I don't feel like being nice to you. NOT TODAY ATLEAST.
But somehow it's your writing that undo me here. Well just for the sake of amazing piece, imma comment, otherwise i don't give two hoots about you anymore.
The moment i actually thought that those first few lines by Pushpa Rana was written down for me. Well dreams can be shattered in pretty little pieces. The matters of the heart can't be controlled. Totally feeling like a Manik/Nandini today, only they can understand my pain. Now i can say i can relate to you guys. I have a maddening thirst too for someone but she doesn't care. She was special and precious-but it was only a fake dream, not that i can do anything about it. She came, she lied, she betrayed. That was the Valentines gift she actually gifted me. But it's okay, it's the matters of the heart, it can't be controlled.
I was a girl of principle too just like Nandini. I was selfless in my love too. I've been trying to be someone's light for so many years but what she does, she breaks my heart. I've allowed that and it's still okay, because she owned my heart so i give her the right to break it. I've sacrificed so many sleepless night for her, so many during the journey. She didn't ask me for that. But my love for her forced me to sacrifice. That's how much i love her. But she rendered me lonely in the end. But it's okay, it's the matters of the heart, it can't be controlled.
People ask me what is it about her, that makes you forget about all about the rest. I'll say with a fond smile, it's her stupid sense of humour, her challenge, her intense debates with me. Her unending nights telling me concepts at night. She earned me by all of that. I was selfish before, trying to keep her for myself, little did i know she was trying hard to do the same too. Later did i came to know we were seeking each other. But has failed now? Ask me? My answer would be I f**kING KNOW IT. I WONT SAY IT. She breaks my heart every single day but it's okay, it's the matters of the heart, it can't be controlled.
She fought for me at every single step of the way ever since she was known to me. She might still be a little stupid ass, but that's her. A forever little stupid ass. She threw me in a rollercoaster and gave me adventurous memories of togetherness. Never unforgettable. It's an unexplainable feeling. She was my everything and she still is but the question is, AM I FOR HER? But it's okay it's the matters of the heart, it can't be controlled.
Is it safe to ask back that burning passion again, it is too much asking for her heart to beat madly again. She is my shining fireflies.In the end, i still believe in these promises:
"No matter what the hurdles, no matter whatever comes in, no matter all the thorns, no matter the differences, no matter how hard the way is, they will always, Always, find their way back to one another.' So here i am waiting for you to conquer me back, because you're my shining star too. You crushed my valentines day, but am still waiting for you...it's the matters of the heart, it can't be controlled.
Thank you for summing up Nandini's feelings, coz today i feel like a Nandini. :(