First of all the things.. yayy! U came n u wrote! Was waiting for your write-up!
Second, "I feel he simply couldn't control himself, but when he looked at her hopeful expression and her wishful eyes...he came to his senses and pulled back viciously...I know...the idiot that I am😆" u r not mad.. ur analysis was absolutely correct.. he was, for a moment lost in her eyes.. just a moment.. but as soon as their eyes met n he saw that hope in her eyes, he just snapped! Whatever he does, how much ever he tries, he can't stay away.. in his own words, he can go away but he can't stay away..
Third, the connection u made between shivji's taandav n manik's anger, shivji's soft n mellow heart to manik's equally kid-like heart was fab! Where do u get these ideas from???
I just felt he is trying to hurt her to make her realise of his pain, but he cannot stand seeing her hurt too.. right now, he is too wrapped up in his monstrous emotions.. but as soon as he starts missing her, look, touch, smile, voice.. anything n everything, he would be back.. n nandini would be there to welcome him back in her life, never to let go again!!
I really don't know what did I blabber here, but I was too touched by today's episode. Neither of them can bear each other's pain n neither of them can stay away.