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It has been three months now.
Three months without him. Three months without his nagging, without his late night phone calls, his visits at my place that too at wee hours.
I miss his smile. And I don't think there is anyone in this world who looks better than him when they smile.
I miss the warmth that it feels when he holds me close to his strong chest and wraps his muscular arms around my small waist.
I miss you Dev. Or Mr. Dixit I should say?
No. You are Mr. Obhodro to me. Just mine. I can't pretend any longer.
There is something you do to me that makes me forget everything. The only thing I remember then is that I love you.
I try hard not to look at your face, when the only thing I want is to look at you without blinking my eyes. I try hard not to listen to your voice, when I feel your strong and manly voice is my traquil.
I've been trying so hard Dev. So hard to keep myself away from you. Its not easy.
You- yes you Mr. Stalker Dixit. I shout at you bad for keeping a check over me, when I actually don't mind it at all. I show myself to be non caring and rude when you call me for the most lame reasons, but I love it when you that.
I said no to Ritwik, Dev. I thought it'll be easier for me to move on if I say a yes to marriage. I was so wrong. It was only making things worse. How would I be able to spend my life with a man, I have no feelings for.
But what now? What do I do now?
I feel like picking up the phone and dialing your number, running into your arms whenever I see you. But I stop myself from doing any of these. And I won't lie it is very difficult for me.
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