* big thing: was actually part of the recap. gayatri-mom actually hitting back at lalu-chacha about his crazy anger levels with prem. i'd actually thought that was a very cool part of the last show, which i don't think i mentioned in the 1-3jul bt,lt. it's good to see gayatri-mom working, in her own way, to make lalu-chacha see the error of his ways. i just hope it won't be too late for prem when it finally happens. 😕
* big thing: i seriously loved preet poking fun at his "eid-ka-chand" and prem admonishing him for it, and then preet laughingly pulling his ears for forgiveness.
why did i love it? 'cause the father has been a cause of such disruption. and yet the children are displaying no real hatred of the man! it's like "okay, there's a glitch just now, but we're all going to solve it. no hard feelings. so let's party till it is solved." just loved the implication of the love for the father in that attitude. something that we on the forum certainly can't bring ourselves to have! 😆 😆
* little thing: have i mentioned earlier that i think the veera angle is boring???
* little thing: music's playing. bodys' are swaying. hips are shaking. arms are twisting. all celebrating prem's award. and what's prem doing? what he does at all parties - standing aloof in a corner! 🤣
and seeking heer, of course. this time with a little more desperation than ever before. after all, it's his house, damnit! 😆
* big thing: i detested that cheap employer-man and his cheap remarks! 😡 that entire meher-cheap-man conversation had my blood boiling! seriously! how dare anyone have that attitude about anyone else! how dare they display it??!! the uncivilised lout! i was so mad that even the ice-cream didn't help.
and of course, i could completely feel what it was doing to prem. he was probably dying having to hear that cheap-man talk about heer like that -- "she will certainly work extra for it tomorrow" 😡 -- and not being able to break el cheap creep's face up.
* little thing: first time, meher has come face to face with stern prem. no wonder she didn't have a word to say other than "aap". does meher use aap usually?
* little thing: prem still can't use "heer" in a coherent, simple sentence! 🤣 "uh.. heer... where's heer?"
* little thing: but okay, does prem have to do that royal halt-hand gesture? for a moment, i couldn't figure if he was stopping meher, or blessing her! had to see his stern face to figure out what! 🤣
* little thing: they've lived with him for so long, and still kulraj-di-preet can't figure prem's mood from his expression? i guess not. i think that's what prem always has been -- superb at hiding his feelings from everyone except his mom, and now, heer.
or maybe, kulraj-di thinks that after her letting out that heer has been slaving to setup the party for him, prem's just desperate to get to heer to ... um ... thank her in private? is that why kulraj-di and preet did that little low five? sigh. i hope so....
* prem thing: from that point on - hearing el cheap creep abuse his love - the entire prem sequence was stunning. figuring out that she's been doing the work he thinks is his responsibility. feeling totally tied down in not being able to wreck havoc on someone who has said dirty things about heer. being locked into a party going on in the privacy of his "home", surrounded by "outside people". working up the fury as he walks up the stairs, with furrows on his brow.
and then, as he walks towards heer-at-the-window worrying her nails, the way that anger melts. the way he ends up looking down at her with eyes filled with infinite love and immense sadness. the way his eyes dropped when she looks up at him with her clear eyes, filled with their usual love message. prem's eyes have never dropped in front of heer's before! (she should've got a clue that something was awfully wrong then!) the look of what-am-i-doing-here-i'm-not-worthy-to-yell-at-her. standing silently waiting for what he thinks is her confession about her work. stepping up close to her, as if to give her courage - that he is with her. (idiot! doesn't he realise that when he's that close-up to her, her brain is probably getting scrambled?? idiot.) and then his face - when he realises that she's telling him she loves him and wants to marry him. he looks like he's hit with a ton of bricks. like he wishes that he had never come there. that he had stopped her from speaking.
and all through he speaks not one word. simply brilliant. if only...
* begging thing: they had just got rid of that song in the background!!!! i mean, i know it's a signature song for something and all that. but puhlease!! it was just sooo wrong then!
can we puhlease get better editors on this show?? please? this show deserves the best and it's not getting it.
* heer thing: just as prem was heartbreakingly deep today, heer was heartbreakingly sweet. she still can't articulate any sensible conversation with prem. other than through her eyes, of course! it really is true. these two can only talk with her eyes.
loved her desperation to be able to say something to prem today, though. loved the sense that heer is mimicking a lot of what prem has gone through -- even the words they use are the same. 😆 loved her needing her talisman ring to have the courage to tell him she can't live without him.
and even though i got prem's reaction today, heer's sweetness was such that it was a blow to hear prem's broken voice saying he can't marry her. heer has always seen prem fight - against everything. she has never seen uncertain prem, unconfident prem.
maybe it's a guy-girl thing? for heer, after the mindblowing romance of prem's walking through fire, things like getting roti-kapda-makaan is probably mundane. (well, it would certainly be for me! 😆) while, at the end of his miserable day and heer's magnificent proposal, the only thing he can focus on is his inadequacy to perform the traditional male role. after having been made to feel inadequate by the sleaze, then his father, his own feeling of inadequacy was probably the last straw to break the hero's heart.
* prem thing: so, i confess - i wanted to cry for prem today, choking on my ice-cream. the guy's had a really lousy day. meets the sleazy industrialist. discovers a possible takeover attempt of his father's hotel. gets publicly humiliated by his father at what was his hotel. walks tiredly into a crazy party where no-one really cares about him. finds out that heer's working to keep him in his proper place in life. finds out that people can abuse her, and there's nothing he can do about it. finds out he can't get angry at heer. finds out that his being there is not stopping the tear from her eyes.
* prem-heer thing: i totally got his freaking out at her proposal. i totally loved her reaction of disbelief - it can't be that prem doesn't love her! and then, disbelief that it's because her hero, her soul-mate is feeling inadequate!
totally loved the shot of his feet backing away from her. and just as totally loved her feet following his, as if not willing to let him go anywhere. totally loved the sense of desperation that prem projected of being overwhelmed by everything and wanting - maybe for the first time ever that we have been seeing him - to run away. totally loved her helplessness in watching him trying to go.
at the end of that, did anyone else want to tell heer that prem was like that white dove she used to have at her father's house? the one that never used to leave, even when all the other flew away. and that all she had to do was wait for him to take a deep breath, and collect himself. all she had to do was to hold his hand while he did so.
presumptuous of me, i know. but given what we have seen. given where we are. that's what feels right about prem and heer. 😍 ya, i confess - i do still think the story rocks. even with the often-bad presentation and the distracting actors and everything - the core, i like. i wish it could have been told consistently better.
highlight of the episode: the look on prem's face shifting from sterness to melty love looking at heer from behind her. his eyes dropping from the shining love in hers.
and okay, i must confess: the ashlesha scene with prem today made me giggle. i mean, c'mon! did you see the look on prem's face when she hugged him??? or the last look on heer's face when ash rubbed prem's arm??? it was certainly not just having too much sugar at 3am that was making me giggle wildly. 🤣