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Hello everyone!
I'm back again! All your love for my first post encouraged me to write more!
Here is the same scene from Nidhi's POV. Hope u guys like it too! This one is not in first person but it is in third person narrative style. Lemme know which style you liked better...so I know how to write my future posts! đ
And this again is just what I have perceived... not intended to hurt anyone's sentiments... But if you like it, please hit the "Like" button...
Scene at the party:
Nidhi sees the man who has caused her so much pain and anguish standing right there in front of her eyes... the man whom she wants to ask so many Qs, has so many complaints from, had so many dreams of, and has so much love and care for... who until yesterday seemed to be feeling the same kind of emotions as she did, but who today has become a stranger to her...The same man who said he wouldn't mind spending his entire life stuck with her in his car in the traffic jam suddenly changed his mind and acted as if he couldn't even stand her presence for another second! Although the physical distance between them was just of a few feet, treading that short a distance now seemed so much more harder to her than it used to be... She wanted to know why he did such an inhuman and cruel thing... why he was so cruel to her... what had she done so wrong that he treated her the way he did? She wanted to know whether all those cherished moments they had shared had left any impression on him as they did on her or whether those memories had made any impact at all in that man's heart? because if they really had made the slightest of an impact, no man would be able to cut out someone completely from his life like the way Dr. Hardstone had...
She walked up to him, but when she came closer, her heart started beating more fervently... and all of a sudden all the hurt and anguish was mixed with all the intense love and care she had grown to have for him... she was pained to see him there, angry for what he had done, and hurt for all of a sudden treating her like that after making her feel so special for the past few weeks..."Was it just her maybe? Was she the only one to see those changes in him?" she thought... She took a deep breath and blocked those thoughts out of her mind, mentally reciting the one Q she wanted to ask him over and over in her mind... Why did he do this to her?
She called out his name, trying not to be pained at saying the name she had grown to love so much... and when he turned to look at her... She was unable to speak anything at first... Her eyes were full of accusation and pain, love and hurt... As if saying to him "how can u do such a thing to me after what all we have shared? do I really mean nothing to you?" Then again with this thought, her anger surpassed all the other emotions going through her and she asked him point blank.. "Aapse sirf ek sawaal puchna chahti hun"... she admitted it wasn't the right place to ask, but quickly added with pain in every word, that she had to ask today coz she didn't know if she ever would get this chance again coz she didn't know if she was ever going to see him again... and the last words she could barely control herself, but she knew she had to say this once and for all...
She mustered the strength to carry on to ask the question... She said "Aapne jo mere saath kiya, woh kyun kiya?"... at this, she saw him lower his eyes as if ashamed of it, but yet he didn't say anything... It felt to her as if he didn't care what would happen to her career or her feelings after he dismissed her like that... She was even more angry at his silence, so she confronted him further saying "Boliye na? kyun kiya mere saath aisa?"... he still din't speak a word, and she took this to be the old heartless and hardstone quality that she has perceived him to have when she met him for the first time... But she wasn't one to stop there... She wanted to see his reaction, if there was any, to know if he felt at all guilty for what he had done, or whether he was plain heartless... She wanted to know what wrong did she do to deserve this...
So she asked him whether it was because of her mistakes she had done at the hospital... She was angered at those memories of Dr. Mallika deliberately targeting her and creating problems for her and blaming her for everything wrong that happened... But she was too self-respectful and strong to plead helpless or show herself as victimized by her... she would not say that to him... She waited for him to answer her question, but he looked away instead... angering her to move on with her second explanation...
She asked him whether it was coz of what little happiness she brought into the lives of those orphans of the children ward... But she knew it wasn't the case... she just wanted to say this to hurt him... coz she knew in her heart that even though no other memories would have touched his heart, he had a soft spot in there for the children and their happiness... and she knew he appreciated her being so loving and kind... she wanted to lash this out to him in attempt to make him feel guilty for hurting the children as well...To be sarcastic about the fact that he dismissed the only doctor whom the children really connected to and had grown to love so much...She searched his face for any reaction...But even after she said this, there was no reaction on Dr. Hardstone's emotionless stone face...
Then, she knew she had to say the next reason, coz it was very obvious to her now that this was the only reason why he had sacked her so mercilessly...It was not hidden from anyone how much Dr. Mallika hated her... and after all, they had known each other for 12 years now, and she must have meant too much to him to hurt her feelings... But whatever the reason was, it was unfair to Nidhi for him to do something like that, especially since he had always appeared to be the self-righteous man who would stand up for the sake of the truth and for what is right, no matter what... So she asked him point blank whether the reason was that Dr. Mallika didn't like her... at this she saw a slight hint of anger on his face... as if he himself was angered at this accusation... but that emotion he quickly hid and resumed his blank emotionless stare to the ground...
She was so angry at this continuing ignorance and cold behaviour from him that she finally lost her temper and composure and couldn't control herself from saying what was really hurting her... She said, "Ya phir isliye ki main aapse..." Suddenly she came back to her senses and stopped mid-sentence before she had said too much... But when she looked at him after saying this, for the first time he met her eyes as if waiting for her to finish what she was about to say... as if hinting to her that this was the real reason for him to do this... he sighed when she said what she said, which only reaffirmed that maybe it was because he had somehow found out that she was in love with him and he disapproved of such a thing and hence had decided it was best for both of them that she was made to leave...coz he couldn't give her what she wanted coz he didn't love her the way she did him...
She was so shocked to realize this that she simply turned around and ran out of the room... She was embarrassed, pained, hurt and shattered at this realization... And once outside, she stood there taking support of the pillar so that she wouldn't collapse to the ground with grief as her legs buckled beneath her from the weight of her world coming crashing down upon her... Anji came to her and took her in her arms to try and comfort her so she could cry all her heart out... To cry for being punished for loving someone... to let out the grief of loving a man who was as cold as stone... for loving a man who had ruined not only her professional career as a doctor but also her entire life by breaking her heart into pieces... for loving Dr. Ashutosh with all her heart...
Ghum Hai Kisikey Pyaar Meiin
