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...Phir ye zindagi.
Uss Mod Se Shuru Karein, Phir Ye Zindagi...
Har Shay Jahan, Haseen The, Hum Tum The Ajnabi
Uss Mod Se Shuru Karein, Phir Ye Zindagi...
Le Kar Chale The Hum Jinhe, Jannat Ke Khwab The
Phoolon Ke Khwab The Voh, Mohabbat Ke Khwab The
Lekin Kahan Hai Inme Voh, Pehle Si Dilkashi
Uss Mod Se Shuru Karein, Phir Ye Zindagi.
Rehte the Hum Haseen, Khalaon Ki Bheed Mein
Ulje Hue Hai Aaj, Sawaalon Ki Bheed Mein
Aane Lagi Hai Yaad Voh, Fursat Ki Har Ghadi
Uss Mod Se Shuru Karein, Phir Ye Zindagi
Shayad Ye Waqt Hum Se Koi, Chaal Chal Gaya
Rishta Wafa Ka Aur Bhi Rangon Mein Dhal Gaya
Ashkon Ki Chandni Se Bhi, Behtar Voh Dhoop Hi
Uss Mod Se Shuru Karein Phir Ye Zindagi
Uss Mod Se Shuru Karein, Phir Ye Zindagi...
Har Shay Jahan Haseen Thi, Hum Tum The Ajnabi
Uss Mod Se Shuru Karein Phir Ye Zindagi
I take the song not to mean that Premeer start their lives from before when Prem came to Ludhiana and that they go their seperate ways, but that Premeer will now start their lives, together, from the time they first met. Hence, as Gayatri mom said, erasing all the memories until now, and making beautiful new memories, together.
Loved Heer in the beginning today...her "confused, dazed, what the heck is going on" act was awsome...she really has grown so much as an actor. 👏
We start with Prem's painful, panicked, confused state of mind with Heer's refusal to acknowledge him. It was as if all his happiness had been sucked out of him all over again. What the heck was going on? Why didn't His Heer recognize him? Poor Prem just can't seem to get a break. The look on his face was heartbreaking. It was as if his world had come crashing down around him once again. Before, he didn't have his family, but he had his Heer. Now that he has his family, his Heer is close, yet So Far Away.
His panic-stricken voice calls for the doctor and demands for an explanation. "Doctor, Heer...what's wrong? Why doesn't she....?" He was so panicked he couldn't even get full sentences out. His thoughts were all over the place. It was painful to watch.
Stupid doctor....what doctor says "shayad" - if you're the doctor, you should know the details of the patients injury, na? Looks like someone didn't do their homework! And then he goes further to ask Prem is something happened to her to perhaps make her lose her memory...I'm sorry, but its just not believable to me that he doesn't know whether or not Heer has suffered a head injury.
And I was upset that he would ask Prem. Prem was mentally fatigued as it...there was no need to make him go back and relive his struggle to save Heer the night before.
Prem's flashback of how Heer's head hit the rock was too much for me...already the tears began to well up in my eyes because immediately, I thought Prem would now blame himself for what's happened to Heer. The look on his face - one of pain and confusion was too much to bare. He remembers the scene, but then comes back with a very pronounced "Nahi, aisa ho hi nahi sakta" - again the denial...the same denial we saw when he was told of Heer's death. He refuses to believe that anything can happen to his Heer...as long as he's there, he'd promised to always protect her, so then how can she be unwell?
I saw a childlike sweetness come back in him with his "main yaad dilata hoon isse"....It was just too sweet. It was as if he was a child refusing to believe that Santa Claus isn't real...."no, you're wrong, see, I"ll show you...I'll show you!" Every time we've seen denial in him for the past week or so, we've seen this wonderful child-like innocence as if he believes nothing wrong or bad could ever happen. I love it.
He sits down and reaches for her hand, and quickly snatches her hand back and looks at him fearfully, confusedly. That one action of hers was enough to send a thousand knives piercing through his heart. Did you see the look on his face?!?! Did his Heer just retreat from his touch? Did she really not remember or trust him? As the reality of the situation set in, he was determined to fight it..."Heer, look at me, Heer...look...I'll help you remember everything, just look....look at me...into my eyes, you'll see your reflection in them, you'll see the reflection of all our beautiful moments together in them...just look...trust me."
She looks at him with complete bewilderment as he recounts the events of their lives as one...their small house, the fact that he had recently proposed...all the mannats, wada's they'd made with each other not too long ago. There was utter desperation in his voice and his demeanor...He had a dire need to make her remember...he was desperate to bring her back to him. As his strength and will were slowly beginning to crumble, he asks "Tumhe kuch yaad nahi hai? Kuch bhi nahi?" It was clear that he was slowly beginning to feel defeat wrap its cold hand around his neck....and he tries once more..."Shiv Mandir"....the fateful night that started it all...he was so hopeful that if nothing else, she would atleast remember the Shiv Mandir...
It was painful to watch the scene...I was crying with him from the moment he sat next to her...It just really got to me that in the end, he couldn't "Have His Cake and Eat It Too"...not now anyway...not yet. He would have to work hard to win Heer's trust and friendship....and only then, would he be able to turn that into love...but I'm looking forward to seeing The Prem in action.
All the while, Lallu looked on, and finally, cried. Cried for his son's ill fate...one that he himself had written for Prem.
I swear, for me, with Ullu, its a one step forward, two steps back situation. He emerges from Heer's door and comes to Gayatri...and next thing you know, its all about him again. His hopes, his promise....and for a moment, he made it sound as though it was Heer's fault her memory was gone, and therefore, now his promise wouldn't be fulfilled. I was angry with him all over again. But then, I think I can safely say that he redeemed himself completely for me today....
Finally, he admits that all of this was his fault. Finally, he realizes his grave mistakes...the error of his ways. It was good to see him angry with himself. (Though as he was yelling and hitting his fist against the wall, all I could think was "hey bhudda, can't you read? The sign above your head says "silence please" 😆)
Need I say how thrilled I was to see him collapse to the floor the way he did? I mean, okay, I know, it was actually a bit heartbreaking to see him break down, but he brought this upon himself, and had it coming. After all the hurt he's caused Premeer, this breakdown of his was Long Overdue!
It was a sad sight though. I loved his flashbacks as he realized just how much pain he'd inflicted on Prem. And at the end of it all, he realizes how very wrong he was (phew, finally)...and how he was to blame for all it all...He was to blame for ruining his son's life...he was to blame for Heer's current state...he was to blame for, in the end, not remaining true to his friend....he was Gayatri's culprit for he had taken her son away from her....
And finally, Ullu sees the light, and promises to correct his mistakes.👏
Loved how Gayatri looked on hurtfully and watched Ullu crumble....she new that this day would come...it was inevitable that he would realize how very wrong he was, she knew that one day he would crumble under the weight of his own guilt. I like how she cried for him, but didn't go up to him and comfort him because somewhere in her heart, she knew that he needed to just let it all out...he needed to let him fight this battle with himself for the moment, so that he could in the end, forgive himself and move on.
Loved Preet in this scene. When Ullu went against his PB, we saw Preet stand up to his father at every new dart Ullu threw in Prem's direction. Then, Preet's love for his brother was above all else...then, his brother's pain was above all else. Today, when Ullu finally broke down with guilt and shame, Preet didn't faulter for even a minute as a Son. Today, Ullu's pain and grief was above all else. Preet instantly forgot all the wrong Ullu had inflicted on Prem, and he supported his dad whole-heartedly - no hard feels, no grudges. This is where I see the "Premness" come out in Preet. Through it all, Prem never once blamed his father for his actions....and today, Preet easily let it all go too. I saw Prem in Preet today as Preet kneeled down and said "Hum sab hai na"....it was a treat to see. In the end, I think it was easy for Preet to be there for Ullu at that moment b/c Preet knew all along that sooner or later, everything would be okay. He was probably the only one that was sure from day one that Prem wouldn't be away from the family for long...that he would be back, Heer Bhabhi in tow. Preet's determination that Prem and Ullu would reunite never faultered once. I think thats what made it so easy for him to embrace Ullu then and tell him everything would be okay. I love Preet.
With Preet's words and support, Ullu stands up (literally) to the challenge of fixing all his mistakes. Finally, he says, the blindfold had been removed from his eyes (I hope he's talking about DJ here)...and he would now move forward, and set things right. I am really looking forward to seeing this...can't wait to see Ullu put DJ in her place and also support Prem and he fights to help Heer regain her memory. 👏
Loved Gayatri's nod of acceptance and approval when Ullu said they must start over....loved her silent support.
I can't tell you how much I did NOT miss DJ....ugh...she's just irritating...can't stand her going on and on with her false play of goodness. Loved how everyone looked on in amusement at her obvious act.
As she was going on and on about her so called love for Heer, Gayatri almost asked her that if she loved heer so much, then why the cruelty towards her? I like that Ullu placed his hand on Gayatri's shoulder and stopped her from asking. Ullu definitely has a trick up his sleeve, and I want to see him play it out. Though I can't imagine what's to come with the so called marriage of Preet and Ash.
Did you see the look on Preet's face at the mention of his marriage with Ash? I don't think he likes Ash like that...I just don't. He looked appalled at the idea. Aaw, poor Preet...looked as if he'd seen a ghost.
Is Ash really a good guy now? I mean, I'd like to believe she is, but still don't trust her.
And I still stand by the fact that if Preet doesn't like her the way she likes him, then he shouldn't lead her on. I don't care who it is and what you're trying to accomplish - everything has a limit...its just not nice.
I can't help but think the "Ghandigiri" thing was taken from E's post where she spoke of showering Kekta with ghandhigiri.
DJ's "taklu ke sar ka chand" and "mera buddha khil gaya" - too too funny...the latter made me think of "mujhe buddha mil gaya"....😆
It was sad to see Prem in white sitting by the window strumming away angrily, painfully on his banjo....(I thought he broke it the night before his wedding - where'd he get a new one so quickly from? Is magic amongst Prem's many talents?) He looked so...empty as he sat there....he looked defeated.
I was so glad to see Gayatri Mom come to offer him comfort. I am such a sucker for Mother/Son scenes....(These two remind me of my beloved Dev and NT Mom)...
Prem was fully immersed in taking his anger out on the strings of the instrument, but as soon as he saw Gayatri mom standing at the door looking on with tearful eyes, the anger vanished from his face, and was replaced by silent, piercing, excruciating pain.
Loved Gayatri mom's words...everything has its cut off...its limit...love, hate, God's creation/nature, even fate. But through it all, the one thing that doesn't stop is Life. No matter what, your life waits for nothing. It keeps going, facing all the trials and tribulations...even when you think you've had enoug and don't have the will to carry on, Life forces you to carry on, and with time, even shows you that the fight, the struggle is worth it in the end. (Loved the dialogue...bravo to the writers.) With each word Gayatri mom says, its easy to see that the wall of indifference that Prem was trying to build around him was slowly crumbling. This is the same Prem that never lets anyone in...that wants to face all his pain and sorrows alone - he's always hidden his true feelings - he masked them with a smile earlier...and today, he's attempting to mask them with somber indifference. The only other time we've really seen Prem break down was with Heer in the park...it was the first time he'd let anyone in...Heer was the first allowed into the depths of Prem's agony....today, Gayatri was allowed in for the first time.
Gayatri says: "you feel pain when you remember the happiness that once was". Immediately, Prem looks at her as if thinking "how does she know the storms brewing within me so well?" How very right she was. Its because we've seen the good, that we can face the bad...its because we face the bad that we can appreciate the good. "Dukh tab hota hai, jab sukh ki yaad aati hai"....thats why, when the pain becomes too much to handle, we should just cry it all away...cry away the pain....let the tears wash away the memories so we can start anew, and make new memories....I loved it. It was exactly what Prem needed to hear...it was just what was needed to finally make him lower his guards, and accept her support.
Love how he finally succumbed to the comfort and support she was offering...I love how he slowly walked up to her and sat down at her feet. As if she was the only one that could help him overcome this pain...she was the only one that could help him learn to wash away the old memories to make way for the new.
It was painful to see him cry then...it was agonizing...piercing to see him break down like that again....
It was also so very heartwarming to see him lay his head in his mother's lap...the only place he could find solace at the time...and cry his heart out for his beloved Heer. For his mother had been the only one that understood him all along. She was the only one that supported him all along. And today, she was again giving him the strength he needed, to fight for his love....his Heer.
To see him cry like that was just too much to take...I was crying buckets myself....seeing him cry today struck a cord within me today...It was heartwrenching.
I must applaud HC for his convincing performance here...his entire face literally turned red as if he was seriously in agonizing pain, and crying his heart out....I can't help but wonder what thoughts go through his head to help him emote like that...what was he thinking about in that scene that helped him bring Prem's pain and tears to the screen so flawlessly?
I was crying like a baby...literally weeping with that scene....it was so beautiful...perfectly executed....the song is just so perfect for these two...they share an incredible chemistry as mother-son...one that touches your heart through and through....this scene was up there with the "main aapka beta hoon, maa" scene....its undoubtedly one of the best scenes in KDM til date.
It was good to see Prem looking less hurt and more determined where Heer was concerned in the next scene. After crying his heart out with his mom, it did seem as though he felt more relieved...and able again, to pull together, and be strong, for the sake of his Heer.
Hehe, She looked like sleeping beauty waiting for her prince as she lay there...😳
Loved the admiration and love with which he looked at her....it was enough to make my heart soar....😳
He walked up to her with renewed determination...and though his eyes were clearly still bloodshot from crying his heart out, there was a calm peace to his expression. As if he knew that despite the current situation, he would bring her back and in the end, their love would be victorious.
He sits down next to her and just looks at her....taking her in first, before finally moving towards the unruly lock of hair on her face. As he moves the lock of hair, he looked as if he were drinking in the sight of her, her beauty....and also, marveling at the fact that she was there before him, alive and otherwise well.
A smile smile played across his lips as he looked on at her leisurely....as he slowly carressed her soft cheek with his thumb.
He gave her a light squeeze on the shoulder as he told her that he knows she doesn't know him...
He says with a force that he's very sorrowful that she doesn't remember anything but....
As he takes her hand in his, he assured her, that despite her being so close yet so far away, he's simply ever so thankful that she's there with him, alive and well. That was all that mattered. That was all the was important. As long as she was there, he would fight to bring her back to him. He would remind her of the memories she's shared with him by making new memories with her.
Loved how he took her hand limp in his, and then, slowly, brought it up to his face as he continued...
"when they told me you died, something died inside me...but I knew....I knew that it couldn't be true because my heart was still beating...and as long as my heart was still beating, I knew that yours had to be beating somewhere as well...." It all comes back to the fact that if she is, then he is, and vice versa. They will "be" together, or not at all....always.
Loved how he went back and forth between her hand and her face...😳
Loved how he again recounted the events at the Shiv Mandir and again spoke of her "dard bhari aankhen" that were his initial undoing. It was those eyes and that pain that was the foundation of their relationship. Love how he said that he remembers: how they were together, how they used to lose themselves in one another's sorrow, how they were so very much a part of one another, how they belonged together...stayed together. Loved how he said "humara apno se ladhna" because the minute he realized he loved her, immediately, his "apne" became her "apne"...his family became her family, everything that was his, was hers. Then he spoke of their little home...because it was there that their love really flourished...that they learned so much about one another, and grew together in their love.
Loved how adamant he was that she knows....that he believes that she knows, and she'll remember. And loved how he said that it didn't matter whether they had their memories or not...that they would make new memories and that just the fact that they were together...and the fact that they would "be" is enough. 😳 I loved how determined he was to start their lives again from the crossroads they stood at at that moment....and make new memories....loved his confidence and undying will. 😳 *swoon* - The Prem...😍
After he promises her of new beginnings, he cups her hand in his, and seals the promise with a kiss...😳 So sweet....was this the first time we've seen him Kiss Heer?!?! (...I'm gushing at the thought!) *swoon*...The Prem
Need I say how sweet it was of him to notice her shiver? The look of love and caring that flashed across his face with that smile as he covered her with the blanket was so very cute. It was sweet to see him care for her like this. Loved the scene where he goes to cover her feet. He Kneels down and holds her feet at first, trying to warm them with his own hands...I loved that scene...it was so touching...and Prem had this satisfied smile on his face the whole time...as if he was enjoying being able to care for her like this. *swoon*...The Prem He slowly covers her feet with the blanket, looking as if he knew that everything would be okay. And finally, he goes and sits next to her, and simply watches her...turns the light off, and lets the moonlight light her face for him as he gazes at her until his eyes become heavy...Loved the last shot of them sleeping....She was turned to face him, and they both looked so very peaceful...It was refreshing to see...and foretold of the good that was to come for these two.
All in all, a beatiful episode. I'm glad Ullu finally cried. Loved Preet's support. Loved Gayatri mom and Prem's scene. And last but not least, loved THE PREM....caring for his beloved Heer...assuring her that as long as they're together, everything would be okay. I am even more in love with Prem now that I was before...I didn't think that was possible, but today, Prem stole my heart all over again. He's just perect. HC stole the show again today. He has impeccable skill, immense talent....he's incomparable, never seizes to amaze me, and outdoes himself with each consecutive performance. 👏
I was sad we' didn't see the "raasta rok" scene from the preview from yesterday. I hope that Heer is on her feet again soon....or atleast awake...I miss her presence and am getting tired of seeing her just lay around like that.
Not looking forward to more of DJ tomorrow...😕 One final thought: WHERE IS MEHER?!?! I want her back, and I want her back NOW!
Ok, off I go to Premland to swoo...ahem...do Prem Jaap properly....😳
Love,
~Payal
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