24 jun '09: big things, little things

in apology to having ''faked it'' in my bt,lt yesterday -- i'm really gonna make this one short! *sorry, bee! for the last one! 😆*

well, at least, that's what i want to do -- let's see if i'm gonna make it. or end up like prem on some heer-promises instead... 🤔 😆

* little thing: ohhhhh! so gaali-maa was the one who convinced the neighbours to give evidence against nihaal... man, this woman is getting to be better than dirtchachi in setting things up to get her revenge! 🤢

* little thing: noticed how meher calls heer didi and prem jiju. noticed how ashlesha calls heer di and prem.. prem? she's ... nasty... 😛

* little thing: does anyone else get the sense that they are rushing through verything except prem-heer-are-one!??!

i mean, heer talks to a lawyer for nihaal -- that's rushed&hushed. the court case is rushed&hushed. that nihaal apparently got convicted for ''this crime'' -- for six years only though???! -- is rushed&hushed! everything but prem-heer stuff is kinda whizzing past in a blur, no?

* little thing: hmmm. i kinda thought the preet-maya moment in the garden was sweet. it is true -- preet has never taken maya seriously. and she was the one who vitchface spent most of her time with. so i totally understood preet trying to connect with the person who vitchface was most like, and was most with.

i guess i was also ... touched to see tha the shrimp did have some genuine feelings for vitchface. but i guess it's tough not to feel shattered when someone young and fun-loving and sooo like you dies ... in such a twist of fate, no?

* little thing: heer's conversations with nihaal were sweet too. the first one, where he has completely given up, and ready to ''join'' vitchface. and in total contrast, heer is all fired up about keeping him out of jail. the second one, where nihaal looks like he has reconciled himself to his punishment -- punishment that he seems to have convinced himself he totally deserves. and heer is just heart-broken that one of her family -- her own brother -- has no chance at happiness.. isn't it funny? i actually felt more sorry for heer in both those segments. i felt little sorrow for nihaal!

i did feel sorry for him when i remembered how he has always had the devil's luck on family, no? he was the one who had a chance to ''save'' his own parents, even though he didn't know them -- and he lost them. he was the one who had a chance to live happily with vitchface -- and he lost her too. *sigh* is this what happens when a person completely loses hope? they become like nihaal?

* prem-heer thing: heer is at the window, miserable and crying at the moon. and prem doesn't come to her... my non-existant heart got squeezed. just like it got squeezed at both of them quietly spending tears, alone, on their own side of the bed.
*sigh* mom was right *as always, darnit!* is not good to take troubles to bed with you...

another thing -- prem, who got heer to promise that he will keep work at office, and out of home, is now working in his bedroom? *sigh* although, i did think that the look prem threw at heer, standing miserable in meher's arms, watching her brother being carted away in the police van, was ... interesting. was he looking stern that she shouldn't care what happened to his sister's murderer? or was he looking stern that heer was crying?

personally, i think he was miserable that she was so miserable. but that he just knew that he couldn't do a thing about it -- and that it was s'thing heer had to deal with herself. 'cause he looked like he was totally convinced that he is right and heer is wrong.

oh, prem... don't you know the world is never as black&white as that? that only you-and-heer-are-one is the only black&white thing? that not even your mother's love is as black&white as prem-heer-are-one? when are you going to learn that, prem? when? please learn it fast, prem. please..

* little thing: man, gaali-maa wasn't kidding 'bout letting that diya go off, huh? who else felt the irresistable urge to run -- not walk! -- and blow that darned thing off?

* little thing: er... is it my imagination or is ashlesha totally cozying upto gaali maa these days??? where has kuldi gone??

* little thing: oh dear. the ig-idiot's back. and noticing that things are tough between prem-and-heer. but not that heer doesn't want to have anything to do with him! idiot...

* little thing: man! it just had to be gaali-maa taking that call from that ditzy woman offering the whatchamacallits freebie, right?

* prem thing: hmmm... after a month of grieving for his sister, didn't prem look more calm and settled with life when he went to the hotel? his face, the smile -- he looked more peaceful than he had all through the last two episodes. *sigh* why did it feel like if that stoooooopid call hadn't come; and gaaali-maa hadn't set him up; prem would have been comforting heer with her miseries tonight? *sigh* poor prem...

* prem thing: but huh! talk about charming! one ''please'' and that darned hotel attendant gives him full access to the cctv recording!

man, is prem scary or what? i mean, it wasn't even a girl who's mind shattered at that ''please'', for crying out loud! should be locked up as a terrible mind-destroying weapon, i tell ya!!! 🤣 and i know just who can handle such a terrible thing -- someone who is just. and honest. and fair. and immune to prem's charms! it's time to bring in .... inspector o.i.tseste! yes it is! 🤣

* w&w thing: is funny, no? how you see the whole setup coming together. like an avalanche in the distance. and you tell yourself that it's like all the other troubles that plagued prem-heer before. except that this time around, what's new is that the enemy is within ... themselves.

prem who still believes in heer, but thinks she was wrong about nihaal. heer who knows prem was wrong about nihaal, and still went ahead and got him punished anyway.

it is in their minds that their enemy lies. gaali-maa is just the enabler.

in a certain way, death was easier to handle 'cause both prem and heer believed in themselves, and their understanding of the other. but now...? that is a leetle shaken.

it'd be easy to say that there's no hope for prem and heer -- that they are being setup for a fall.

but y'know? at the end of the day, this is the prem who when he first saw heer, saw only her eyes, and knew that he'd spend this entire life to remove that pain. this is the prem who swore he would be a better son before a better lover, and broke his father's heart at the test. this is the prem who searched the deepst depths of the lake to pull heer out. this is the prem who said he would make new memories to replace her old ones. this is the prem who couldn't stay away when heer called from her heart -- has never been able to stay away. and i'm not sure that prem would turn heer away... not anymore.

and there is no doubting that heer has only lived -- probably from the moment she was born! -- for prem. who has always given up everything for prem. her sister's life, and her own. not just once, but more than once. to save prem from losing his wealth and going to jail. she is the heer who was willing to give up her heart and her life to save prem's family from becoming destitute -- not just for prem! heer cannot live away from prem -- be he in front of her physically, or the idol that she has of him in her heart.

so, i figure -- if there has to be a fall for prem-and-his-heer, it will have to be heer who will do it! ha! i bet you didn't expect this, no? remember i said prem hsa never been able to stay away from heer -- except when heer called him from her heart. what if heer doesn't? what if heer is ... heart-weary from having lost prem's trust for something that she thinks is wrong? what if heer doesn't trust his sense of what-is-right-and-wrong any more?

what if heer doesn't call? me? i think prem's gonna come to heer, even when she is katti with him... 😍 me? i'm w&w... for prem to finally answer the need in heer's soul, rather than just in her heart... 😍

highlight of the episode: y'know that moment when he realises that her dupatta is caught in his ring, and he looks down and slowly turns? that look on his face -- that was the highlight of the episode for me! that look -- of the sense that he is still recovering from the feeling of holding heer so close in his arms, that he is still willing his heartbeat to slow down; (like this moment, see...? doesn't he look like his heart is racing at 160??)
of the sense of puzzlement as to what is tugging at his finger; of the realisation that it is her dupatta that has somehow got caught on his ring -- so firmly that it will need more than a tug to remove it! -- and; of the realisation that if he is caught in this mess, then surely heer is caught in it too, that she will be waiting with her dupatta tight around her neck, wondering -- blushing and shy -- why he is not letting her go; and then the mischief in his eyes that her dupatta and his ring have given him the perfect opportunity to get closer and closer to his heer... rather than let her go as he had done just a moment ago.

yup. that look, that moment was the highlight for me... i also liked how the dupatta slowly but surely unwrapped from heer's shoulder when she tried to move away, getting away from heer's shoulder and staying firmly with prem... 😍
what??? of course there was no highlight in the episode of 06/24/09! but 06/24/08? oh... now that was a totally different matter aaaaalllll together! 🤣 caughtchya! 🤣me? i'm w&w for such prem-heer highlights again, my phorum caughtchyas... 😆 see you later.

*hmmm... this was not a short bt,lt either was it....? man, i am soooo doomed to writing long posts... sigh, going off sadly to my bed...*

estee you faker😆😆😆

* prem thing: hmmm... after a month of grieving for his sister, didn't prem look more calm and settled with life when he went to the hotel? his face, the smile -- he looked more peaceful than he had all through the last two episodes. *sigh* why did it feel like if that stoooooopid call hadn't come; and gaaali-maa hadn't set him up; prem would have been comforting heer with her miseries tonight? *sigh* poor prem...

Originally posted by: estee

someone who is just. and honest. and fair. and immune to prem's charms! it's time to bring in .... inspector o.i.tseste! yes it is! 🤣

😳

No one'd believe u on this!!!!

ohhhh i am stilll quite *reserved* C3P.... u know me ☺️

n wat's with the highlights *tries to breathe*

ummm from where i see it ... i can't see Premeer are one anymore sorry :-/ you are intelligent... you can analyse ... i am just a dumb commoner ... to me at the moment Premeer don't appear to be one and that hurts .... Shouldn't Premeer are one be as clear to someone as naive as me as it is to someone as hopelessly hopeful as you?

Helloooooo Ms Sunshine,

I don't have much to say but was wondering now that the inevitable is bound to happen how are these two ever going to stop thinking about the other? Even if they are thinking about one another with hatred they are still thinking about the other, right? I guess till that doesn't stop the show is still about Prem and Heer are one. I don't know if i am making any sense here. But as long as these two continue to have thoughts about the other no matter how bad or good as long as they are in each other's thoughts they'll never be away from one another, at least mentally. Even earlier when they were not together physically they were always together mentally. But must say I feel more sorry for Prem than Heer. Because even though he'll have his family around he'll not have that one person who makes his life go around and not mention that he'll miss out on all the early years of his kid's life (assuming that Heer will be pregnant and will come back with a child). Wonder if he'll ever forgive Gaya3 for that? And Heer will be the one who'll have everything with her. She may not have Prem and the family but she'll have something much more precious which will keep her going. I don't know how this whole thing will unfold and if these two will ever meet. But I think till these two are in each other's thoughts I am still hoping that someday the twain shall meet.

Originally posted by: Soaps1

ummm from where i see it ... i can't see Premeer are one anymore sorry :-/ you are intelligent... you can analyse ... i am just a dumb commoner ... to me at the moment Premeer don't appear to be one and that hurts .... Shouldn't Premeer are one be as clear to someone as naive as me as it is to someone as hopelessly hopeful as you?

soaps... 🤗 what has intelligent/commoner/naive/hopelessly-hopeful got to do with prem-heer-are-one??

that's a matter of their souls, their beings, their everything. do you honestly think that when heer was lashing out at prem saying that muckmeet was the love of her life, her husband, her jeevan-saathi, her everything -- prem-heer-are-one was not true??? do you think that when prem was vowing to his father and his mother that heer was ''just a girl who will go off and marry someone and have children with them'', prem-heer-are-one was not true??

it was true then. it has always been true. it was true after that. it is true now.

there is no way anyone can change prem-heer-are-one.

well, other than prem and heer themselves. it was not the declaration by prem that prem-heer-are-one that made them that way -- that was just telling us and hthe world that it was true.

but they've been one since the beginning of their life. they will be to the end. they will end the day that one of them dies. 'cause no matter what they say to each other in one moment, or they feel about who is wrong or right in one moment, doesn't change the fundamental, no?

time does not stand still as long as you are dead. then everything vanishes. and as long as prem-heer are alive, they will be one. even when prem was ''apparently dead'' they were one. how can a moment of time when prem thinks heer is wrong change prem-heer-ar-eone???

no way.

no? 😊

Estee, I knew it, I knew this would ur highlight of the day...