I think what has shattered eklavya the most is not losing KT, but the undoing of an illusion that he had of both tulsi and ansh. i think he had this image built up of her that she is close to god, and no matter what happens she can never be wrong. That is why inspite finding out that she murdered his father he took the bullet for her, because he valued her life so much more and her existence meant more to him than his very own. ðŸ˜I think when that illusion collapsed infront of him, he was heart broken, he couldnt imagine Tulsi ever committing injustice especially against him, he thought she was her favorite, he thought she saw herself in him, he sought solace in her way of life and maybe he desperately needed her approval. ðŸ˜
What has turned him completely is the further shattering of his father's image. He had also built up this image of his father that he cherished. When he was accused of rape, he sensed even without knowing the full truth of ansh that his father was not a good person. Nandini and Tulsi repeated taunts cemented his fears of why in twenty years no one spoke to him about his father.ðŸ˜
I think that bitter truths has consumed him and it has become unimaginable for him to accept it. I think turning evil is just a defense mechanism for him having not to deal with these two realities. It is easier to ignore the truth when you are not on the side of just and fairness anymore. But he cant keep up this for long, sooner or later he has to face the facts.
Many have said why don't he just get over it, he was only just accused of rape. What I think has happened is that a man of his belief, his way of life who stuck so close to believing in god, being accused of rape is an insult to his character as a human being. It is a dirty blotch that cannot be removed, being accused of rape is just as unbearable as being raped. He is unable to comprehend the taint to his perfect image. He only wishes to be the perfect person to some extent he sees his close relation to god as his right to carry that voice, but now he sees himself unfit to carry that message because of the taint and accusation in others eyes for him despite him being proven innocent. He feels KT and Tulsi have stolen that right from him, the right to be the perfect son. It is like that analogy of the kashmiri sweater with a red dot. The value of the kashmiri sweater is in its perfectness, one small blotch and its value is worthless. People only will stare at that red dot and not see that the sweater is still made up of that same precious wool. The more expensive and precious something is the more we expect it to be tainted or unmarred.
I wonder if Ekta thinks this deeply about eklavya character. 😆But it is fun to analyze someone psyche why they act the way they act. It would be nice to know that eklavya character has serious depth in his emotions, and ekta is not just making him act like ansh just for the hell of it, but there is some deep purpose and pandemonium to his current mental state. ðŸ˜
Edited by maragathm - 18 years ago