Someone once said that death is not the greatest loss in life. The greatest loss is what dies inside us while we live.
That's the thought that hit me when I saw Dev today.π
The body is there, but something has died inside, as rightly said by his mama too. π
The pressure he has put on himself to fulfil his families expectations is sooo high that even under so much influence of alcohol, he has that in his mind.
But for once, I am happy of the fact that Liquor is not banned in Delhi π...and that Dev got drunk. So to Elena dear, beta payal nahi, botal dil ke raaz kholti hai ππ
Dev had a lot inside him which he needed to vent out. And I am glad it will continue for tomorrow as well.ππ
Coz men are too weak to express and almost have a guard on and that's where scotch worked for Dev too.π
Today's episode when Dev cried his heart out to Sonakshi had my tears rolling down. I could feel the pain he was going through. Fir kisi cheez ka hisab nahi rehta jab mohabbat behisaab ho jaye.
He had no control over himself, over anything. The only thing he knew was he wants Sonakshi happy. And so as he told her, he went there with good intentions, just to see her for that one last time, to wish her one last time. He tried to tell her that when he's making her suffer, deep within he himself is suffering and his suffering was spilling over.
My favourite from that conversation was when he couldn't even speak or should I say he hated even speaking about Ritwick putting that ring into Sonakshi's fingers, let alone the fact that he had to witness the situation. It clearly showed how much he even hated the thought of it.
But after all this, the point is, as much as that alcohol helped him in coming out with his pent up emotions, I am afraid, next morning when he gets up, he'll again be Dev Dixit, the man who is guilty of not being worthy of Sonakshi and this time may find himself guilty of blaming his god for his debacle.
And so while I leave, this one is to praise the hero today: That bottle of scotch π
Sharaab se kuchh to seekh le ae ishq, Botal pe kam se kam ye to likha hai ke main jaan lewa hu.