hi guys this is my first fanfic so i hope u guys enjoy reading it as much as i did writing it!
Background: this happens after sharad gets convicted and sent to jail....prem was the one who gave all the evidence etc but everyone still accused him for holding his tongue for such a long time.....prerna punished him severely, this time not by kicking him out of the house but by giving him one last oppurtunity to win everyone's forgiveness......bajaj, after realizing how he had accused mukti apologized to her and made her his "true beti".....right now mukti is staying at the bajaj house and is trying to comfort sneha(sharad's in jail and sneha just can't believe how blindly she had trusted him) and keeping her company 24/7. Since sneha's about to have a child, prerna plans on having a party in order to cheer her daughter up, somewhat. (i don't know what this ceremony is called but it usually happens when a woman's going to have a baby....u guys probably know what i mean). THIS WHOLE STORY IS FROM PREM'S POINT OF VIEW.....during the party/ceremony......since men are usually not invited to this sort of ceremony, he's watching everything from the convenient view of his window......
There she was.... He had been looking everywhere to see her smiling face that she was always keeping on nowadays for Sneha, but had been unable to detect it till now....
He felt the air pierce through his skin the moment he saw her....it was almost as though he was seeing her for the first time.....she was an image of perfection he could not even fathom to get out of his mind.....a mirror that had once reflected his inner emotions so clearly once. He remembered that moment with pain......"Tumhe bhi use type ki larkiyaan mileen gi...kyunke wahi tumhaara standard hain.....zindagi bhar tumhee sacha pyaar naseeb nahi ho ga!".......her voice seemed so far way, so distant, but the meaning of her words still plagued his mind.
He tried his best to look away but couldn't.....she was nothing but eternal beauty in that mauve saari......it was weird because saaris had never really appealed to him before....he usually preferred the shortest line of attire for girls but mukti....well......she was different....she always had been......he had never ever treated her the same way he treated all of his other "friends"......
As he was thinking, he kept asking himself why he was looking her way.....and the answer was , he didn't know why......only that he couldn't stop....
if only he possessed what she did......that trusting and reliable nature.......even though she had suffered through a terrible crisis and her entire life was at stake, she was still smiling........she was doing that for sneha and he knew it......What had he done for sneha? nothing except ruin her life by not letting her know what kind of a person her beloved husband was......
he felt a horrible twinge of pain and guilt as he suddenly felt how responsible he was for what had happened to both sneha and mukti.....did he even deserve to be forgiven?
At that moment, mukti looked up from below and her eyes met with his.....he could see the laughter fading from her eyes only to be replaced by pain and sorrow. A spark of anger and hatred swept across her face and she forcefully turned away.....
He knew then how badly she had been hurt and how badly he wanted her to forgive him.....how badly he wanted them to fight like they used to.....how badly he wanted her to say "I love You" again......
he stopped.....why did he want her to say the last part?.......it wasn't as though he 'loved' her!
however, his doubts about his statement increased when he saw her walking away from the ceremony......he wanted her close somehow......he wanted her back......
to be continued.......
so how was it guys? in the next part, prem's gonna go down to the party and wait and see what he does, he's not going to admit to his feelings soon but its going to be a beginning.......he's actually going to fight with his emotions first before he lets any out!
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