!....what have I done to my Samrat!" tears streaming down her face, Gunjan slowly put her hand around his shoulder and bent down to hug him, to hold him close to her'

"your Samrat?...." Aishwini didn know what was going on but wanted to get both of them out of this bar so she could get to the bottom of the reason why her di, who was always calm and controlled, was almost losing her sanity after seeing Samrat in this condition'.

"di come on we have to go....we have to get him out of here!"

Gunjan knew what Aishwini was saying was true but she couldn let go of Samrat now'.she wanted to hold him close to her and never let go'"I will make everything better sweetheart....I wont ever leave you again...I promise!" She whispered in Samrat's ear.."I am sorry!...I am so sorry!"

Gunjan wiped her tears and got up to help Samrat "okay Aishwini go ask one of the waiters to help us carry Samrat to my car" ....Somehow with the help of a few people they got him up to Gunjan's house

"di whats going on?....how do you know Samrat?...why are you crying di?...please tell me whats going on??"

Gunjan couldn control her tears and all she wanted to do was go to Samrat and hold him close! "Aishwini please don't ask me anything tonight....go home and rest...I will tell you everything tomo'but not now"

"but di what about Samrat?"

"I will take care of him....dont worry I wont let anything happen to him!...please go home and we will talk tomo" Aish wanted to argue with her but the look in Gunjan's eyes stopped her from saying anything...After Aishwini left, Gunjan went to the room where Samrat was lying on the bed tossing and turning, unable to be at peace even when he was almost unconscious...

seeing him in this condition broke the dam of love and longing which she was holding inside of her for three long years....she couldn hold herself back any longer....She went and hugged him with all her strength "I am so sorry!!...oh gosh I am so sorry!...I wont ever let go'I promise Samrat I wont ever let go!!..."

- to be continued (only if you want it to😆)