Itz my life!!! OS(PH) :)))

hey everyone.. wassup?!!.. so ..i wrote this one.. acyually was gonna put that up fr the blog.. just thot of putting up it outta here.. with premeer as well..dunno whether yuh guys will like it o not.. neways.. here it goes..

happy new year guyz..

with love..sandy!

ITS MY LIFE!!!!!!!!!!


It was my first day at college.. new place.. new people.. I was already in a depressed mood.. as it was for the first time I were staying away from home, from my parents, from my sister.. but then..i knew this was inevitable.. some time in life we have to do some sacrifices for our own good.. and this was one of such.. for my good future I had to do my studies and for that I had to stay away from home..

I looked around me and saw all new faces.. there was excitement and happiness on each face.. i felt like I was the only one who was not happy to be here.. well.. who else will act grumpy like me.. it was not a small thing to get an admission in one of the best colleges of the time and still I was making a sad face..

'be strong' I reminded myself. Then there was some faculty members coming in and guiding us to our respective classrooms.. I found an empty seat on the second row and so went and sat there.. that was a two seater and there was another girl already on a seat.

I was so upset that I dint bother to have a talk with her.. I was getting the same feeling that I had when I were in my first grade and mom had left me at school alone.. 'cmon.. you are grown up now.. don't act like a kid..' I kept on reminding myself..

since it was our first day we were left a few minutes afterwards.. that day went off like that.. it was to my surprise that I found the same girl who sat near me as my roomie at hostel.. somehow that helped me.. I learned that her name was 'maya'.. and I introduced myself to her..

maya told me how she had lived in hostel all her life and how fun it was.. I refused to believe her.. I was not ready to believe that I could ever be happy staying away from home..

Next day, we sat in the same way as we were the previous day.. I had also talked to a few other girls.. and saw that they all were so friendly and nice.. I was starting to like the atmosphere..

First what they did was form groups for the practical classes and labs.. it was random groups of three people.. I saw that my name was the last in the list with some other boys name.. 'oh..' I didn't want that!!.. then was that announcement from the professor.. to exchange our seats and sit with our lab partners..

I didn't wanna leave my seat.. but all had started moving and even I was forced to.. I didn't know who these other person was.. may be seeing the confusion in my eyes someone got ready to help me and showed me my partner..

He was lying with his head on his right arm.. I didn't know what to do.. I was not used to go ahead and talk to a guy…"ahem.."I cleared my thought hoping that would gain his attention.. but no..he was so lost that he didn't hear me..

"Prem.." I decided to call his name.. that did the job.. he raised his head and looked at me questioningly.. "well.. am heer.. and I guess both of us are lab partners.." I said.

There wasn't much of a reaction in his eyes.. he just nodded his head and took the bag that was placed on the seat next to him.. as I sat next to him I saw him lying down again..

I had tears in my eyes.. of all the people I had to get such a person as my partner.. and to my utter shock the professor said that we had to sit with the partners for the rest of the year..!!!

I think that was the day I had cried the most in my life.. already my life was so screwed up and now I get a person next to me in class who doesn't even bothers about me.. maya tried to console me and suggested that we could go and ask the professor for a change in group.. but I was afraid.. what the professor myt think about me.. that I was a complaint box!! Who started her list of complains on the very first day itself.. so I stopped maya and myself from that… 'its just during the working hours.. eight hours a day.. I will manage it,..' I said maya…and tried assuring myself.

As days passed by I saw that Prem was not as horrible as I had thought.. he rarely smiled or talked to me...he wasn't so rude either.. but still.. I didn't want him as my partner .. I wanted someone else..

He was tall, fair and strikingly handsome..most of the girls in my class envied that I got him as my partner.. if only they had known what was in my mind!!

I was getting adjusted with the atmosphere.. I found a wonderful friend in maya.. and everything was nice there..i slowly got off my home sickness.. just one thing bothered.. Prem.. he was still the same.. yea..there was improvements.. he started smiling more frequently..

Few days later I understood something... he didn't know hindi.. I thought I was at advantage.. I could say anything to him and he wont understand.. that was interesting.. it so happened that everytime he made a mistake I scolded him in hindi and he just listened to all of it with a smile.. 'poor thing..can even understand that I am scolding him…' I would smile thinking.

It happened one day.. Prem and I were doing the calculations.. and I wanted a pencil.. "Prem.. who pencil zara pass karna.." I askd him. to my shock he asked, "kaunsii.. yeh wali?" he spoke to me .. and that too in hindi..!!

I still dunno what my reactions were that time.. all those moments passed through my memory where I had scolded him in hindi..

"you told me you don't understand hindi.." I finally asked him.

"well..i do.. just that I dont know to read or write.. my mom n dad speaks hindi at times..and I can understand quite well.." he smiled at me as if reading my thoughts.

I can for sure say that it was the most embarrassing moment of my life.. he understood hindi..and that meant all this while I was making a fool of myself!! I just wanted to die that moment..!!

That was the beginning of our friendship.. we started talking more and more.. I learned a lot about him.. and so did he come to know about me.. I realised that we both were much the same.. we shared the same tastes in almost all the things.. we liked the same kinda foods, books, movies, ..what not…

And I realised one more thing.. he also like me was home sick.. and that was the reason why he was acting so moody all these days.. and also him not knowing the language had stopped him from having conversations.. I felt sad for him.. and angry at myself.. I was all these days blaming and cursing him for his behaviour..and poor thing was someone who was more miserable than me..

Soon it was like we were the best of friends.. I enjoyed being with him.. we studied together.. we had our lunch together.. we walked back to hostel together...you wouldn't see me without Prem at my side..!!

I started enjoying my college days..i realised what maya said was true.. I would love my college years.. examz were the terror.. but again..prem helped me..

I started admiring him.. for his skills.. he was a guy you see one in a million.. he was smart, studious, handsome, loving , caring.. what not!! He was just the opposite what I had first thought about him..

Not that he had no bad qualities about him.. he did have.. he was never good at speaking with girls.. he spoke to a maximum of three girls other than me..and in a way I liked that.. I didn't want my friend to be shared.. when it came to him, I was really possessive!!

One day at class he told me how a classmate of ours had proposed to her.. and he had said 'no' to her.. I liked the fact that he had rejected her.. 'why I was happy ..i still dunno..'!!!

Time was running ahead.. one year had passed soon..and I knew it was time.. we were both having different specialisation for our second year and that meant we were gonna be in different classes..

I started missing him.. in class .. in labs.. everywhere.. we caught up with each other every single break.. but then it wasn't the same..

It was a hell lot of time.. I was pissed off all the time.. as I was missing him badly.. the work load had doubled.. It was a new bunch of classmates… and above all .. my friends had started asking me.. what was it between the two of us..

That question rang in my mind too.. what was it between the two of us??!! am in love with him?!.. I tried to assure myself that he was just a good friend of mine..and nothing more.. but I saw some different story altogether in his eyes.. but I refused to see that..

I thought about my family..i knew it was impossible to have another relation with him.. it wont be easily accepted.. so with a heavy heart I made that decision..i should stay away from him..but that question still rings in my mind.. what was the feeling that I saw in his eyes for me?!!!!!!!!!!

o re manva tu to baavra hai
tu hi jaane tu kya sochta hai
tu hi jaane tu kya sochta hai baavre
kyun dikhaye sapne tu sote jaagte
jo barse sapne boond boond
naino ko moond moond
jo barse sapne boond boond
naino ko moond moond
kaise main chaloon dekh na sakoon
anjaane raastein!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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That was the end.. lol..dont kill me!! I would be happy if yuh guys gimme comments on how yuh felt reading it!

hiiiiiiiiiiiiii

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Originally posted by: nuptalie

I was about to write reserved😊
But just remembered that i have to unreserve all the posts before the new year as a tradition hehe good there was such a tradition..😆.

I loved it sandy. I already told u that when u showed it to me.thnx yaar.. But i also said that people will ask for the next part as well😆 See when i was going through the previous comments i saw that what i told u is correct hehei knw... but am helpless!!..

This story is so real. I can see where is comes from.itz real in every sense.. as in almost everything actually happened!! very minor exceptions.. And as a college gal i completely can put my self there. And home sickness and get to face the new croud uffffff i know where did that come from.

And sitting beside a person that u dont like and that is too for a year ahah i can see where her feelings comes from .experience talks!!😃..

Im glad u thought of writing a story like this coz u always talking about real stuff so good for u some thing like this.i told yuh naa.. this wasnt meant fr here.. i was really doubtful.. itz nt the usual story!..
And me wants a next part coz u havent ended properly in the sense i wana see prem and heer together or not together or some thing .now what can i do.. in real thing they arent together.. n i was writing what happened!!..
But a proper end okk.lol..i can tel yuh whats the real end.. guy is at some place..and girl is at some other place..they still are friends.. and nothing more.. 😛..now ..i cant write that naa.. thats why i left it there.. for people to guess!