CHAPTER 12B(FILL UP CHAPTER)
MANIK'S P.O.V
Wow! I can't believe I did such a good task by standing there then when Alya had blamed Nandini of all the things she couldn't be blamed. I can't believe myself staying quiet at the moment when I had to stand against her. But, I couldn't. Not after, what all I was thinking in my stupid mind. Not after, she herself had given a long speech to me. I didn't want to mess up with Alya by going against her just because I feared we could have lost our friendship. I know this sounds awful but everything in this holy world can't be more important to me than my friends and I would get any of the ways to keep up with them.
It just because Nandini told me that Alya should be more important to me than her. It's the way she told me, I understood everything. I just have this single ping of pain in my heart which wants to be close to her. Close much to let vanish the unheeded pain which is passing by me increasing its speed with every second. I just only have one big fear, what if this becomes unbearable.
The thing is I want everything cleared with Nandini at whatever cost I have to pay. And one thing I very well know that I won't be able to hold and console myself until she just talks to me. I so wanna be with her but only of I don't hurt people. Love is not even a blissful thing if that love does hurt any of the hearts. Hell! I don't love her. I just had a tiny little crush and fondness towards her. I can't behave so pathetically!
"Hi, do you know where Nandini is?" I asked to a girl who had the same class as hers now. As I said I just needed o explain her and I was trying to reach upto her.
The girl's eyes flickered. Once! Twice! Thrice! And then she threw up a gleeful face. Her eyes shone and her face twinkled. I guess she was overwhelmed by the fact that I was talking to her. Every girl would act like her.
"Can you please tell me where Nandini Murthy is?" I asked again in a cold voice bringing her out of the fantasy.
"Oh yeah sorry, she must be in the Art Lab! Art teacher send her there to complete a project!" She replied in a fainted voice. Still dreaming!
I parted my ways and hurried my way to the Art lab. Every step felt heavier than the previous. I was dying because of the guilty and her apology could only make all of that vanish. I am such a cockhead! I am such a jackass! I can't believe it myself either! But I know at least she'll know that there's some reason I was doing that clich thing.
As I read the board on the door which said "Art Lab", I pounce directly and open it slamming it with my complete force. I find her, sitting there all along, doodling over a chart paper which I guess had some pencil scribbles on it. Her eyes reflected the frustration she held in the whole of her body and I knew that moment, how much angry she was.
I coughed loud to bring her attention to me. She looked at me and shot a glare which longed short. I guess she wasn't even interested in looking at me now!
"I need a talk here, now!" I added a bit of teasing to my voice.
She gave me another glare. And, nothing!
"I wanna talk to you!"
Glare and Nothing!
I poked her. "Please!"
Hard glare and Nothing!
Poke!
Nothing!
Poke!
"What the f**king hell Manik? Just get the hell outta here or you'll regret being here the next moment!"
WOW! What a grand welcome by Miss. Nandini!
Manik! Not the appropriate time to joke! Hold your freaking wittiness to yourself or as Nandini said "You'll regret it the next moment"!
"I won't! I just wanna have a talk!" I said making me sound childish.
"You know! I don't care if you wanna talk! Because I don't wanna care of any bit of you! You heard that!" She snapped back and it hurt me but I so well knew she was lying. Her eyes showcased the amount of sadness which held her after my BE-QUIET-BEHAVIOR.
"You know you're bad at lying!" I held on a smirk on my face! So I had decided to be cocky today!
"Don't be a douche man! You're arguing upon a clich thing!" She again snapped back.
"Nnadini, after you told me all that last night, you just need to listen to me today! And I can promise you everything we had was for real!" I finally tried to be serious. Her anger vanished for a moment but it was replaced by a glimpse of annoyingness.
"And if I don't listen, then what?" She said raising her eyebrows a bit and lowering her legs.
"Then...then I will cry!" Woah Manik! That's an extremely good thing! Crying!
"What! Come again!" Her eyes popped out.
"Cry! To shed tears out of disappointment! You know! The condition when water comes out of the eyes!" I explained her and she gave me a pity look.
"You're sounding like, you're a typical girl and a boy forcefully made you give him a hand job!" She explained back and my jaw dropped a bit at her heights of cockiness.
"Shhh!!! Don't make the atmosphere dirty! Seriously! It's not your USA, where everyone roams around giving hand job to each other!" I hushed her back.
"Shhh! At least it's not like India where people lie to each other first and the break the hearts the second moment!" She was all ready for the heated conversation.
"Nandini! I was afraid what if Alya breaks our friendship! And now more than anything, you aren't stubborn like her! I just had to do that!"
"You know what, I should have known we don't have anything for real and it was my fault all the time! Our friendship's good, taking it to a quiet rare new level was such a bad idea!"
"Fine, I won't talk about that but at least we can stay friends right?"
"No, no, no, no, please!" She looked a teensy bit scared this time.
"Why not Nandini?"
"Because I don't wanna go close to you! I am scared what if you become my weakness someday! I can't sorry!" Her voice came out in a shaking way.
I took a step closer to her to console but I again remembered the words she said a few moments ago. I took the step back.
"Okay fine, I will try not to touch as much as possible! Promise! Now friends?" I stretched out my hand.
She looked at me for whole 60 seconds and then reluctantly gave her hand in mine.
You know, she was a strong person, no doubt on that! But under that strong personality of hers laid a fragile her who was afraid and scared of the mankind. The evil mankind! She didn't show it up to anyone but I guess God had gave me some kind of X-ray lens to me just for that moment to instigate the found of the real her. She was some kind of anti-tear-shedding, anti-make-up, anti-shit-taking of a person and I liked her for that. But, I guess, as she said, we were alright being friends. Hmmm!! Friends!
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I am not really in the mood to say hi or bye! And currently, this is the last author's note I am giving! People, you can so be angry at me for taking holiday for whole 2 weeks! I really don't care. I have some own shits going on in my life and I don't really care to post my story here because I have much more pleasant things to do rather than this! I am a little bit into depression these days but again I don't really care about that too! And unfortunately, I am not at all sorry for not updating my story for these many days. Reason, you all don't really need to know! And I guess you wont be knowing if you knew it too. I have got a whole bunch of cockiness and rudeness inside me and I am proud to gain it! Chuck it if you all still don't sense me! I would say one thing !
From today, no shitloads I would take!
I am not gonna PM anyone!
I am not gonna reply to anyone!
I won't have a talk with anyone of you!
And I have my reasons!
If you are really hurt with my words just don't read this thing!
And yeah, it's all upon me if I wanna continue or not!
If you wanna snap me back or retort back, you are free to do because I am sure I am not gonna reply and fight back to anyone! I have lost all of my energy!
Although, keep smiling! Stay healthy!
And Bye!!
Edited by horizontwilight - 9 years ago
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