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Chapter 4
I don't know what to make of yesterday's events. Aaliyah and Tanu figured since Pragya was adamant to leave that she must be upto something. Tanu thought she took all the jewelry she got in the wedding so both of them went and ransacked the closets but all the jewelry was there. Not satisfied Aaliyah wanted to take the jewelry and later tell daadi that she took it all. Even Tanu agreed and happily offered to take half or all if it so it won't be found in the house. She started trying a necklace on. I couldn't believe this, "Why do you need these? And what would this do? She's gone and look at her she didn't let anything stop her. She just went away and she didn't even look back. Not even once did she look back."
Aaliyah was annoyed "She's gone so good riddance why are you so mad? Why are you yelling at us?" Before I could say anything Tanu said "Let's forget all this and go and party at the disc tonight. It's time to celebrate" Later at night we all went but I didn't have a good time. Looking at the DJ I couldn't help but remember drunk Chashmish imitating the DJ when I took her to the disc in our room. Both ladies were happy to dance and mingle with the crowd that I didn't feel needed so I quietly left.
It's been a week since she left. When I hang around Tanu it doesn't feel the same as it did before and whenever she does anything it just annoys me. I am picking fights with her, Aaliyah and everyone. I have a short fuse these days and some people are wise to stay clear of me. This whole week Chasmish called every evening and talked to daadi but never once did she ask to talk to me. If she doesn't want to talk that's ok but at least she can pretend to want to talk with me. It's not like I want to hear her voice. I have some concerts there and I promised daadi when I go I will meet with her sweet bahu and in the meantime we call one another in the mornings. I gave the divorce papers to my lawyers last week and they will let me know how much this is going to cost me.
Since the day she left I see her everywhere and I can't get her out of my mind. At the studio I just want to go home and when I'm in my room I am not doing anything productive. I try writing music and I end up writing music that I know Chashmish would like and I can't write the music that my fans would love. After our wedding everyone wanted a wedding song from me and all I have is "Marriage, marriage happy marriage." No wonder Chashmish doesn't like these songs, there's no soul in them and how can I write about marriage without her being here. I then change and start working out and midway I lower the volume as Chashmish didn't like the loud music when she read. She's not here so I turn the volume up again but after 5 mins I am done. I used to workout at least 90 mins and I am barely doing 15. I can't exercise in the morning because I'm used to working out on the bhajans she used to play, she took her mandir and the cd. The room looks so empty without her books, clothes, mandir but especially without her
It's now a month since she left and my lawyer calls, "Sorry for making you wait but we had many of your recording contracts to finalize first." He's telling me what I know already, come on tell me what she wants and I will give it to her but the lawyer just said "Our advice to you is to sign these documents right away and we will file these at the court registry. You don't want to give your wife a chance to change her mind." What did she do? "Why what's so special in her papers?" I ask. The line was silent for a minute until my lawyer spoke again "I am sorry I thought you had read these. She's asking for nothing so it's a very clean divorce. Oh this would also explain why we received her mangalsutra, it was still in the envelope." I dropped my cell and the screen shattered on the ground.
She is 5 minutes late. I can't believe after all she did she is making me wait. There she is, " I told you it's urgent so why are you making me wait. I need to know about your sister why is she making this divorce so easy? She married me for money and now she's not wanting anything?." Bulbul raised her hand "That is enough, she is not what you think she is. You have all your family's jewelry at your house right? I know she left them and you know why because she values relationships not materialistic things. Have you ever seen my di wear any of the expensive jewelry your daadi gave? She wore one at our house and that wasn't her choice." She wasn't making any sense, "Bulbul I don't understand what do you mean it wasn't her choice?" She slowly began telling me about everything. When she was done I dropped to the ground. How could I be so wrong about everything? She wasn't done yet "You were lucky to get a chance to be with my di, she's the best. She has a lot of love and she never harms anyone. She married you with reservations but she was going to do all her best to make the marriage work for our families. You never deserved her and to get away from you she left us and moved to another city. You now know about me, Purab and di." She left and I remained on the street the whole night in the rain. When I got home I to had to read the hypnotism book in order to solve the only doubt I had left about her. I read only 1 page and I shut the book. Tears streaming I went out to the balcony and stayed there for hours. This is where I would send her.
Someone was waking me up. Daadi was worried and I put my head in her lap and cried. I couldn't live with the guilt and Pragya left saying let's not hold any hard feelings. I mustered some courage and told everything to daadi. She was horrified, ashamed and in disbelief. "Who are you? You can't be my Abhi. I described you as a loving person and you did all this with Pragya. She never once said anything against you. She did so much for all of us and you gave her tears in return. You want to marry Tanu right go ahead and I won't leave to Ludhiana as who knows what will you do next." Daadi left and I remained on the balcony unable to sleep without any piece of mind.
The next morning I went to daadi, she didn't want to meet me but after much pleading she let me in. "I know I am so wrong daadi. I don't want to marry Tanu. I want to bring your bahu back." Daadi's face was blank, "I won't call her my wife as I never let her be one and more importantly I am not worthy of being her husband. Daadi I want to change myself can you please help me?" Daadi kissed my head, nodded and hugged me. "One more thing daadi I know Pragya calls please don't talk about me with her I know it makes her uncomfortable." Daadi nodded. "I also need to tell Pragya's family the truth." Daadi told Robin to get the car out.
Sarla ma kept slapping me till she broke down. I requested the same from her to not talk about me on her calls with Pragya. She looked at me angrily but my daadi started pleading on my behalf "Please give him one chance to win Pragya back. I know after what he did we don't have any rights on her but I request you to please look at Abhi. He has missed Pragya and he has
started to appreciate the diamond that she is. I don't know how we can expect you all to forgive him but please give him a chance."
From rockstar daadi to Bulbul everyone was telling Sarla maa to give me a chance. She looked up, "I made so many decisions for my daughter but not anymore. I give you the chance to go win her heart but the decision will be hers to forgive you and accept you back into her life. If ever you hurt her I..." I came close to maa and touched her feet and then hugged her, "Thank you. I need my maa in this and everyone here to help me be the man of her dreams. I want to learn everything about her."
Back in my room I put up a mandir similar to the one she had. I did the diya, aarti, and asked God to help me. Sleeping back in the balcony I looked out and spoke out loud "Pragya I will be coming for you soon but first I need to know every single thing about you. I didn't clue in that I had started loving you way back. Without you I am just an angry young man. I love you my sweet Chashmish, please take me back. My life is incomplete without you. Don't worry about Chudail, she is out of my life. Sweet dreams."
The final chapter will be out in a few days.
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