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My wife's exit was sudden. I had promised to give all the happiness in the world. She trusted me and came with me. It was my fault... that her father never accepted her. It was my love and profession made her roam around the country leaving her medical studies. She could have had a promising future with her MBBS... Though our marriage was an unexpectedly quick one, at the time of our marriage I have realised that I must provide her all the happiness in the world.
It all happened, when I was in the war and never could make a regular contact home. We were stuck with war and after effects for 6 months. Not even once she mentioned about her illness... completely ignored.. ignored for the sake of our daughter... she worried about her to leave alone while in the hospital. I failed miserably. She left both her daghter and me forever...
I requested higher authorities to give me a posting to be with my daughter... and got... All thanks to me, even after having a father, my wife had spent her life with out him... and I cannot give the same fate to my daughter... Then again I have promised to myself that never a moment I must get her feel the lack of motherly-love nad attention.
Nidhi... my ultimate treasure of happiness...I was always with her... For a moment, I thought whether I should make her meet her grand father... No.. I heard that he had left that place ...
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Now, this is my lone travel with my daughter...
Daytime is just OK.. She seemed not to complain about the kind of food.. very young yet, understood her baba's efforts... It is worth millions to see the sparkle in her eyes when she saw noodles with chicken... very simple thing... . very pretty..just like her mother... manytimes, I wonder... whether I am her guardian or she is the solace to me..
I know it is the deepest void my wife left for me... I cried several nights into the loneliness... I cannot do this during the daytime...with my daughter around...
I am giving head bath to my daughter.. I asked her to close her eyes while I bring water... how much she resembles her mother... I stand there paralysed in my own thoughts... her mother tusted me.. closed her eyes and came with me... but what did I do? ...I had severed her ties with her father... I was responsible for severing her ties with her daughter and her life... Now there Nidhi is standing with eyes closed ... completely trusting me...
The wave of emotion jolt me... can I win my daughter's trust forever? can I take care of her? Oh! God please give me strength on my way to make my daughter a normal and a happy human being.
It all happened, when I was in the war and never could make a regular contact home. We were stuck with war and after effects for 6 months. Not even once she mentioned about her illness... completely ignored.. ignored for the sake of our daughter... she worried about her to leave alone while in the hospital. I failed miserably. She left both her daghter and me forever...
I requested higher authorities to give me a posting to be with my daughter... and got... All thanks to me, even after having a father, my wife had spent her life with out him... and I cannot give the same fate to my daughter... Then again I have promised to myself that never a moment I must get her feel the lack of motherly-love nad attention.
Nidhi... my ultimate treasure of happiness...I was always with her... For a moment, I thought whether I should make her meet her grand father... No.. I heard that he had left that place ...
--- --- ---
Now, this is my lone travel with my daughter...
Daytime is just OK.. She seemed not to complain about the kind of food.. very young yet, understood her baba's efforts... It is worth millions to see the sparkle in her eyes when she saw noodles with chicken... very simple thing... . very pretty..just like her mother... manytimes, I wonder... whether I am her guardian or she is the solace to me..
I know it is the deepest void my wife left for me... I cried several nights into the loneliness... I cannot do this during the daytime...with my daughter around...
I am giving head bath to my daughter.. I asked her to close her eyes while I bring water... how much she resembles her mother... I stand there paralysed in my own thoughts... her mother tusted me.. closed her eyes and came with me... but what did I do? ...I had severed her ties with her father... I was responsible for severing her ties with her daughter and her life... Now there Nidhi is standing with eyes closed ... completely trusting me...
The wave of emotion jolt me... can I win my daughter's trust forever? can I take care of her? Oh! God please give me strength on my way to make my daughter a normal and a happy human being.
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