Chapter 2.
72 hours. Does anybody realise how much 72 hours can pierce your soul to shreds? Does anybody have any idea about how 72 hours gave me 72 reasons to die if my Dev did not make it alright?
Did anybody know, I thought of 72 reasons in the past 72 hours about how much I loved him and would give up everything to see him okay, alive, healthy...and perhaps mine?
Seventy two hours might not change anything for anybody but seventy two hours tested the last piece of my patience. Every bit of it. If I lost my husband to a goddamn accident, a hit and run case, I swear I'll lose all my sanity.
"Sona." It was Jatin, the man who was my best friend since we were three. Jatin, the guy who hadn't been as much there in my happiness as in my grief, was right here all the way from Kolkata just to give me a shoulder to rely on when it gets too rough to think about any bad consequence of this accident.
Dev had been asleep and under observation for 72 hours and I had died little by little in all those hours.
"I love him, Jatin." I bit my lip too hard because I did not want to have a messy breakdown right here in the middle of the hospital lobby.
"I know you do. And you know what, Sona?" He slid his hand in mine. It didn't fit as perfectly as it does when Dev holds my hand but it had the warmth that I desperately needed right now.
I was glad he was here.
Baba was still too angry from Dev to come here and be with me. And his anger made me angry about him. How can my father hold onto something so unfortunate that happened so long back. Did he not see, my love, was not even stable, not even safe, not even out of danger. This was no time to hold grudges.
Dev had hurt me, agreed. I had hurt him too. And after all this, all I knew was he had loved me much more and too fiercely for me to give up on a man who was so weak and vulnerable right now and would perhaps need me to hold onto him in this hard time.
I was angry on my Baba's irrational anger.
"What?" I asked softly to Jatin.
"He loves you too. And he'll make it. Trust me." Jatin leaned over towards me and hugged me from the side.
"Be strong. Everything's gonna be just fine, Sona."
I wanted to snap at Jatin. How did he know everything was gonna be fine? How coukd he say so? Although I understand he wants to build my hope but I was scared, so scared. What if this hope was hollow? I'd die. I'd just die.
I kept my head against Jatin's shoulder and did not realise when I was pulled into the dark abyss of sleep.
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"Sonakshi." It was Ishwari Aunty..or Maa, who had her wrinkled hand on my shoulder, gently shaking me out of my sleep.
I still didn't know what to call her and my concern for that particular thing wasn't grave either. It wasn't of any importance afterall.
"Y..yes?" I rubbed my eyes and straightened up. Jatin was nowhere to be seen. How long had I been asleep for?
"Dev is awake."
Three words and the amount of relief it brought me was something that was even beyond that one time when Dev confessed that he loved me.
I sprang up on my own two feet that felt wobbly, perhaps because of all the meals I missed taking in past three days.
I moved past her and would've burst inside his room if not for her hold on my arm. I frowned as I turned to face her. Did she not want me to meet her son? Wasn't she apologetic about things she had done, just three days ago?
Before I could retaliate, she answered my unasked question.
"Sonakshi.." Her voice quivered.
"He doesn't remember you." The minutes the word flew past her mouth, I felt all the happiness seep out through me.
"What?" I croaked out. I wriggled my arm away from her hold like it burned me but the truth was, everything in this moment crushed me.
What should I do? Laugh because there he was, awake and possibly out of danger, unknown to every shit that devastated the two of us? Or cry because...because I, Sonakshi Bose, the only love of his life, nothing in the line of his memory?
"But h..how is that..even.." She beat me to this too because she knew what I meant to ask.
"Doctors said his head has sustained a terrible injury and its impact has led him to forget a part of his life. He doesn't remember the last three years of his life. There's no logical explanation as to why he has missed out only the last three years but he has." She sighed.
"So he doesn't remember.. Me? N..nothing..about me?" My hope was hollow. My fears had come true in a way. I was going to die.
She just shook her head.
Ask a lover what's the most cruel way to be punished and this would be it. This would be it.
I don't know if it was exhaustion that took over me or if it was the mental torture I felt with this tiny, disastrous revealation, I saw black and I tasted ground.
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Sonakshi Bose, the fighter, had given up. She fainted.
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A/N:
Too late? Perhaps. I really, truly apologise from the bottom of my heart and I want to explain my absence.
Alot of things have happened in my life all at once.
A heartbreak, endless days of sadness (I have dealt with them. I'm kinda okay now), fixing up of my sister's wedding (it's in like two weeks yayyy!) and the most important, my entrance exams are on my head (next damn month. Im flipping out totally). I literally had not a single moment of clear head hence all my fanfics were on hold. Im sorry, really.
I'm not regular with updates and I know its frustrating but so is life.
I try my best to deal.
Hope y'all will understand. :)
Anyway, I HOPE YOU GUYS LIKE THE SONA'S ANGUISH EXPLAINED IN THIS CHAPTER. THIS ISN'T GOING TO BE LIKE THE MOVIE 'THE VOW' BUT YEP THAT MOVIE'S MY FAV!
FEEDBACK IS DESPERATELY AWAITED. PLEASE GIVE ME A PUSH AND A REASON TO CONTINUE.
P.S. my silly head is imagining a cutesy very adorable story of devakshi in a total arrange marriage setup because 1) my sister is having an arranged marriage and its too darn cute, I keep having aww moments seeing them and it gives me so much to imagine, 2) I personally love the whole arrange marriage idea oh gosh save me. What should I do lol.
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