Originally posted by: estee
they say that warm brownies fresh from the oven are the best brownies. so when i decided to dish these out to the mom-gang for dessert, i figured i'd whip it up while they were wrapping up dinner, and then get 40 minutes to write the bt,lt.
only thing that cast a cloud on this idea was that the last time i tried baking s'thing, i burnt my knuckles 'cause i was too busy fighting prem for my brain while taking the cake out of the oven.
let's see who wins this time, and who walks away with burnt knuckles. 😆
heya E 😃 i love brownies..but its a pity i cant cook to save my life! i REALLY should start learning...
* little thing: prem leant down to take blessing of indian soil? well, never mind that he was standing on a paved sidewalk. still, this it is the country that he has vowed never to come back to -- then what was the blessing he sought?
* little thing: pity that prem was not close enough to see that heer was rather taken aback when that guy smoocheroo-ed her hands.
and btw! lemme point out that that guy smoocheroo-ed her hands far more explicitly than prem ever has! *is hc a prude or what? and what is he doing in the acting profession??? 😆*
😆 i noticed this too! but the guy was a little too explicit! he was slobbering all over her hands, the poor girl! but atleast hc saw and can now take tips! ive noticed though..hc always just lightly presses his lips on ag whenever there's a kiph scene. and i think its really cute..that kind of hesitant, innocent yet passionate relationship that premeer share: that leaves them unable to contain their desire, yet unable to fully submerge themselves - for fear that its way too intense for them (and..ahem.."us") to handle.
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* little thing: prem saw heer for the first time in six years, first thing out of the delhi airport and still had the presence of mind to swing and hide himself from her as she walked past??!!
huh??!!!
'kay, what am i missing here?? *oh, ya! of course, i am missing the rest of the story -- 'bout why he left india in the first place. and how he has been keeping himself from going insane without having heer plastered to his side for the last six years?*
ok this i found hilarious!! 😆 how could she NOT see him?! he was right there...right there!!! i dunno...,maybe it was crowded n she was too busy clinging on to that guy's arm (😕 - didnt like that btw) to notice that her prem was standing right in front of her. maybe it was the shots..but i found it funny. also, his swinging behind the pillar was quite slow..and not in a state of desperation. i was taken aback by his lack of urgency in hiding! but maybe thats just because he was in shock over seeing the guy slobbering all over his heer's hands. or the fact that he hadnt seen her in 6 years. either way...i wasnt paying attention. my mind had turned to mush at that point. HOW is hc so hot? its unnatural!
* background (bg) score thing: oh dear. the rajasthan dune music... have i mentioned that i love that out of the bottom of my whole body??? those drum beats never fail to spin my senses out of control.. seriously, i just feel like laughing out of joy whenever i hear it. yes! whether prem looks miserable or not! 'cause i know that everything will get well soon... funny, no?
hmm..although i LOVE that music..its amazing...i just didnt like it being played right then. i wanted the old, original premeer tracks reminiscent of kis desh's golden era - i.e. the 'hum hai is pal yahaan' instrumental version played during the first shiv mandir scene. maybe its because ipshita deb loved that tune so much that she played it at every god-given moment....so for me its slightly worn out...or maybe its because for me, the rajasthan dune music represents premeer's seperation..OR represents prem being hip-hop prem..oops gaurav...but its just worn out now. i want the old tracks that they havent played for a while. 🥱
* hc-as-prem thing: but man! the expression on his face as she walks past him. forget the mush-face he makes a second later -- but that lowering look on his face... eyebrows in a straight-line, a dark bar over those dark-dark eyes. her holiness (radz/andhara13) reminded me of aragorn** in a post on love stories yesterday. seeing this face of prem's suddenly made me yearn -- ache! -- to see hc play aragorn. i'm thunderstruck -- can obsessions be made in a microsecond? can they??
need i tell you that i hate prem? deeply?
**aragorn: a key character in the trilogy, ''lord of the rings'', by j.r.r.tolkien. 😃
oh god...that look. its the look he has when he becomes (for want of a better word) *mad* passionate prem. where he sees nothing but heer. where all reason and logic is diminished for a moment. where all he knows, all he feels, is that instense, infinite love for his other half. where he becomes wholly and thoroughly consumed by "her." where there is a fire that burns inside him, so intense that it threatens to engulf him, incinerate him, compelling him to fight the world, just to be with her. he sees no logic...he just sees her. just her.
* little thing: and that i love mad spinning lady? after all, she is me! *er, without that ''om'' thingie on my forehead... and 'round 60 percent smaller... 🤣*
man! did i love how she was sooooo happy in this show -- checking out the moon, lolling 'round on grass, dreaming 'bout old love stories lighting up and flaming with joy? ''kuchch tho khaas hai...'' oh my, oh my, oh my.. really? 😍
oh mad spinning lady...shes the best! thats all i can say about that...never mind that it scares me slightly that...mad spinning lady...is..umm you. she is scary afterall! 😆 but i love her nevertheless. mad, spinning lady + doves + payal = symbols of premeer's love. where are the doves btw? i want them back!!! we saw a glimpse in the first episode...are they still in canada? fly back to india pls! we really need u! 😍
* big thing: prem's interesting little soliloquies -- both at the airport and in the car trip back to the hotel.
he knew it? that the moment he comes back, everything would be different? for whom -- for him? for his memories? for what he thinks life is like back in india? for him and his memories from now till forever after? for his expectations on love and happiness going forward? his real life? or just the one in his head??! what?
and then, he knew ''that all my old memories would change? seeing my own drift closer to become someone else's.'' seriously, has prem been setting up for heer to be happy with someone else? no matter how ''unhappy he is that he wasn't able to give her that happiness.''
my head is soooo buzzing with all kind of conspiracy theories just now... and all of them nice ones. so nice that i'm betting that the balaji telefilms folks will never make it come true. 'cause they never have! 🤔
ok..this is my theory. we need to think about what "india" means to Prem. a guy who was raised abroad...returns back to india for the first time..to do what? to get married to the girl who he belongs to...to keep his father's promise to his best friend. Speaking in literal terms: that was all "india" was to prem. somewhere where he was born, only to leave and return to later..to get married to a stranger. who knew that after arriving in this country, he would find the other half of his soul? who knew that he would find the "one" who was missing in his life? who knew he would find the "one" whose presence he did not know he missed, until he met her. who knew he would find the "one" that makes his heart beat? in canada, he merely existed. in india, he lived. For Prem, india is where he found himself....where he found his Heer. but then...they were seperated. and he left. He reverted back to merely existing. But that life was STILL somewhere there in him. How could it not be? Maybe it was pushed into some guarded corner of his heart? preserved there, until the one who he had vowed to wait for returned and brought it out again. But inbetween this, something must have happened. something which had made him doubt that he would ever be reunited with his Heer again. Something which made him vow not to return to India. Something. What? we dont know...we'll find out. That is the missing piece in the puzzle. Now that we know this, now that we know he doubts being reunited*** with Heer. ...we can understand why he would expect india to be different. How CAN it be the same? It cant. India is no longer that place where he will be reunited with the other half of his soul. because he doubts that. So india is no longer the same. It is foreign, a distant place of the past that hoards and encaptures his happiest memories. Like L.P. Hartley said, in 'The Go-Between,' : "The past is a foreign country." That is, essentially for Prem, India. A foreign country of the past. It cant be the same for Prem...because it is no longer the place that will reunite the two halves into a whole. Why is that? Why is it no longer that place? Because soemthing has happened which Prem believes will not allow the two lovers to meet. What is that "something?" we dont know. we'll find out. and no matter how frustrating it is...we will have to, unfortunately w&w. 😛
***Note: Im not saying Prem doubts his LOVE, or the oneness of their relationship. He doubts that they will be reunited. He has resorted to a life of misery and sorrow.....because he knows something that we dont know..he believes that they CANNOT be together. there is some external circumstance outside his control that prevents them from being reunited again.
* little thing: hmmmm! it looks obvious that guy looks like he has known heer for quite a long time. but did anyone else get the idea that the name ''prem juneja'' meant something more to him than just as the ''friend he made in the plane'' and the ''owner of delhi international''? that maybe that guy actually knows what ''prem juneja'' means in ''heer juneja's'' life?? er... other than the obvious juneja surname, of course...
i think this too! the way he said it, with that (slightly annoying) sense of determination.."let me see how Prem DOESNT attend my wedding," suggests that he knows WHO Prem is exactly. And he's going to take on the job to reunite the two lovers. Why else would he go to such lengths to make a stranger attend his wedding? He knows who Prem is....he knows who Heer is... He will play matchmaker.
I have a feeling that when Heer first moved to Delhi (Pregnant and all) Yuvraj was the one who helped her get a job...earn money..and basically survive. She probably told him about her life, he knows about her past. I guess he may be one of her good friends..and is trying to get her back with Prem. Also...the way he said "If you werent there, this shaadi wouldnt take place." I mean...who says that to a supposed "fiance?" OBVIOUSLY if your fiance isnt there, your NOT going to be able to get married!! 😆 So that just proves that Heer is nothing more than his best friend, and wedding planner. Im 70% sure (not 100%..bc well its Balaji afterall! 😆) that he knows who prem is and is going to help us.
*btw, blooper: that guy did not know prem for a couple of days, no? he only met him the previous day? and that too for a conversation for 4 hours in an - ehm! - 8 hour flight from canada to delhi?*
* little thing: 'kay, after fighting to clear my head of the instant goop that flooded my skull on seeing that dreadful hateful prem guy in his ''morning boss'' outfile, the first thing that struck me when mr. bunty-walia told prem 'bout lj knowing 'bout heer juneja having booked the hotel, was that prem actually looked ... a little mad? that by coming to india, he has fallen into a trap that his father set up for him? no? no-one else thought that? *er.. or was no one capable of thinking in that segment?? 🤣* and that move of his to leave the hotel as soon as he heard 'bout the ladki-walay booking in was to counter lj's matchmaking plans?
* hc-voice thing: i dunno, but when prem asked for the number of the bride's room, i suddenly got terribly hot under my collar....
''dulhan ka kamra kaunsa hai?'' deep, dark, dangerous... oh my...
while i don't think it's gonna replace that voice doing ''ai hai, mar jawaaaan'', for some weird reason, i gulped and reached for a heck of a lot of water just then...
dont kill me for asking...but when did he say "ai hai, mar jawaaaan" ? I dont remember this! pls remind me 😳
* photography thing: 😍 man, i've said this before, but i love the photography on this show!! 'specially when they focus on prem. and his expressions when he sees heer ''aaj, barson baad dekh raha hoon mein. par aisay?... aisay kaise rukh jaaon, yahan..'' *thud* photography pholks? take a bow!
* editing thing: btw, editing team? take a bow! this was one of the few times that i've actually wanted to give you a standing ovation! *one of the others was 06/19/08.... 😍*
from the moment that prem placed the payal on the bed, next to the bridal-dupatta, his hand lingering as he leaves it there, as if he really does not want to let go! *duffer! why are you leaving it then??!*
to the end of that moment, when prem's ... hmmm.... prem's.... what? why're you laughing?? 🤣.... prem's something hits the switch and turns off the light -- the editing was simply super!
everything. photography. bg-score!! it was beautifully edited --
thank you, thank you, thank you! 👍🏼
whatever you all ate before doing the editing of this show, please keep eating it till this show wraps up?? it's ''the right thing, ah-ha!'' 🤣
* precap-thing: y'know? from the time that i started watching this show, there have been five other precaps that have somehow been (almost) better than an episode. 😆
- the day that prem said ''kyunki mein tumsay pyar karta hoon!'' 😍
- the day that prem dived underground to save heer from the lake that the ajmer toofan dumped her in -- even though they both looked suddenly like they were mer-people. 🤣😍🤣
- the day that prem tried to do a raasta-roko in front of heer to make her remember him 😍
- the day that heer ran away from ratpal and fainted on the dunes in rajasthan. 😍😍
- the day that heer put on that religious thread thingie for prem... 😍
today's precap just has to be in that list! y'know what i loved most? the very last frame -- you can see a prem-as-spidey form on the wall that heer is walking towards with a lit matchstick. although the photography is tricky -- you can actually see a little halo of oh-so-faint yellow light 'round his head. no way that can be cast by heer's little matchstick! 😆 but it was beautiful. and man, i wanted the show soooo not to have ended right there. 😆
* prem thing: the biggest thing about yesterday's show that confused me was prem's reaction at seeing heer -- both times.
didn't it strike anyone else as odd that when he saw heer the first time, he was just... well, that was
not the look of a guy who hasn't seen his heart's beat for six years, no? i dunno... i must admit that was kinda
not what i was expecting. 'cause if i think a little 'bout it, his expression was perfect for someone seeing an ex-lover -- who has moved on.
but that is not who prem is just at that moment, no? he was prem! heer's prem! seeing heer for the first time in six long years! and for him to stand there with lowered brows, as if the most dominant emotion in his heart was what possessive prem would feel if someone else kissed his heer's hand. that was not right, no? why was he
not reacting to seeing heer for the first time in six years??
after thinkin' 'bout it, i didn't really mind his not reaction -- 'cause i've always thought that no matter where prem is, he will always keep tabs on his heer. that he will know everything about her well-being.
i found this REALLY weird and almost rushed. I was NOT expecting him to see her so quickly!! i reckoned they would drag it out longer....so strange. I wanted more drama...I wanted amazing background music..I wanted lots of freezes...I wanted *dhan dhans*....i wanted...oh man..i just wanted it to be amazing. instead it was just like.."oh god there's heer." 🥱 wherre's the shock? where's the drama? oh well i guess i cant complain...hc was looking incredibly HOT so i was distracted by that. but they could have given us a little more...*sigh* and i really liked the idea that he appeared shocked at what he thought of as heer being that guy's bride. somehow if marriage to that guy is not part of prem's heer-notes, then she can't be getting married to him! no matter how much they try to show us that heer's that guy's bride, no? [Approve]
his reaction the second time he saw heer, though.. prem made perfect sense, damn his dark-manipulative-heart-twisting soul!! right from the moment that he declares that he can't stand the noise of the sangeet and has to shift out of the hotel - and then! to ask for the bride's room number! bunty walia was right to look shocked in the background. 😆
and then begins the prem-manipulating-my-brain sequence: when he was outside her door, he was still intent, fierce and focussed. but the moment he peered inside, he became all little-boy-with-lost-heart, wasn't he? how his eyes roamed over the whole room before he stepped in, both fearful and a little desperate at the same time. and then, the coast being clear, he walked in slowly with a heavy tread -- like his entire chest had sunk into his shoes and it was dragging his feet all the way.
i think i've documented lots of things 'bout prem in these bt,lt's, no? pheyeoohs, phhandoohs, parm-hshoulder-oohs, plips-hhand, hlip-phands -- but i don't remember wondering at how this dreadful prem has started making love (it
can't be called anything else, damnit!! 😡) to heer's dupatta, darnit! or .. er .. have i? 😆 i've always had the sneaking suspicion that actually it was heer's dupatta who has loved prem all this time -- now i have a sneaking suspicion that prem is beginning to return that love! 🤣
but that prem-with-dupatta and then prem-with-payal moment kinda made me smile: the last time he had done that heer was walking away from him asking him not to follow her. he was beautiful then. he was beautiful yesterday. prem of the sad-prem-perfection. 😆
but of course, the heartbeat-stopping moment had to be when heer walked back, straight past him, to the mirror to fix her eye-thingie. *pause* y'know? i was about to run and check if mod-am khushi has caps up, but somehow... i don't think i need to remind you guys of this one, huh? 😆
hc was AMAZING here...god...his expressions!!! i have no words...just look at this picture, E...it speaks for itself.
this is when he first sees heer in the room...amazing..just look at himmmm 😍😍😍😍
* prem-heer thing: heer was soo taken by the moment that she was totally lost in the moment. just as she was lost in looking at the moon at the window, holding onto the wedding-dress dupatta. and what she thought to herself -- 'bout old rites and promises, was sooooo different from what prem thought that i wondered:
did it strike
only me that in all of prem's musings, he thinks about heer (''
her'') all the time. but in heer's musings,
not once does she think about
prem? (not even as a ''
him'')? she feels something from the past - but not prem. while for prem, it's
all about heer. doesn't that strike everyone as
odd?? 'cause it made me think:
was prem asked to get out of india and stay out, 'cause if heer ever saw him, she'd go nuts?
has heer explicitly (out of choice) or implicitly (not out of choice) blanked out all her memories of what happened six years?
hmmm! w&w, i guess, as all patient non-bratty people are supposed to do. *sigh*
* bugged-estee thing: y'know, the way this six years is a long time keeps coming up in all that i right, either i have a really exaggerated notion of what six years means in terms of time passing, or the balaji creatives are forcing a really shortened version of that same time on prem and heer...
highlight of the episode: for me, it was the last frame of precap, actually. 😆 c'mon, guys! there were just tooooo many pretty-prem parts for me to pick
a highlight -- you just go phrool over your favourite part, and i'll phrool over this image:
(snatching victory from the jaws of victory -- since my mod-am happiness hasn't put full caps up yet... *boo hoo!* source: premeer-at#2 --
http://www.india-forums.com/forum_posts.asp?TID=1194342&TPN=33)
where you can see that halo of light on the wall 'round prem's head?
where you can see that prem is actually practically hugging the wall. and as heer is walking towards him, asking ''kaun hai waha?'' in that superbly shivering-with-fear voice,
where you can practically feel prem's heartrate accelarating.
where you can see he wants to close his eyes to shut out looking into the eyes of the beat of his heart for fear that he will not see the old love there. but
where you
just know that he will not close his eyes, 'cause if these are to be his last memories of her, he doesn't want to miss even a heartbeat of a moment of seeing her....
love love LOVE this shot....i didnt even notice it. its amazing...i cant wait for today's episode!!! *sigh* er, can you tell that i
soooo loved that last frame? 😍 😆
just a bit!!! hmmm. writing this took more than 45 minutes. fyi, i didn't singe my knuckles. mom got smart and got mittens for the oven. i singed the oven mitts instead. 😆 and everyone loved the hot brownies.
8 (old!) women,
16 pieces of brownies. and
i got just
2! 😒
😒
on top of that, i have
to wait to see that precap extend into (hopefully) a two minute segment on the show.
to wait (as always! grumpy muh) to see prem and heer look into each other's eyes again. start a conversation again.
wonder while waiting, whether this time heer will be the one to ask ''
tumharey ankhon mein itna dard kyun hai?'' *
aii haaiii! mar jawaaaaaaan...!!😍😍😍 * and
wonder while waiting if prem will end up saying ''
'cause you don't remember me and i love you.'' 😍 (to her or to himself, doesn't matter -- after all, prem-heer-are-one, no? )
*sigh* life is
just not fair. g'night. lemme go see if i can at least find something to scrape at the bottom of the pistachio gelato tub... *sigh*
once again, loved your bt, lt!! 😃 i hope my comments made sense...if not just ignore them...😆 Divya. 😃
to the guy!!!!!
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