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Five nights and four days .unforgettable they were. May be because Aryan's innocence began to affect me. After the encounter with the goons who were searching for Sultan I managed to convince him to stay with us in the chawl. I was keen about Aryan's safety may be a little than one percent concerned for Sultan. If not for anything at least for Aryan's sake. I looked at Aryan and sultan who were in the terrace talking well mostly Aryan talking with animated expressions and Sultan listening to him. My lectures about a good father did some good and Sultan was beginning to open up his soft side for Aryan. Not only Aryan but also me. He stopped shouting at me for unnecessary reason, he ate my cooking without arguing, and he allowed Aryan to sleep with me while he and kaka were in Roma's house as she has gone for shooting.
Looking at them my mind shouted 'Picture perfect' except the fact that it missed most important part of a family a woman. Same way my 'perfect life 'missed a man. Sultan hasn't spoken about Aryan's mother other than that night but I didn't ask him either. If he wants to share it I m all ears and he knows that.
His words hinted that she must have betrayed him but who would do that to someone as sweet as sultan. He may look arrogant and ruthless but kind at heart. A metaphor of jackfruit. Thinking in those grounds did i deserve betrayal? Ain't I sweet and kind at heart types? May be this similarity in our lives draw me closer to Sultan? We don't speak much but he understands and vice versa. I wouldn't blame him for his ideology everyone will not fall in a pit and think that they can walk without falling the next day they might develop insecurities and hatred most importantly fear.
" Madhu " Aryan's voice broke my trance.
I walked near them and saw the father –son smiling at me. Yeah heard it right Sultan smiles at me and i m now getting used to it.
" madhu sultan is taking me out to have ice cream you want to join us " Aryan asked hope bubbling in his baby voice.
" umm i ..." my gaze shifted to sultan to see if it was ok with him when i saw expectation in Aryan's eyes reflect in his
" i would love to " i said still looking at sultan.
The ice cream shop wasn't that far and we preferred to walk. Anyone in the road looking at us might say 'what a perfect family' and the thought did excite me. This is what i always wanted me RK and our ' sweetsi duniya ' with three kids just the way he wanted but alas he had different choice.
"Which one madhu? "i heard Sultan ask
My name in his voice did feel good but very less compared to 'Biwi' from well you know whose voice.
"Chocolate "i said
Picking our ice cream tubs we sat in a corner near the glass door so that we could get good look of the road. Well Sultan and his safety measures. But i can't blame him though he makes us feel safe enough that if you ask me to cross the road with a blindfold i wouldn't hesitate.
I always enjoyed the private time we three spend together though its rare. It made me felt complete which i have been lacking for long time. When we three exited the shop i couldn't control the smile that adorned my face. When we stood there to cross the road i saw sultan come between me and aryan ( typical sultan ) he took Aryan's hand and didn't think twice before holding my left hand with his right. His eyes were fixed to the road not allowing me to study them.
When we were on the other side of the road his hold tightened when mine loosened. He instantly turned to look at me and my eyes was fixed on a white Mercedes with front window opened that reveled RK. Sultan loosened his grip and i immediately took my hands away to fiddle with the tip of my duppatta which i do when i m nervous. For a moment i turned to look at sulthan whose expression was a mixture of pain and disappointment before it turned to its old blank one. I again turned to look at RK. He didn't do anything but look at me. Just look at me as you look at any other person near you in a train that common look and yet my whole body tingled with a new sensation that i had forgot for long time and i felt weightless. All the thoughts i saved for Aryan and Sulthan these days washed away and it was as if they didn't exist beside me. I felt ashamed of myself. I felt like b**** to betray sultan though i have not committed to him. Does my ex-husband have such an effect on me that his one look just changes the entire reality of my life. Without him my life seemed simple but now seeing him it is going to get complicated but why do i have that feeling of content in my heart seeing him after long time.
" shall we go ? " sulthan asked . i just nodded absent mindedly
His one look changed everything. Now i don't think i can be as clear about what i want in life as i was a few minutes before. Now I no more could think about even myself. My life is now in a point where it started which means I m just messed up. The questions whose answers only Rk can solve began to pop up in my heart. I hate you RK I hate you so much because i can never stop loving you.
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SO TELL ME HOW IS IT
I HAVE STARTED LIKING SULTHAN AND MADHU BUT WELL I WANTED IT TO BE DIFFERENT
ITS ACCORDING TO YOUR WISH SHE GOES WITH SULTHAN OR RK
Ye Hai Mohabbatein
