27 aug '09: big things, little things, protesting!

ohhhh!! i am too upset that after all that hysterical hyper-activity on my part, they put ''rogue'' prem to sleep without doing anything to heer! maaa....aaaan! *sulky muh*

so in protest, i am not writing a bt,lt today. actually, it's mostly 'cause every alternative thing would've been a ''protesting thing'' saying how unfair it was that ''rogue prem'' and ''vulnerable heer'' never came face to face after prem turned rogue. 😛

besides what was there in today's episode?

* heer thing: heer still shows this strange ''ownership'' of prem's soul even though she has been trying to push him away from her ever since the start of the tls**.

really! to hear the girl talk, it's as if she'd been doing all this 'cause she just knew that it was better for him to stay away from her or s'thing! i mean, her only regret so far is that she managed to hurt his heart so deeply that he was driven to losing control over himself again! wha...??? i mean, what the heck did she mean when she said that she ''had been keeping quiet for the last six years, but now no longer.'' er.... huh??!? i thought she was keeping quiet ... 'cause she didn't have a choice to do anything else?! 'cause prem was far far away from her??? heer. whachyoutalkinabout??? 😕

so i'm seriously gonna give up on wondering 'bout heer. and instead just wait patiently for prem to find out what the heck heer is upto.

* prem thing: hmm. he actually had to tell gi-it that he had not said all those things he had said to her, but to ''woh/usko''. 😍

but hey, he was really that drunk that he couldn't tell short, dobby-eyed gi-it from tall, almond-eyed heer? gee... hmm. *hmm. maybe in such a state, he can imagine that he hadsexwithashleshawithoutgettinghisclothesoff... 🤣 'cause the last time, he was even more sloshed, right? 🤣 *

* gi-it thing: she has suddenly turned fishy -- as heck! 😲 seriously, now i am a little worried.

what did she mean when she was smiling to herself and adjusting her hair in prem's room? why was it acceptable to her (and to heer, damnit!) that it was okay for her to be in prem's room at that early hour -- but not for heer??! they are not married, damnit! or is it the done thing for girls to now be in a guy's room all night -- just like that? or s'thing?

the place where she actually struck a chill in my heart was when heer freaks out and tells her she is the one who should be ashamed. and gi-it suddenly looks all superior and smiles and said ''oh, so that is what is bothering you!'' 'cause i suddenly remembered -- wasn't this the girl who was forward enough with prem that she wanted to love him even though (she thought) he was a married man with a daughter??! i suddenly thought that gi-it had donesomethingtoprem then... and told heer a different story 'cause she loves heer and wants her to think that there is at least one guy on earth (prem) who wouldn't behave like heer was sure he would? 😕

*sigh* i suddenly wondered: who does gi-it love more -- prem or heer?

only thing that made me calm down was the thought that another explanation could be that gi-it already knows that heer and prem are ... well, heer and prem juneja, married, with one daughter. and she is just not telling heer 'cause ... well, heer should've told her about prem herself first!

* little gi-it thing: i really don't like gi-it giving bhashan to heer about who prem is, and how heer should be looking at prem. i don't. the only way i would think it was okay for her to do this is if gi-it doesn't know that heer is prem juneja's heer juneja. damnit! 😡

* little gi-it thing: er... so. at the end of that whole spiel, what was her stand on marrying prem? er... her heart got broken and she will not marry prem? or... her heart got broken, but she is filled with so much respect for the guy that she will marry prem?

which is it gonna be? 😆

* glob thing: hmm. no. no change there. she is still unspeakably disgusting. especially when she hugs phukda** and baby talks her and calls herself phukda's badi maa.

** phukda: prem-heer ka tukda

* phukda thing: ooh, she may have little taste in large glob like ladies. but she certainly got phreaked out when she heard glob call herself ''badi-maa'', no? 'cause there was no smile on phukda's face then? certainly wiped any sulk/smile/whatever off my face and shifted it to my barf face! 🤢

but heh, heh, the little girl can't bounce a ball too well... 😆

* heer-theory-by-soaps 😆 thing: so soaps (soaps1) came up with a theory yesterday about what heer is all about. she said that the worst punishment heer can ever think for herself is -- to be away from prem.

so ergo, heer (by pushing prem away) is punishing herself for something. and according to soaps (and i soooo think this is something that heer would do! 🤔) heer actually has been blaming herself for prem havingsexwithashlesha! 'cause she had not told prem about that dirty blackmailing samir-in-leather soon enough. and so prem thought she was having an affair. *sigh, duffer prem..* and went and hadsexwithashlesha. which heer figured was really not prem's fault and all her fault. and prem doesn't deserve to be with one so worthless.

so heer has deliberately stayed away from prem ('cause she is unworthy of him and is so even today).

well, i kinda liked the idea. fit with some of the things that heer said today. but i figure, if heer does feel this way - when prem came back into her life, she should've been fighting to make him happy by getting him the best girl. she would not have been telling other girls to watch out for this mad man who she knows will be a useless lover and husband -- 'cause all that he can think about is her? you'd figure that she would fight to get prem married (even while dying all the while inside)?

i dunno.

i liked the idea 'cause i keep feeling there is something about heer and her feelings for prem that needs greater explanation. but somehow this idea didn't stand up and shout that it was the one that explained all heer's actions. no?

*sigh* well, for a protesting bt,lt, i sure wrote a lot! 😆 *sigh* but i'm still protesting... *sulky muh*

i want a rogue-prem-vulnerable-heer moment, darnit! actually, i want any prem-heer moment, darnit.

better still....

i want a rogue-prem-vulnerable-heer kiphph! er... actually, i want any prem-heer kiphph!!!! 🤣 koi shaq?? 🤣🤣🤣

*slipping back to hysterical-estee-ki-nishani so easily that i wonder why i even bothered sulking at all!! 🤣*

no highlights! i'm protesting, remember??!

but i must say: when that totally-meanie gi-it is describing to heer how it was one of the most beautiful nights she has know, i felt shattered just watching heer's face. o.m.g...

You know what, E? I think I agree with Soaps on the Heer thing. When I watched today's episode and when Heer was talking to herself about how it's her fault that Prem is in such a state and LAST TIME, she was too late to get there on time to stop it......that told me that she thinks last time, she was responsible for Prem's state too and hence he made the mistake and "slept" with Ashlesha. I think more than being angry with Prem, she's angry at herself for giving Prem a reason to doubt her and than sleep with Ashlesha. For days, I thought she just can't forgive Prem cause she loved him so much but after today what she said, I feel like she can't forgive HERSELF and maybe she is punishing herself by staying away from him. We all know Heer has a little ego and she can't just simply come forward and say "It was my fault, I am at fault, so please Prem stay away from me!"......for one, she would never say that and two, she knows if she says that Prem would not be like "Ok let me go ask my mother to oil my hair instead". So she just convinces herself and others that she hates Prem. But ah, we all know now, she is still obsessively in love with him.

As for telling others crap about Prem about how he is useless, well she never said anything to Rano really but to Geet, maybe she can't stand to see Prem with anyone else but esp. someone who she is really close to. If Prem marries Geet, than really, can Heer stay away from Prem? Prem would always be in Heer's life no seeing that Geet likes to drag Heer everywhere? I just think she can't stand to see Prem with anyone and today's episode proved it when she freaked out when Geet was talking about her "beautiful night" (That Geet really is stupid!). Heer at that moment was compeletly shattered.

Sigh, I make no sense but like you, I need some new romantic Heer and Prem moments, damn it!

And I thought I was the only one who noticed Chahat's reaction when "Glob" addressed herself as "Badi-Maa!"......Chahat's reaction was like "Ok you freak, off I go!" and she just ran off! I thought that was hilarious but what was more hilarious was when "Glob" was all jumpy and hyper asking Jasmeet where Heer is and when she finds out, it was like someone drained all the energy out of her.

The lady doth protest too much, methinks 🤣

Lol, but hey! As far as the protesting goes, I am right there with you. They totally wasted a rogue Prem didn't they?! I mean all we got to see of him in the last episode was a one minute flashback (with Geet, no less). And then later he magically turns into sleeping beauty. (Seriously! Who sleeps like that? With their hands strategically placed on their chests? It usually looks like my sheets are under attack when I wake up in the morning). There wasn't ONE rogue-Prem-vulnerable-Heer moment yesterday!! Not one!! *sigh*

I protest too!

Maybe Rogue Prem is still rogue and attacks Heer in the coming episode :P

E! You only want kiphph? 😔 You disappoint me..and here I was hoping for PH loosing umm control and having Phingoli 😍☺️

Well more than Heer wanting to spend the rest of her life with Geet (now why would she want that?), it's more like Geet wanting to spend the rest of her life with Heer. Ok that sounds wrong but you know like you said, who does Geet love more? Prem or Heer? I think she loves Heer more and she likes to be glued to Heer's side at all times. Why else would she drag Heer on her dates? If I was her, and if I had a chance to go to Ludhiana with the "love" of my life and that love of my life was Prem, I would not drag my best friend with me. Sorry I won't. But than also, I do think Geet knows about Heer and Prem. Or she must really be too dense OR she likes to make Heer angry all the time. Why would she provoke Heer to react eh? She knows Heer doesn't like it when Geet calls her "Prem's wife", than why is she keep mentioning it? My best friend will never do that unless she wants me to admit something.

And yes I do think you can be possessive without being jealous. I don't know how to explain it but like you know something is yours and you don't want to share it haha even if you pretend to hate that "thing".....

On another note, I do think since Prem still acts like such a Momma's boy, I won't be surprised if he actually did say that oil comment.

Actually talking about Prem's Mama......I do wonder, since Heer never told Chahat her father's name or even showed her a picture of Prem, yet she tells Chahat stories about her father and what her Papa's Mama says and does? She told Chahat the similarites Chahat shares with Prem (the hair thing)?? And let's not forget when Chahat and Prem met for the first time, she defended Prem and she only started her "OMG I hate Prem Juneja so don't talk to him, Chahat" drama only after Chahat got close to Prem. So does that really mean she really is guilty and she only started her nonsense "I hate Prem Juenja" drama because she's scared if Chahat gets too close to Prem, Prem would be a fixture in their lives and she won't be able to keep herself away from him? Eh, Heer's brain works in mysterious ways.

Sorry for taking over your topic haha!