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A/N: Again, a post initially written for Weekly Analysis Thread... What can I say, that thread has become like a second home for me...
But, still I would love that if people who usually don't visit the Weekly Thread, can read and enjoy my post...
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*EXHALES BREATH*
Wow... I am speechless, absolutely speechless... You don't know how much time I have spent staring at this blank space and the cursor blinking, mocking me for being so sentimental after watching today's episode...
If yesterday made me dance with delight, today pushed me to the edge... My eyes are wet and my heart bleeding with white, hot searing agony, after watching today's episode...
This post is not an analysis... No, definitely not an analysis... But, you have heard it so many times from me in the past that you must believe that my words are as hollow as the word 'Sorry' coming out of Dev's mouth...
In short, absolutely meaningless... But, this time, it is the truth... You know why, because like Sona wrote her torment as emails, this post is the medium through which I want to bring a sense of relief and calm for myself...
For me, today's episode seemed like I am on a downward spiral of some kind... It started at its happiest note and then, what followed just left a lump in my throat... With each passing scene and segment, I felt like I was being punched... And, each punch was faster and harder than the last one... And, in the end, I was rolling on the floor in agony...
Yesterday, I was excited to know about what both Sona and Dev went through during their separation... But, after today, I am not so keen... In fact, I am beginning to feel why Dev said to Sona to not look at his past, because he knew it will only bring her more pain...
It is like watching a good horror movie... You know, with each passing scene, you feel more and more terrified at what's coming next, but you still don't leave the hall or switch off the TV, because the story has gripped you so intensely that you don't even have the will to escape from the upcoming horrors and scares...
This is exactly how I am feeling after watching today's episode... In fact, not only today, but for what it seems like an eternity... Whether I like it or not, I know that I will watch the next episode... Kuch Rang Pyar Ke Aise Bhi has enchanted and the love story of Dev and Sonakshi has captivated and has taken hold of my heart, so deeply, that I know that I will be watching this show, till its very end...
We have all seen the flashback where Sona came back to Delhi with a 6 month old Soha, but when heard what was written in the first email clearly painted the picture of the Sona who had lost all hope and in those few words, we saw the origins of Dr. Sonakshi Bijoy Bose, the woman that we came to know all very well...
In those words, we saw how Ms. Khargosh started imprisoning herself... It was like watching Sona slowly building the prison by her own hands for her to trap herself and die in...
Before, we could get some sense of respite, we observed the conversation between Sonakshi and Dev where for the first time, I got a first hand account of Dev's life in the 7 year gap...
In his own words, his life was filled with darkness and hopelessness.. In fact, the mental picture that he painted inside my head was a life which was just filled with sheer emptiness... It was like watching someone suffocate himself in the pits of a well... Everything looks fine from standing on the opening of the well, but when you delve in deeper, you will find the skeleton of the man who was just struggling to remain afloat...
I know that I am painting a horrific picture but I am feeling like Dev's past is like a Pandora's Box... There was a reason why it was so tightly shut, but now, we are finally opening it... I don't know what's in it, but I know one thing, for sure, it will be devastating...
Then, the story moved on to the scene where Dev entered the room where Soha spent her first few days of her life and the small smile that he had on his face when he touched the blanket in the crib, like there's an actual baby...
What made the scene even more beautiful and surreal, was how it was connected with Soha's dream where she felt Dev tickled her stomach, while she was just a newborn baby...
Sona's expression and explanation was spot-on.. Probably, Dev and Soha does share a soul connection, a bond which was linked two souls (Dev and Soha) through the loneliness that they both have experienced and the void that the other person left in their lives...
What relationship does Sona and Dev share? Nobody knows and can explain because it is simply inexplicable...
Then, what came afterwards, just continued to rub salt on my already wounded heart...
Sona's flashback where she is seen writing an email which expresses her desire to live and experience pregnancy like other mothers... The way she kept her hand on her belly and confessing that she is missing him...
Probably, this is why, Soha feels so connected with Dev... Because, while she was in her mother's womb, she must have realised the depth of her mother's love for her father and she also, without any physical connection, started and building a love for her father...
In simple words, the love that she feels for her father was passed down to her by her mother whose very being was already captured by Mr. Aubhodro...
It is quite ironic that while we celebrate the transcendental and the eternal nature of their love story, both Dev and Sona only wished to live a life like any other ordinary love story...
I absolutely loved the concept of the second flashback where Dev just became an observer and a spectator during Sona's conversation with the doctor, like he was indeed a ghost present in the moment.
And, the second flashback with the heavily pregnant Sona coming to meet the doctor and how the smile that she had the beginning continued to fade with each passing moment...
And, seeing the conflict and the grief in Dev's face and his body language where he tried to wash away the sorrow from Sona's face, yet couldn't, simply because, he knew that his absence was the reason for the sorrow on his beloved's face...
I don't how many small deaths that he died while reliving those painful memories of Sonakshi...
And, the last bit of conversation between Ishwari and Sona, once again, made me anxious, but this time, instead of becoming more curious, I am bracing myself and my heart for another jolt... I have definitely learnt my lesson, but somehow, I feel that it will not stop the barrage of pain that is waiting for me...
I am slowly, but surely have begun to piece together a picture of Dev's past based on the clues given today... Of course, some very crucial pieces of the puzzle are still missing...
But, what I can definitely say is that if my assumptions are proven to even be close to the actual story, then, it will definitely explain the reasons for Dev to run away from his responsibilities and made him so vulnerable that he can't even function or perform the other roles, in his life (like that of a father to Soha or even roles, like that of a son to Ishwari or a brother to his sisters, even if he is doing it since he was just a child)
One thing is for sure, the next days are going to be tough not only on Dev and Sonakshi, but also for us...
Sonakshi has very correctly said that they can't have a bright future, until they could bridge the gap between their past and their present...
And, before I end, kudos to all the actors, especially Shaheer and Erica as well as the writers, directors, etc... Everything was just perfect...
The dialogues were absolutely spot on, especially, the one where Dev compares their separation from a romantic novel, with some pages missing in the middle... Felt like it was targeted less towards Sona, and more, towards the viewers... I absolutely loved how they inter-weaved and transitioned from the flashbacks to the present and vice-versa...
At least, in my humble opinion, today's episode definitely deserves a standing ovation...
- Suyash.
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P.S:
I don't even know how I am going to sleep tonight because I am sure that today's scenes will continue to be on a continuous repeat inside my head...
Probably, doing some work might help or I could definitely eat at least, a scoop or two, of ice-cream to pull me out of this depressed state... If nothing, it will at least satisfy my taste buds...
I hope that you all enjoyed my post and please feel free to express your opinions and views... I am always eager and ready to know how all of you feel about what I write...
Ghum Hai Kisikey Pyaar Meiin
