Imran,you live with me...!
Part 6-Page 16
The smile from shiv's face was soon wiped off when he noticed the belongings of a wedded lady on her forehead and neck,the only words came out from his parted manly lips were 'Pooj'….
Pooja,shiv's lady-love or rather interest from class 9th…she also joined college for About a week with him but then had to leave because of her fathers transfer and the idiot writer must tell you that she was once shiv's girlfriend And during a fight to make shiv jealous she had to pair with anupam,and also the writer must tell you she was THE girl with whom AnupAm shared first kiss and that was all to make shiv jealous…poor anupam who never knew the one kiss whom he considered special as a teen was just a plot to make someone jealous….
The lady smiled and said with surprised:shiv…you ….come,come inside….
Shiv awkwardly followed her into her new life….there were many photographs in the drawing room of her with a man and he at once considered that man her husband…And that moment he knew every action of his in past was flawful…he was a sinner…he shook his head and thought this is it….things would never be the same…he for the first time felt so foolish,so naked….
pooja joined him while sitting on settee beside him:what a surprise shiv,you here….i lost contact with everyone almost…
shiv with a smile:ya just thought to drop by you…had heard you live here…
pooja cheerfully:I am glad you did….everything happened so fast…dad's transfer,marriAge…like fast forwarding a movie..
shiv laughed politely And said:next thing I'll be hearing is you have a good news to share…
she blushed and shiv said in amusement:you're pregnant?
She nodded And said:two weeks….
Shiv hugged her sideways:congrats yaar…he looked towards aditi and said:meet my angel,my world…Aditi,my daughter…
Pooja looked at the baby sleeping and said:in this case you are ahead of me….well your wife would not like it that you didn't call her your life…no praises for your wife…huh?
Shiv's smile turned faint but he managed to say:well you can say she's someone really important who has given me this pleasure And joy..
Pooja touched Aditi's toes and said:you surely love her a lot….
Shiv looking at empty space:yes,it feels great to be a father…not only you drive slow but also checks upon your hAbits…aditi is .I don't know what to say…the fact only that she is our flesh and blood tingles and amuses me sometimes…
pooja:again only praises for daughter,nothing for wife….thats not good mr.hubby And daddy…
shiv smiling:well what can I say she's the most amazing creature I have ever met,she's so innocent like A baby that my double-meaning language is just useless infront of her…hahaha..yet she's so giving,considerate,understanding,loving….she takes cAre of my needs first,she attends me first..And-
pooja cut her off And said:so mr.very much in love who's she?
shiv:gauri…shiv's gauri…
pooja remembering something and saying:gAuri?your best friend….god….i should have known you were always very protective about her….i can say you love her alot,she's lucky to have A loving husband like you….
And that word had hit him like A boulder…A loving husband?has he ever been a loving husband?he had done the worst…given her emotional and physical scars yet she never raised her voice,separated her from their daughter…..used her for what just to have A momentary pleasure…showed her the fake colors of love And relations…he abruptly stood up And said:sorry pooja gotta go…have some errands to run….even before she could stop him he left the place……had anyone ever felt that way the way he was feeling at the moment,the woman he supposedly loved was married,happy and very much pregnant with someone's child but he also never stayed behind,he also had a child with his wife and best friend whom he had deserted from his life though he hated it but that doesn't make a dead man alive now!did it?god!!it was just too messy he was guilty for making one woman suffer throughout the whole process….he knew now what he wanted.he wanted to see that woman right now…..settling aditi on seat he took a way to his apartment……
Shiv sat down tiredly on his rocking chair,he casted a glance towards aditi's cot then again went back to his thoughts,leaning back his head at head-rest he analyzed of what to do?he wasn't feeling low because of the fact that he had lost his love but the fact that he left person who loved him genuinely…loneliness sometimes teaches you the sour but the true spices of life..spices?aren't they meant to be spicy but sour?this is what life is all about…..
The sudden ringing of the bell woke up gauri…it was the time between evening and night,she stretched her ache body and left to open the door,the sleep and tiredness hidden in her eyes was soon vanished as she saw her husband standing there with their daughter….gauri opened the door fully and allowed them to come in while taking aditi from shiv's hand….
Shiv settled down beside gauri on the couch who had kept aditi intact to her body….
Shiv hesitantly:sorry,I came without informing!
Gauri patting aditi gently:its okay!
Shiv fiddling with his ring:where's mom and dad?
Gauri kissing aditi's fingers:they are out of town for a week...
Shiv:so you're alone that means?
Gauri with a smile:I guess so….its not the first time….
gosh!!!both knew what that statement meant….
Shiv smiling:I thought to come…an-…
Gauri for the first time in these past days looked at him attentively, her eyes searched for his happiness…but it was devoid of it rather it was shining…was he about to cry? she touched his arm, forgetting his actions and asked: what happened shiv?
Shiv couched beside her more and hugged her shoulder,with his head in his neck….she felt hot tears…and at that time all she cared was her husband's happiness whom she had loved from the zenith of her heart and soul….he was the realm of love and life for her….
Gauri touched his cheeks with right hand and asked: what happened?
Shiv shooking his head:she doesn't love me…she's married and very much pregnant…
Gauri kept aditi on her lap and held both of shiv's hand and said: you're upset?
Shiv hit his head on her shoulder and said:no I am on Mt.everest…
Gauri:sorry stupid question..
Shiv:very…the fact that tortures me is that I have been a jerk to you,would you ever forgive me for that pain I have caused to you?
Gauri benovently:I already have!
Shiv:I need you gauri more than ever…I hate myself for causing all that pain to you….you were my best friend yet I hardly shared your pain,you were actually are my wife but I hardly respected your presence,existence…do you anytime remember me taking care of your needs?i am the father of your kid yet I only remember to be the one who separated you with your baby….gauri avoided the conversation she was about to get up with aditi but shiv held her hands and she knew then And there heart is much weaker than mind…gauri surrendered herself to her heart And chanted….
Gauri kissing his joined hands:I am always there for you shiv,I don't hold you responsible for any of the things….i remember once you had a fight for me in a party,you proved there you were THE best friend of mine,you have loved me shiv the way I hardly knew that it even existed,you proved to be a good husband and most important gift you gave me is aditi,our daughter…I don't repent any of it and I know you love our baby more than even I do…she whispered "I love you"…
Shiv spilling tears:please don't gauri…don't…I don't deserve your love….
Gauri:that has to be my decision not yours….
Shiv:I know its kind of unfair to your part
Gauri crying:I love you,you are there in every part of me…I want you shiv..if not love I need the feeling of being there with you…but I know we both are better off…
Shiv:what if I apolosize?
Gauri nodded in negative and looked towards his head lying over her shoulder:its complicated shiv…and dad wants me to divorce you-and….to marry someone else…
Shiv's head jerked up in a second…he saw her closely shut eyes,he left her hands and touched her cheeks,he turned her face towards him and asked:open your eyes gauri….when he saw she listened to his say he said:I know I am acting like a cracked egg but I would hate to see you geeting married,I want you back…I know both me and aditi do the same…we'll make it work out….i am guilty for my actions,I failed to understand your importance until I felt this loneliness…
Gauri held his hands and said:you don't understand it shiv,.i Shiv firmly:are you there with me?
Gauri nodded innocently,shiv:then we can transcends every little or big trouble together…he kissed her forehead and bid adieu....
The ringing of the bell woke him up,he woke up more like startled,he was sweating badly….he fell asleep while thinking on the chair…after recovering from his dream he wiped off his sweat,what was he dreaming about?that she'll forgive him and say I love you-come back shiv…he was going nuts or had gone nuts….and with that he went to attend the door.....