what an episode! man, i want show-time-in-india-with-new-episode to be
now!!! 🤣
* little thing: so who else laughed loudly when gi-it fussily told prem that she was not talking him, and prem's face had a ''okay, can i go now?'' expression on it?! 🤣
* little thing: heer making plans to leave as soon as the function is over to prepare for the case.
by the end of the episode, i wonder -- does she end up staying over for prem's sake? 'cause she certainly looked like she had forgotten all about chahat by that point, no? 😍
* little thing: so. we are all completely certain that phukda is actually prem-heer ka tukda, right? all the right ownerships have been established?
'cause i do wonder why heer keeps wondering who would want to get custody of chahat, actually? after all, that form should have prem's signature on it, no? how come neither prem or heer checked it?
* little thing: 'kay, another laugh loudly situation. did no one else wonder whether that glob actually carries vitchface's large photo, the little lamp, the table to put the little lamp, the flowers -- with her whereever she goes??!
i mean, either she's got this horrible creature's photo in every single corner of the house. or she's carrying it around! totally made me crack up!
* little thing: when glob was talking about stealing everything that heer was living for, did anyone else remember heer asking prem why he was trying to kill someone who is already dead by taking phukda away?
does glob want heer to kill herself as a fitting revenge for vitchface's death? *
which technically was a soocide, y'know....*
* prem thing: he was shattered by everything heer said, and still can only think of her... 😍
he walked like a zombie through the dance floor. did all the expected social niceties like a zinda laash. but when gi-it said ''heer'', all spark plugs fired up in prem's brain. and from that point on, the only thing he did was stare at heer.
some things never change. which is just the way the ought to be. 😍
* prem thing: first sherwani thingie that i've adored on prem... all white and knightly...😍 oh, i
hate prem in white... i do... 😍
* heer thing: i really wonder what switched off/on in heer's head that today she can't keep her eyes, heart and mind off prem -- in public! she had become sooo good at hiding it -- and today, it's out in the open.
they are standing in the middle of a mass of people, and as always, have eyes only for each other. 😍 but unlike all the prem-heer pheyeoohs since the
tls**, today it is prem's eyes that are hot and angry, heer's eyes are wretched and sad. and it's like that warehouse of heer-standing-against-prem energy is completely empty -- 'cause when he turns away, it doesn't even take a second for her to follow.
* hc thing: ooooooooooooh! hc's been watching people drinking. for some reason, the way he downed that ''alcohol'' was very... correct.
* prem thing: of all moments watching prem in his dead-face,burning-eyes-anger today, the thing that struck me was the way his brow lightened up microscopically in surprise when heer stopped him from lifting his glass a second time saying ''
please prem. you will lose your consciousness.''
i do wonder: what he was thinking just then... 😍
i loved how that translated into a smile as he backed away and sat down heavily, all the while watching heer like he can't stop himself from drinking in every sight of her.
* prem-heer thing: wasn't it amazing how today their eyes so matched each other? there was an entire subtext of pleading in heer's eyes which were being answered by a fierce hurt in prem's eyes that was beautiful to watch.
i
love still-as-death-prem-heer moments when their eyes speak. i do. *
fierce muh*
* prem thing: prem becomes rogue prem. what i totally loved was how he did even that after having given notice to heer! he may have said that she is no longer the heer who he treated above god. but he certainly still treats her like one... 😍
* prem-heer body-language thing: prem was apparently drunk. heer apparently thought that prem was drunk. but when he looms in front of her, and moves menacingly closer and closer to her, there is not. one. inch. of. give in heer! she just won't back off!
some things just don't change. which is just the way it ought to be! *
fierce smile*
* heer thing: her calling back gi-it was sweet. she really does care about gi-it.
* little thing: gi-it is an idiot. i think little of people who make sweeping generalisations of goodness and evil of others, after knowing them for such a short while. so those sweeping statements about prem being the face between god and man sounded so... trite. 😛
oh well. i guess i should w&w to see what this character actually turns out to know. somehow, i keep thinking that she is waaaay too perceptive ('specially about heer) to not be seeing the things about prem-heer that happened right under her nose.
* prem thing: ooooh, prem feels his shoes removed and calls out ''
heer''. and looks up to see heer all soft and dreamy-eyed and smiling at him.
what struck me as amazing just then was that he had been shattered by an accusing heer just a little while ago. and yet, now, he looks up and imagines the most beautiful heer i've seen in a while.
not bad, guy. your imagination-heer is beginning to improve - by leaps and bounds! 😍
* prem thing: what did he mean when he thought to himself that he will prove how much he loves her (obviously, heer)?
more importantly,
why did he have a dark/dull look on his face -- compared to that beautiful smile he had as he was getting up thinking it was heer at his feet?
* heer thing: omg. her body language as she walked to the door of prem's room! there was infinite dread written in every line of her body, in every move she made! when she leanded her hand against the wall, her hands were entwined with the rope of decorative lights -- which i know gets hot. and yet, heer didn't move her hand away!
that air of pathos and dread of what she might have made prem do - once again - was briliant. heer really made me feel miserable for her in that moment. made me rememeber what
angie (
angel82) once said: ''
that a woman who finds her husband has slept with someone else is wrecked. imagining his lips touching someone else's. his arms around someone else.'' ugh. watching heer in that moment, made me feel how horrible that could be... ugh.
* heer thing: but more than that, i was puzzled-ish at her words. did no one else get the sense that heer knew how her words had been pushing at prem -- deliberately? that heer hadn't meant for her words to have gone that far? that it was all deliberate? that while she still thought he hadsleptwithashlesha that night, she was quite aware that it had been a ''mistake'', not one that prem intended, or would ever do again?
*sigh* yes, it could still be me being delusional. but her words were soo intriguing today.
her words of ''even forgetting yourself, don't forget yourself so much. even without consciousness, be conscious of this.'' and the most eye-popping of 'em all - ''
for my sake.''
your sake? for your sake, heer? why should
you care about him not doing it??? for your sake? you don't want him with you anymore -- what would any problem on his soul do to trouble your soul anymore?? how can any sin on him become a burden for you anymore, heer? how??
*sigh* of course,
i know that prem and heer love each other like no-one has ever loved on earth. of course,
i know that no matter what heer says, and no matter what prem says, that core remains and always will remain.
all i don't understand is:
why do these two have to pay for that love with so much unhappiness? i just don't want heer and prem to be so heartbroken and sad anymore. i don't. 😒
basically, why can't
other people be unhappy and cause drama on this show? 😆
highlight of the episode: hmm. the pheyeooh in the middle of the dance floor. the pheyeooh (rather than the spoken words) at the bar. the way prem's brows lightened when heer said ''
please prem!'' to him. and the way the whisper of a smile played on his lips as he moved back to sit down after she told him not to drink so much as to lose his awareness of himself. oh, and prem's voice -- all through the darned show! every single time he spoke, his voice was ... magic. 😍
and oh ya -- i want show-time-in-india to be
now! 🤣
** tls: time line shift of six years, since prem and heer have *sigh* physically been together...
Edited by estee - 16 years ago
