Hey everyone, how are you all?
I am here with an OS again. But this time its more of a monologue of cabir. He was, is and will always be, my fav Character. HUMESHA! And from the past two day I am missing MY CABIRAA badly, like really bad. So I ended up with this OS. Hope you like it.
And yes, this OS I would like to dedicate it to Archna(Priyakna) my kiddo, its her birthday today so kido this os is for you. I love you!
Re Cabiraa- A Cabir OS
Life's too short to be taken too seriously, hah, I wish I had realized that a bit to early. I used to believe this, I still do, but never did it struck hard to me before that unfortunate day. Yes, that day 4 months back, when I found a happier place, when I left the world. Believe me when I say I am in a peaceful place. But they say, a man wants what he cant have, I may be in a peaceful happier place without all these problems and tensions that the people who are alive go through, but I miss my friends, those were my actual happy times, right? I miss them. But what can I do now? Ah, I have been watching them from up here, and dude they have been in a mess. Damn, ab yeh cool cabir nahi hoga toh yahi hoga na!
Everyone's lives have changed so much right, new problems and new ways to deal with them, or Not to deal with them. For example yeh madhubala ko hi dekh lo, she has such a cute baby, and naam bhi kya diya hai, "abeer" um, oh oh , I got the connection cabir-abeer oh it rhyms! Haye madhubala kitna aacha naam diya hai. Pehli baar kuch acha kiya usne! Abeer is a sweetheart, yaha se usko dekhta hun toh I feel, kash main waha hota! I would have spoilt him bad! Bwhaha! Hum dono milke madhubala ko bahot pareshan karte! *evil smile* But, yes I have to say, I am really proud of navya, the way she has handled herself is amazing. She pulled up herself and worked and now she's living with mukti. With mukti! Just imagine, I mean who would have thought? I was shocked when this happened. Now she's working as a RJ, damn, rj navya, pehle sirf mujhe and sab friends ko pakati thi ab pure Mumbai ko pakati hai, hehe but seriously I am proud of her. But her boss, that sleaze ball. Akeli ladki dekhi nahi ki aa gaya chance marne. Kamina. I wish I was there, I could have made his chutney and put up that video up on my youtube channel, haye kitne likes and views aate! Bwhaha. But ys, she should just stand up for herself she's a brave girl, ya phir she can take someone's help, but she needs to do something before that moron takes a step ahead. And I am glad she decided to give abeer up for adoption, it's the correct choice, because she's too young for this responsibility. I am really happy for her. And yes, looking over from here I know, she had feelings for me, love? I don't know but I know she felt something for me, I wish I knew about it earlier and was able reciprocate those feelings but I cant, I am gay, I have never felt like that for her. But nonetheless, I do respect her feelings. And yes, unfortunately or fortunately I do miss her, jitni bhi drama queen, hai meri black and white madhubala, she's really a great friend and I love And miss her.
A lot has happened in everyone's life, sabki gaadi agey chal rahi hai sivay ek ke. Mukti. I miss her. She was my evil twin. I miss all the pranks we played and the funn we did. I think still she has not found herself. She believes in FAB 5 and I understand,and I know manik ke hote hue fab 5 kabhi tute ga nahim but she should atleast discover herself right? Mujhe pata hai use music ke alawa aur kuch nahi aata, but that doesnot mean ki aur kuch sikh nahi sakti. And she should just stop listening to harshad. Like abhi diwali party mein, harshad bakwass kar raha tha but for a change usne pate ki baat ki, ki she should atlease do something else also right? I feel she is holding herself back and iski wajeh se she is not able to move on. She should just let it all go, and live, because that's the only way use happiness milegi and even she will find love. I hope she finds love, after abhi I know wo kitni toot gai hai, abhi bhi she will never say ki she misses him ya phir she is lonely but I know her, she needs someone who loves her, but for that she will have to discover herself and then she will find love. A love that will stay with her forever, I wish! I just wish! Yaha god se main baat karunga ki uske liye please kisi ko bhej de, bahot akeli hai wo! Ek second ke liye toh jab maddy aaya tha, I just wished he was for her. I know its absurd, but kya choohe billi ki tarah ladte na dono is something would have happened. Bahot entertaining hota. Bwhahaa! Kidding. But talking about maddy, he was really an interesting person, till he became a douche and tried to perform fab 5's song in the concert. Damn I was angry here sitting, toh baakio ka kya haal hua hoga and humara volcano , that is manik toh... that ungly fight jismein manik ko lag gai, I was so angry that time I wished I was there and I could have played drumbs on his heads with my drums sticks. Manik ko haath kaise lagaya uusne. Thank god he's gone now, for now I think. Phir bhi its better he stays away.
Areyyy, drums se yaad aaya aryaman, acha baja leta hai ab wo bhi. But iss cool cabir jitna aacha nahi, but then who is, right? I am the best. *pulls up collar*. Abhi jitna dikh raha hai, use toh I feel he has genuinely changed. But ab dekhte hai yeh aagey kitna aur jayega. And him taking my place in fab 5, like I am non replacable, but its not right, fab 5 will always be fab 5 koi aur usmein nahi aa sakta. He's a good guy, but no fab 5. What was news to me was he has feelings for nandini, and my first reaction was OH GOD MANIK! Manik ko jab yeh pata chalega tab id ont know kya hoga, I am sooo looking forward to that showdown. *rubs hands together* But yes, I know aryaman ki feeling's genuine hai, and you cant control feelings right, so I am okay... but I just hope he does not turn out to be like his sister, a total psycho and create misunderstandings between manik and nandini. Ab toh main bhi waha nahi hun to be the cupid! Haaye I just hope aryaman behaves and stays a GOOD BOY!
Good boy toh humara druv hai, nai? Ab toh kitna bolne bhi laga hai. Last time when he became didtant tab I thought ki yeh sirf isliye tha because he was angry, but I was wrong. Ab jabse wo alia ke saath wapas aagaya hai, he has really become expressive and I am glad for that. I am really happy that they are back together. Maine kaha than a that they will have to sort things out themselves so dekha, I was right. Now they are together and I hope that its forever. Dhruv has started dancing, and I love it. The way he moves is just superb! Alia ke baarein mein kya bolu? She has really made me infact all of us proud. Joining the fasion industry was a really wise decision and she's doing quite well in that. But yeh uske boss ke wajeh se problem na ho humare "dhrulya" ke beech. Maine dekha yaha uppar se how uncomfortable and angry dhruv was when her boss was around. I can understand. But dhruv bhi na, wo alia ko bata de ki use pasand nahi nai saaf saaf toh kitni problems aane se pehle hi chali jaaye. But nahi , baaaki bahot expressive ho gaya hai but straight forward bata nahi sakta aliya ko. I really hope indono ke beech koi problem na hoo.. I miss mera bhola sa dhruv and meri hot si aliya. Yaha toh koi in dono jaisa hai hi nahi, hoga bhi kaise yeh dono eke k piece hi haii!
Aliya se yaad aaya, uska wo kamina bhai harshad. Usko toh dekh ke hi mujhe bahot hasi aati hai. Ask why? That is because, he just does not have any other work than creating problems for my friends. Actually na, I think that he loves us, he is obsessed with us, that's why he finds reasons again and again for coming in my and my friends lives. I mean kitni baar usko bola chup reh, but nahi muh uthake aa hi jata hai. Kitni baar he has lost to us, but no haar manni hi nahi hai. Usne na ek book likhni chahiye how to not give up! I mean kitna, bhai kitna try karega tu, tere bas ka toh kuch hai nai, kyu karta hai maar khaane ki harkatein. Sacchi, manik use ek din bahot maarne wala hai, and the way he is instigating him these days, manik ko gussa aaya toh wo use kahin uppar na pohcha de yaha mere pass. Nahiii *dramatic* sorry, wo navya ke saath reh reh ke main bhi thodi nautanki karne laga hun, but sach mein agar manik ne use maar dala and yaha bhej diya toh mujhe usko sehna padegaa, agraaahhh! Noo please I just wish harshad sudhar jaaye, ya phir nahi toh manik use maaare bahot mare but he shouldn't die warna wo yaha aa jayegaa. Dammit! I hate you harshad!
Sabki baat karli, but ab mere do anmol rattan. Humare pyaare Manan. I love them both. And I miss them. Jab manik hospital mein tha tab I could see, jab jab use hosh aata tha all he thought about was nandini. I saw him cry. And it broke my heart. Yaha nandu ka bhi yahi haal tha, usne kitna try kiya manik ko find karne ka. I am proud of my little sister(yeh I considered as my little sister) that she didn't give up on her love. main humesha se jaanta tha, that nandini is the right one for him. Aaj maine manik ko rote hue dekha. Wo mere drums bajane ki koshish kar raha tha and he started weeping. And I cried with him haan haan yeh cabiraaa bhi rota hai apne doston ko rote hue dekh kee... I really wished ki kaash I could just go there and hug manik. Wo apne aapko responsible maan raha hai because he was not able to save me. But it wasn't his fault. Usne bahot try kiya hoga I know jab main behosh tha gaadi mein, I know him. Wo mujhe kabhi akela nahi chodta but use bhi toh chot lagi thina. Magar usne bahot kosish ki hi hogi mujhe bachane ki... magar nahi ho saka. Koi baat nahi, is zindagi mein nahi toh koi aur zindagi mein sahi. But I was happy that aliya dhruv and nandini were there to support him calm him down. Especially nandini.I have always been amazed the way nandini always manages to calm him down ands make him think straight. She always sees the good in him and eccepted him with all the bad in him too. And sabse zyada mujhe unhe chidhane mein aata thaa. Bwahahaha. That was the highlight of my day, the way nandini used to blush and manik used to glare at me was just awesome! It was so much funn! And sabse zyadad toh, mujhe unhe romance karte hue disturb karne mein aata tha... I was so evil *smirks*. Pehle jab main ahem ahem rokta tha tab bahot maza aata tha but ab mujhe dekhna padta hai sab kuch, and I mean it sab kuch. Yaha uppar huna, yaha se sab dikhta hai, wo kya kya karte hai *ahem ahem* aur koi aur mere jaisa bhi toh nahi hai jo unhe aise pareshan karee! Sab dikhta hai mujhe! Kabhi kabhi toh aankhein hi bandh kar leta hun main *facepalm*. I know aagey bhi inki life mein bahot problems aayengi, but I just hope that they are always together. Always and yes unke wo "humesha" humesha rahe aisi dua karta hun main. Aur yaha godji sebhi baat karunga ki inhe kabhi dur na karee k dusre se, yeh ekdusre ki life line hai! Aur main bhi bahot pyaar karta hun inhee...
Pyaar se yaad aaya, mera pyaar. Mera pehla pyaar, aur aakhri bhi. Utni lambi zindagi hi nahi thi ki kisi aur ko dhundu main. Aur wo kehte hai na, insaan jitna bhi move on karle, but use apna pehla pyaar humesha yaar rehta hai. R.. yani raghv. Wo mera pehla pyaar tha. Ab I have moved on, but I still keep tabs on him yaha upar se ki wo kya kar raha hai. Wo apni life jeer aha hai, manglore main hai, ek college mein professor hai. Theek hai. Abhi bhi usne duniya ko apne gay hone ke baarein mein bataya. I wish he comes out of the closet. I hope. Frankly I do remember him, but I don't miss him. Manglore mein mujhe apna closure mil gaya tha. Tab toh maine manik se apne liye special someone dhundhne ki baat ki thi ... kair wo kabhi ho hi nahi paaya... zindagi itni choti thi merii... kash thoda aur jee liya hotaa...
Main aaj bhi mere doston ke saath hun, humesha rakhunga. Yaha se bethe bethe unhe duaye deta rahunga. Aur bhagwanji ko unke problems solve karne ke liye kehta rahunga. Humesha. Main unke pass hi toh hun, navya ke paas wo spongebob banke, Fab 5 aur nandini ke passs humari yaadein banke. Humesha unki takat banke main yahi hun, unke pass! Bahot yaad aati hai mujhe inki, aur mani jaanta hun unhe bhi bahot yaad aati hai meri. Unhe mere bina jeena sikhna hoga. Kyuki main toh hun hi unke saath, unke pass HUMESHA!
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MINI😃
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