A Mirage..... - Page 2

Originally posted by: shibz

Evie.. where do I go with all these overwhelming emotions today?😭😭😭

Originally posted by: eveline

Was it all it was?? An illusion?? A beautiful lie??? Was he living in a fool's paradise?? He asks...Manik Monster Malhotra...the man who has everything and yet nothing!! The power monger, the negotiatior, the rich spoilt brat...a hero...a zero!! Zilch!! One moment...one freaking moment and your whole identity is lost...forever!! A few words...filled with bitterness...venom...the wrong words from the right person...and ...

A piece of you is lost...forever!! You are rendered incomplete...till eternity!! A shallow, hollow man...with nothing left on the insides!!!

One relationship...his oasis!! Through the long trek...the long hot walk through hell...the dry barren wastelands of his life...the sands of neglect...the hot burning waves of rejection...the emptiness of an empty life...miles of nothing...just nothing. He had nothing to look forward to, nothing to hope for, to pray for, to wish for...it was all a hot burning desert!! Lost, wandering, aimless, alone...in the whole wide world...all he could see and feel and understand was...the hot fury of emptiness!! He had no one..and no one cared whether he lived or died!! What an existence...why such an existence!! And then he glimpses it ...an oasis!! Just one thing that kept him walking. Just one relationship that gave him the strength to pull himself together, to not give up, to fight, to survive!! His oasis, his friendship!! May be cause someone needed him...he was wanted!! He found a reason for his survival...someone was leaning on him...some one could be rescued...and he slowly..inch by inch...one painful step after another...one thirsty mile after another...kept on walking...dragging himself and some one else out of this hell!! He just wanted to be a true friend...but became a HERO!! A hero ...not for one but for plenty...as he led parched souls like him to an oasis called friendship!! He pulled, dragged, pushed, all of them to safety, to shade, to hope, to comfort...all cause of one friend, one relationship!!

And today..the hero just realized that it was all a mirage!! An illusion!! A trick that his bleary exhausted eyes had played on him!! A beautiful lie that his love starved mind had dreamt of!! It was all fake...unreal...it never existed!! The one thing that kept him going...his oldest...strongest...relationship...his buddy...it was all gone!! In the blink of an eye, in the wake of a few words...a part of him lost forever!!

How does one survive such a blow?? One does not!! IT kills you...yes..it does!! You might live on...survive...but something inside you dies forever..you are never the same. Something that always hurts, pinches, bleeds...wherever you go...whatever you do...you carry this dull pain to your grave!! The body of a dead failed relationship...the dead weight of a broken faith...the heavy burden of shattered bonds...you have to bear till the day relief seeps in!! This hurt, disillusionment, this shattering lesson that relationships come with an expiry date...this truth is buried with you!! The unpalatable bitter truth that nothing lasts forever!! With times and tides, people change...and so do their emotions, their feelings, their priorities. There is no forever in relationships...there never was!! Change is the only human constant!! And tomorrow things might get sorted...but still...he will always carry these scars...a hard earned lesson!!

His buddy...the one he learnt to stand tall for, the one he learnt to fight for, the one who taught him that he could make a difference to someone's life!! The only soul who cared, who shared, who bothered to hear him out, who talked to him...listened!! The only person who took notice, who acknowledged that he was a human too!! A friend...the only relationship he had when he had nothing!! Really ...nothing but one relationship!! Can we understand..ever...what that relationship can mean?? IT shaped him...it made him what he is today..Manik Malhotra!! His Dhruv, his buddy...was his blessing, his identity, his wish come true, his music, his survival!! His heart his soul...for those who never understood why Manik gave up Nandini...for just a friend...today is the answer!! Dhruv was never a friend...he was more...much much more!! In essence...he was his reason to live...his soul...his life!!

And today he stands there...dead...lifeless!! A tall frame..alone..in a barren room..again!! A shell..unable to fathom what hit him...how his world crashed with just a few words!! Bewildered, bruised, uncomprehending!! Once again life had lashed out at him and he was unable to understand where had he gone wrong..what crime had he committed this time round?? WHy was he being punished again...so severely...why was he back to where he started...alone in a burning hell...with just the vestiges of a beautiful mirage on the horizon!! So...was it all an illusion...all dreamt up...wishful thinking of a deprived conscience...is that all true love, true brotherhood, true friendship is all about...a slipping away out of your grasp..a rude awakening of a mirage!!??

So...that pure unconditional relationship...never existed?? Unbelieving...he looks back!! At all those years wrapped in moments...moments of sheer love, joy, bliss..memories of togetherness...walking through the sun and the shadows...the shared tears, laughter, fun, frolic, pain, exhaustion, maturity, foolishness and wisdom..the big events, the small things...a whole lifetime, a zillion cherished memories...When did it all change...when did his silent yet sweet buddy...change into an opponent?? When did their camaraderie change into an ego hassle, when did their brotherhood change into an ugly tug of war for dominance?? And why didn't he realize?? When did his world tilt so much on the axis of pride and prejudice?? When did his universe disintegrate, piece by piece, on the anvils of hate and bitterness and venom?? How, when, why, but...

He has lost it all...once again!! He might be a fighter but he has lost his cause!! A survivor but has lost his reason!! A Hero ...but with no one to rescue!! Again...he is alone, standing tall, battered, bruised, broken beyond repair!! He stands there..looking at the pieces of himself scattered around him...stares at the shards of his broken identity...screams in silent agony..shrieks voicelessly in the vacuum...raves and rants noiselessly in vain...but the words won't come...the tears won't fall...the wounds just won't bleed...trying to walk through the deserts of life again..one painful step at a time...looking for another mirage...

Originally posted by: aminahin

Oh dear u penned manik's state his loneliness his heartbroken so purely n amazingly todays epi was beyond perfection n it shows how manik care about his buddy n dhruv s word made him shatter very badly i was crying very badly through whole epi thx dear for writing such amazing posts n it feels so complete epi with ur amazing words

Originally posted by: eveline

@Miminits...I was once in his shoes...standing there...watching my world disintegrate...why me?? I can bet all of us have gone through this pain...this agony of broken relationships...lost faiths...shattered trusts..sheer disillusionment...not a soul is spared from life's lessons!! As for Manik...Nandini can stand by him, but he will have to heal by himself...and the wounds might heal, but the scars will remain...a reminder of life and love!!

Originally posted by: moonstonespirit

Awesome post eve!!! Loved it...

"A hero stands alone..." Today he was their alone!! All his friends left him. They assumed that he will be fine. They always saw him as a hero, to them he was unbreakable.

Only one person saw his vulnerable side. His star saw thought his facade of Monster. She saw the human in him. The human trying to break free from the illusion of invincibility. She stood up to him, for him. Told him that she will be their for him and all he has to do is reach out.

The Mirage broke and he went to her.

"I NEED YOU"

He finally let go of the ocean of sadness. He cried for the friendship lost, the years of companionship... She held him. She shined for him. Told him She would be their for him.