I just loved this paragraph... it said it all of her turmoils...
... It was the window that Alice had closed a second ago. It wasn't the million seconds of my life that I will live facing my decision. But it was this second when it was closing around me. And I needed air...
Why do I have this feeling that she's doing all this just to hurt herself, even after being aware that she is loosing out on to much more than what she will not ever gain. It's some kind of self-penance on her part by geeting married to Binoy. She so many times slips out on thoughts stating the regret of her choices... what's with her nature & meaning of her doings I can't really figure out???? Is it just my lone figment of imagination??? No clue on this aspect... but Madhu her keeps me so hooked on to this SS ... so that I wait to see that somewhere ther's a slip & a new dimension to her personality comes out in open.
When the window was stated I just went back to a thought on the Jo-Harry window...(Don't know if it's in the context) but I felt it suited with the upadte... as nobody knows the true Madhu... she's not at all Madhu for anyone except one ( at least for now with what is revealed to us readers😊) she's quite different to all.
I agree wiith one of her friends saying - Sanaa would never ever fall for RK, as she's very level-headed. True as it's Madhu whom they are not even aware of has fallen for him..
I feel Sanna is her mask to the world... a defensive sheild she uses... to escape the realities of her wounds of life. It's same as how each of us are we are not the same to all its human tendency to potray & show to others that we are some one who can accepted in society not having our follies... we crave for acceptance... & fear the rejection that we can face if not poteyd as ideal personna.
But when we know we don't have that fear of being rejected & having strong support in form of someone, it's to that someone that we can be are true self... & it's not within our capability to stop ourselves from showing that person who we are truely as it's just something very innate , as in case of Madhu-Rishabh.
I hope I didn't made everything jumbled here... and did make some sense.
If no, then I'm sorry ... And please ignore it & the length of my ramblings...😳😆
Edited by Onir - 12 years ago