Hello guys.......Its not KS related...it is something that happened to me....
I'm here today with a complaint or a question, WHY IS THIS WORLD AND THE PEOPLE IN THIS WORLD SO SELFISH?(not everyone juts some people) Since begging of this week I was thinking about this question and I asked myself WHY but couldn't find an answer to it...today i have been betrayed by my those friend whom i thought were my best support ever, whit whom i shared everything, from my personal problem till my school or studies problem, but since Saturday, everything turned upside down and the only question was is HOW and WHY...
For some reason between me and my friends a lot of misunderstanding arise...and in this misunderstanding actually i found out what my SO CALLED friends think about me and honestly i'm thankful to it...but at the same time it hurts as will because i believed in those friends of mine and i trusted them but they were totally hypocrisy and selfish...i hate to say this about them ...but they are really.... and i can't believe how they all changed. We were always together did things together but now everything is over and i'm glad it is...
I was so stressed over all this and i ended up sharing it with my mum and my sisters and they all scolded me...my mum wasn't happy with it at all and thus she said never ever to share any of your secrets with your friends if you do it again this is what you will get in return...i believe my mum is right...in 17 years of my life i have never come across such a thing but now i have learnt a lesson from it, i feel like my trust is really breaking up on the word FREINDS...i know i'm wrong because everyone is not the same but just some people...
If an enemy calls you names or talk behind your back then it doesn't hurt that much, but when a friend whom you known for years call you names indirectly, talk behind your back then that really hurts...specially those friend for whom you have done so much in past....today i'm hating myself for helping out my selfish friend....but what happened has happened...and today one of my other friend said that all my other friends says that if they share their secrets with me then i will go out and tell others...hearing this statement i felt like someone stubbed me really hard...i was literally crying and i said that if they have a problem with me then why can't they came and say it on my face rather than talk behind my back...i'm a very sensitive person and if someone does something bad or say bad then i take that in my heart...and today my trust has totally broken on people....i just hated to see all of them today...i have learnt a life time lesson from all this fiasco....
When i had a talk with my mum and sister, they all said that whatever your friends said or think about you it doesn't mean that they are right...its just that they don't have the perfect, luxuries life that you (I) have...my mum said you should have learn from this now and make sure in future you don't make the same mistake....make friends (because everyone is not the same) and just be careful when and with whom you are sharing your problems....but what they said doesn't make you a bad person...today i was feeling really bad but then few of my good friend were supportive and most of all my sis and my mum....i'm glad i have them....but yeah i'm still in state of shock and actually couldn't believe what my best or so called friends thought of me....
I'm really sorry for boring you guys with all this...but i was really stressed, since in two weeks time my exams are coming and i need to start revising....i just couldn't do it specially after this fiasco...but now i'm felling a bit happy i don't care anymore what they think of me....i would rather be happy if they come up and say it on my face then talk behind my back....sorry once again for all this....
Sonam