So finally frnds tomorrow is the dreadful day, ending of Kis Desh, no more PH now😒.
Anyways here is my next shot and may be my last OS
TRACES
"It has been 9 months but nothing has changed yet, its all the same, dark all over, no ray of any light, no hope which may enlighten my life, in these 9 months only my priorities bent but not changed and even for whom I should", he bewailed.
"Only my status changed but still I am the same parched traveler in desert in search of water, love of my love" finally he capitulated.
It took months for him to comply but finally he reckoned that it was not meant to be destined, though he strived for it, he really did but there was something in his love only that it didn't manifested to her.
"It was not her frailty but my malfeasance as my love was derelict" he grimaced. "Me and my love was not strong enough which can win your love and can made you to fall in love with me" he regretted
Slowly he made his way out from his cabin to Car Park Area. Reaching for his car he just drove to go home but without any heart to again enter in that house, a house which is still like a graveyard, there is no voice, no sound for which he wished to go home or would wait to go home. His house is perfect from the decor to the relationships to his family, her in laws. His wife Mrs.Heer Juneja is a perfect daughter in law, home maker, sister in law and a wife who took every care of him from his food to his work but love, the only thing which is different in their relation, the relation because of which every relation is maintained and balanced is not only poised, on verge of its collapsing. Not willing to go home, actually his house, he drove to his favourite place, his place to find peace entirely isolated from the world
"Mr. Prem Juneja and Mrs. Heer Juneja, Made In Heaven Couple who together forms Premeer but only it was a plastering on a damage wall, little they all knew was that they were Happily Married in outside world, Acquaintances in House and completely Unknown in isolation from the world" he bemoaned.
He still remembered the day penetratingly when he first met her or actually helped her, it was heavenly raining and he was driving back to his home when his eyes suddenly found a girl showing her hand for a lift, her clothes draped in water and hugging her supine figure and showing her each curve from her translucent White Salwaar Kameez which she failing trying to cover with her hands and his eyes wandering on her face not willing to see her in that state and also his eyes refusing to take off from her face. For the first time he had seen such a beauty, so pure, white creamy skin with caramel coloured eyes and thick long black hair all wet with the raindrops and few strands of her hair splashing water all over her angelic face, on her eyelashes, water making its way down from her forehead towards cheek and few drops on her luscious lips. A knock on his window made him aware of the surroundings and that he was staring an unknown girl from past 10 minutes.
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"Could you please drop me at my place" Heer politely asked.
"Yes, please get in" Prem replied.
Drive to her place was silent except the names they didn't exchanged another word. And it was the first time when Prem met her and Heer directly made her path to his heart, she made him to fall in love with her, the Handsome Hunk of the town to whom not even a single girl managed to registered her presence, this girl straightly went to his heart. But still after that day never they had any encounter again, he searched for her even to get a glimpse but all were just in vain when one day he again saw her in a marriage party and it was just not a marriage party soon that function lead to their marriage, it had been an arranged marriage but it was more than a simple marriage or less than a marriage.
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"Traces of her past still haunted her, her wounds which were deep buried at one place again came up and I was the reason, unknowingly in my love I hurted her" he affirmed.
Her life had been like an open book to him which she unveiled on the very first day of the relation their parents had been thinking for and Prem was dreaming off, the sour reality which she didn't even open up to her parents but Prem and surprisingly after knowing all about her past life still he wanted her, wanting to marry her, to share his life with her and to ameliorate all the marks with his love and affection but she never gave him a chance to do, the impact was so deep in her mind, heart and soul that no one's love or care would have revived them so easily or maybe Heer was afraid from giving any other contingency to another man.
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All the past 9 months and his encounters with her in each and every affair were still fresh in his mind as if matter of day before. He still clearly recalled the day when he was ecstatic as the girl he loved would be soon his and he was meeting her officially for the first time but his joy was not lasted for long as that day he had seen a different girl not the same whom he had seen in the that rain, this girl was shivering with even his presence, his lips trembling, her words unclear only she managed to say "I can't marry you, I don't want to" and soon she left the place leaving him dumbstruck and rooted at one point. She didn't even let him to express his point or could ask for the reason.
From the day he was not the same, the girl she loved was not interested in him, the Prem Juneja for whom with a snap of fingers girls would form in a que to even have a glimpse of him but Heer whom he wanted in his life doesn't want to marry him, he felt devasted, most unlucky man in the world, the girl which he hardly knew left that much repercussion on him and sequester him from his mind, heart and soul.
But again she crossed his path and this time she met to tell him that she want to marry him, it was another day when he felt that his heart skip a beat, finally she agreed to be his but still she was not the same, she is the same girl whom he met on that day when she said NO to him, same scared and frightened with his presence. And the very same moment she tore his heart into several pieces, she did not do it purposely but it was the harsh cataclysm that made him feel ashamed and knowing his love he knew that catastrophe was not mattered and would never turned their life upside down. And he would obliterate all those traces with his zeal.
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Other 2 months was a complete bliss for him, every tradition and customs which was bringing him near to her was just getting loved by him, finally the day came when he turned Ms. Heer Mann to Mrs.Heer Prem Juneja, in her bridal attire she was the most beautiful bride any groom could dream off and they both were simply complimenting each other, people were not able to take off their eyes from this beautiful wedded couple who were two but seems to be one .
But what people see is not always the reality. "The day I cherished till now and thanked God for bestowing me with it was the same day when I felt penitent on being born as a human being, moreover being born as a man" he grimaced. "That day I understood her reason of getting petrified around me it was not just me but any other man to near to her" he contort.
"The night which I wanted to make special for her, to make her the most special girl was the same night when I horrified her, made her cry, made her to remember all those incidents ,all those shameful jeopardy came rushing back to her, shameful 1 year" he regretted.
"The mere touch of mine shriveled her, never could she trust or love any other man in her life was the thing that I understood by now but wanted to erase off them so as to pump a new life into her not because she was my wife or my love but because she got what she never deserved or nobody else deserved" he mourned.
Such days were now regular for Prem everytime he was around, Heer just couldn't utter a word, that horror chapter of her life made her a lifeless being who was never happy, atleast in all these 9 months Prem had never seen her smiling but once or twice on PJ's of Preet but never had he seen her laughing or vibrant as he thought she would be but he did not minded it as she made it clear on the very first day before marriage but Prem had thought that he would again teach her to live her life but he failed miserably he failed. "In all these 9 months I couldn't even give her a second of rejoicing but only tears" he deplored.
He remember the day when she was in tears of helplessness and anger because of him, he was responsible for the shedding of those pearls from her eyes, when one day in anger of her ignorant behaviour he dared to get hold of her with her wrist and he took it so hard which left a mark on her hand , another trace of misery, he made her to remember that night when first time her dignity was torn into pieces by her own husband, when first time she hated her husband around her, first time when she was remorsed on his hands on her form, her first marriage which was responsible for her this state, the one who not only laid his dirty hands on her but also made her soul to cry, the very same man who promised to protect her throughout her life around the holy fire played with her chastity not once but numerous times in that one year.
"I would have killed that man with my bare hands if could have got the opportunity of even a single encounter with him" he gritted his teeth.
Because of that man Heer is terrified from each and every single man around him, each man only reminded her of him and his wild animal behaviour how he beated her, how his wild nature lost its limit when the day he undid her clothes forcefully, physically abused her, forced himself on her and from that day onwards it was a regular thing in Heer's life, someday or the other she had to be the victim of that animal, he would tear her clothes, pulled her hair, forced onto the bed, was a complete black spot on husband's name and because of him Heer considered every man like him and in this process only Heer hurted Prem, gave the most biggest pain when she affirmed "All men are same".
But that were the words for which Heer felt like killing herself as she knew Prem is not like any other man , he is different indeed very special, he was not infatuated by her beauty but loved her soul, accepted a girl who had nothing for him, nothing to give.
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In all these 9 months Prem was not able to win her love or even friendship but surely became her confidant, moved a step higher from a stranger to her confidant though till now their talks had been so very formal and minimal but she would often open herself to him if something bothered her which was till now just been twice the first when she apologized for her behaviour and saying those harsh words as that time she opened that 1 year, her painful 1 year journey and how she get out of his claws and second was the one when she had an encounter with him again and he was still the same disgusted jerk and whom in friction of seconds brought back all those memories back to her which Prem later wiped off, that was the day when first time and unfortunately last time Prem took her into his arms and soothed her, made her feel secure and protected.
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He came out of his world when he read the watch to strike 10:00 though he was not wanting to go home not because his love has not been reciprocated but because he do not want any more pain to her, even a single drop of tear to made its way down but he have to because his absence also would cause the same thing which he does not want, he sauntered towards his car and made his way to his house. And on reaching home and getting upstairs, was shocked to see Heer nowhere in sight, went on the round of whole mansion but still no sign of Heer and then he suddenly remembered about the soft falling shower and Heer really like to see the rain though she never go into the rain or wet herself which he surely want to see but his hard luck. Quickly he made his way towards the terrace and was amazed to see Heer enjoying the rain, getting wet under the shower, the last thing he ever expected, he had never seen her so happy before even happy before it was the first time when he was seeing the million dollar smile on his love's face, he was enraptured by her beauty, that smile was making her all over more beautiful, his angel in every sense, he was enamored with her form, her pink colour saree getting tightly wrapped around her body revealing her bewitching figure, her hairs all wet soaked in water, her vermillion spread over her face due to water but was not at all looking messy and he did not missed the drops on his lips which he so wanted kissed away at the moment itself but he composed himself knowing his limits but still he couldn't helped herself and move towards her slowly so as not to disturbed her moments of joy but he was not aware that she noticed him moving towards her and she turned to face him and this time she greeted her with a known smile not an unknown as if in a exotic place but a warm welcome which always every husband want from his wife after a long tiring day but it was not the only thing more to come tonight.
The next moment Heer tightly wrapped her hands around his neck, their tightly fitted body obviously it was because of the lightning and thunder and since a child Heer had great fear for this which no matter what she never succeeded to get over but soon she realized and easened herself but his nose was nuzzling her cheek and there was just a millimeter gap between them, it was the first time when Prem ever seen her from this much near or even close and soon Prem forgot about his limits and pressed his lips against hers sucking the inviting water droplets on her lips but it was for no longer as she pushed him hard and ran away not being able to epitomize so as to what had happened leaving Prem there to curse himself for behaving like a perfect hungry beast, to feel ashamed on himself for breaking her trust, for tormenting her. He hit his fist hard on the nearby wall
"How could I? How could I behave so cruel with her? why I am the only reason for her aggrieve? Now even I loosened my place in her heart as a person with whom she can share her feelings" he contorts.
Contemptibly he rambled down to their bedroom though he had no audacity to apologize but he have to, he was feeling so out of place in even facing her after breaking her trust but he have to, he just can't let her to threw him out of the small place she gave him in her heart, with a hope getting her clemency he walked in but again to find an empty room, he searched around when he heard shower from the washroom and was sure that Heer was taking late night shower as usual. Meanwhile he decided to change, he went to his wardrobe and took out a Pajama and tunic and took off his shirt but not pulled on his tunic instead went to the window enjoying the rain drops which Heer loves which touched Heer which made her alive and he broke her perfect bliss.
He was about to pulled on his tunic when he saw Heer coming out of bathroom dressed in a salwaar kameez and towel perfectly fixed on her hair but there was something unknown & weird which he surely did not expect 'A Smile' the same smile which was upstairs and which has not vanished even after what happened upstairs and Prem seriously not wanted that smile even to fizzle for a second so he decided better not to talk about it now, and he moved from the window was about to leave when he felt a hold on his hand.
It was Heer who stopped him by holding his wrist and turned to face her, this was another flabbergast for him on the very same day, for the very first time Heer touched him herself, she moved closer to him and left a tantalizing kiss on his bare chest near his heart and reached towards him, she placed her left hand on his right cheek and after reaching to him gently placed her lips over his. Prem who was numb at the time just enjoyed her lips over his for few seconds but soon respond back as his hands travelled from her waist towards her back towards her cheek, and he cupped her face gently nestling her cheeks with his thumb and her hands sank into his velvety hair slowly caressing his nape with her hands and soon that gentle kiss transformed into raw passionate kiss filled with hunger, his one hand went down to her waist bringing her more close so as to feel her form against his, and other hand on her nape bringing her lips more and more closer, soon her lips parted under his touch and his tongue moved in a not so gentle manner on her lips.
But their jubilation soon got over as they breathlessly broke apart and Heer reached on her toes and whispered "I Love You Prem" near his lips, the words just three words which Prem wanted to hear from eternity were now finally out from her mouth, did he hear it right did she actually confessed her love, God has become so merciful on him. Is this all for true or a beautiful dream which would be soon over as soon as her alarm clock start ringing.
"I love You" she again spoke.
No it is for real she confessed her love, he managed to steal her heart, he was a bundle of joy, his happiness has no boundary, and finally after 9 months she is his with her soul and heart.
"Its just not today I loved you from the day I understood you, know you, know your love for me" she managed to say.
"The day you agreed to marry me even after knowing my whole life I started respecting you and during these 9 months you made me to fall in love with you, to adore you" she complimented.
"You always thought that you were the sole reason for my tears, for my misery but no you were the only reason who made me understand that what is love? And there is no giving & taking in love, though I realized that I have some feeling for you long back but it was love, it came up little late to me" she said.
"And after realizing I so wanted to tell you at the moment but was not courageous enough as I had nothing to give you not even first right on me"she regretted with tear-filled eyes.
"You made me realise that all men are not same, someone can love other more than himself can love her with his whole heart and soul " tears made their way."I hated myself for causing you this much pain, sole responsible for your distress, because of me you always cursed yourself, I am not that special to deserve a person......................" he didn't let her complete and shushed her with his finger.
"You are the most special girl, the only girl who made me to fall in love with her, who defined love for me, who defined women hood to me, on whom I was so proud for having her in my life, who made me special" he affirmed.
"I loved you from the day you asked me for the lift, you instantly made me to fall in love with you, the only girl who managed to take my breath away" he said.
Hearing this she just tightly wrapped her arms around him and murmured "I love you, I want to be yours today Prem, make me yours in every sense, Purify my soul".
The next moment he just captured her lips to again taste those ambrosial lips and he gently removed her Dupatta and he felt her shudder for revealing her most sensitive part to her love for the very first time and soon his lips made their way to her velvety skin. Starting from her collar bone towards her throat he traced each and every contour with his lips while his hands roaming on her waist, she threw her head back so as a give better access and he thoroughly took advantage, his lips were on every mere contour of her neck and collar bone but it was not easy for Heer as soon, her knees gave up and Prem scooped her in his arms and made their way towards their bed all the time her hands roaming over his chest and torso and then perfectly clasped around his neck. On reaching bed he gently placed her down and was about to kiss her hands when Heer stopped him and left a peck on his lips and cheeks and then on his chest, making her lips to move down to his perfect toned body, his handsome rugged face and then finally he kissed onto his forehead before going for his shoulder and crook of his neck but soon positions reversed as soon, he found her wrist the place where once he hurted her, he placed his first kiss there and it was long one so as to suck the pain that he gave her months back and then he made his way towards her upper arm caressing all through with his lips then moved to her earlobes gently craessing it with his lips and placing a tantalizing kiss on her eyes, the most beautiful part of her which made Prem to fall for her at first sight and then he made his way to her bare shoulder feeling every curve of her form and making Heer to clutch onto the sheets with her other hand and to shudder under his touch but Prem was Prem he quickly understood it and made his way towards her face, gently kissing all over the face and finally to his lips he entwined his fingers with hers and kissed with all the passion he had for her.He made Heer Mrs. Prem Juneja, he showed his love,he bestowed her with his love for which she was waiting.
That night they became Premeer not only for world but for themselves, they both completed each other and soft shower from the heaven and the brightest full Moon in between of shimmering Stars witnesses the whole scenario, becoming one of two souls.
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Posted in hurry so hvn't proof read and wrote in a hurry as wanted to update today so spare me for my mistakes
P.S Couldn't replied to the comments just quoted them as was busy but will surely do them tomorrow
*AHEM AHEM* This much hotness and love was enough *cough cough * *Ms. Ammi, Maha*
Don't expect more can't be getting any more of it😛
Edited by Ashlesha09 - 15 years ago
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