This creation is entirely dedicated to my fav couple SAJAN, which depicts the reality behinds their smile. Hence the name "Smiling is not my reality "
Smiling Is not My reality,
this Is how I pretend To Be, By night I cry myself To sleep,
wid My god frowning At Me,
drowning In A flood Of tears, but tears Are My destiny,
My vision A blur As I fulfill,
and this Is how I meant To Be,
My life unworthy, My self To kill, existence A torture I must endure,
As U regarded suicide As sin, I M not against U My heart Is pure,
fate Is mocking with An evil grin, surrounded In A black ness So deep,
I walk, I see But survive No more,
I M dead inside, In darkness I weep,
you know I love U, like ever before,
forgive Me As In My grave I lay,
free Me of this pain and let Me die, I just cant bear It any more