BOXY and DOC. Ufff, I am fangirling, you know that? I love, love, loved the song and your words. Ufff. Not only Nandini, as your forte, but you delved into Manik too. Can I just take out a moment and be a proud mother :')
I'm a mere girl. I brood, I cry, I doubt myself. I fear the darkness as much as you do, but I've lived in love, and learnt to make my own light. I'd lulled myself into forgetting the silent black. Then I crashed against you, and everything plunged into darkness again. And I hated you for making me remember.
^^^ Do you even know how much I fangirl when you go into your territory and show us what lies there. Thats just yours and no one can take it away - Nandini. Your way around Nandini is so, so endearing. I get Nandini, I understand her too but she doesn't interest me for I have been living that life but you? You my girl, along with Genie makes me want to know that girl even better. You people make me feel that no, Yes even though I understand Nandini, she can be such an interesting character too. I legit fangirl over your grip on the character.
But then my old fear haunts me again. Can I trust your darkness when you are capable of breaking me so easily? You say you need me to show you the way, always, but how do I tell you of my need for you to catch me when I stumble?
^^^THIS IS SO ASDFGHJKLOIUYTT... AAAHHH! YOU WROTE MANIK, I MEAN MANIK MALHOTRA? THE EVER GADHA MANIK!!!! iDies. The thing in itself is such a wonder. But, ufff, his trust issues, he is so void of trust. He wants to trust people but he is afraid. The vulnerability shines within him. He hides it so well, so well, that he peeks out every now and then. After all, the more tighter you'll hold sand, the faster it will slip.
Our meeting was like the Brownian motion, random, colliding, but our asynchrony led to the discovery of ourselves just like the random movement of particles in gas or liquid led to the discovery of atoms and coinage of molecules. Our meeting was pure chance, the romantics call it destiny or fate but I like to believe that it's a random event meant to be.
^^^Ufff, you both doctors. 😆 I liked, no, loved how you used science to describe Nandini. Isn't everything about her plain science. She relates everything to science when she find find a way out. That is so, so, so her.
You saw something good in me and I knew I could believe what you saw because YOU saw it.
^^^ The implicit trust this guy has on her. My Baby :') Just because she believed, he believed. It's like if she says, he is irredeemable monster, than he is someone whom he can detest for life. Tabhi toh, it killed him when she said he disgusts her coz she matters. She will, humesha. he can not bear the fact that he disgusts her. he can not bear the fact that she no more believes in light, in good within him. That is how vulnerable he is. That is how he functions.
You push me to the brink ,but without hurting me you bring me right back. But the time I spent at the brink completes me in a way that can't be replicated by my own efforts.
^^^ That's them right? Pushing each other's button, bringing out sides of them they never thought was possible yet with Manik it was more of fear than amusement as for Nandini. Manik was scared of showing his real self coz Nandini pushed it out but Nandini? She was amused at the fire she possessed. She never knew she had it in her to be fiesty, bold, outrageous and it amused her. That is what Manik did to her, he completed her. he let the fire within her come out in full spirit, never letting it doze off.
There is a darkness inside both of us, but only you can shine so bright that you envelop the darkness with your warmth. The light can fade but not your warmth...
I need you to be my fixed star that shows me the way,that is at rest relative to absolute space. Let everything around me be in constant chaos,constant cacophony but as long as I know that you are my inertial frame,I can feel safe again.
I can't douse your fears,I can't take away the pain,I may have to walk away, I may make mistakes. But as long as I know that you are my light, pure, unwavering and warm,I'll find my way back.
^^^ THIS. I AM SLAYED, okay? I say no further :')
You say you can't choose me. And it shatters me, and strengthens my resolve to always choose you.
You say I'm your protector. And it brings me to my knees, and makes me feel victorious.
You say I always shine for you. And it terrifies me, and thrills me.
You say I'm your star. And it distances you from me, and makes you mine.
bas, I am dead, okay? You stole the show in the last. Don't expect me to be sober enough to write anymore.
All I can say is, WRITE MORE OF THIS DEEP SHIT BOXY ELSE I MEAN MURDER
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