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Hello all :) So just wrote this on the basis of last night's episode. I love writing sad stuff idk why. But this is my first write up on Manan. Frankly I dont like this sacrificing track but I guess we'll have to deal with it. So just a small attempt from my side ! I have no idea about how this has turned out. Hope you like it! :)
The jar of fireflies was about to fall down and break, but before it could break a pair of firm hands caught hold of it and gave it to her. She was reminded of the incident that had taken place just before she had come to space academy. The jar had almost fallen, but someone had saved them from falling. This time it was Manik, and coincidently the situation reminded her of the previous one. Could it be Manik? Had Manik saved her jar of fireflies from breaking previously too? She was confused.
Their hands momentarily met and she felt a current through her hands. He always gave her these feels. While she could see Manik just staring at her like that, she felt the color of her cheeks slowly becoming red. She was blushing! Yet again! She couldn't stop thinking about Manik ever since their kiss. She had never felt so special..nor did she ever feel like that for anyone else. He managed to get the best out of her. She was happy. Really happy.
"Manik.." she tried to begin a conversation. Anyone who listened to her could clearly point out that she was really happy. Well, why wouldn't she be happy? After all she really felt something different and special for this guy. And so did he. They were together. The feeling made her feel so warm. She suddenly felt that she wanted nothing else. He was with her. That was really more than enough.
"Nandini.. I..."
She loved it when he took her name. From spot to Nandini, they had come such a long way.
Before he could say anything further, she wrapped her arms around his taking him into a tight hug.
"You know Manik..I have been thinking..I...I really don't care whether Nh3 wins the musicana or Fab 5..either way I'll be happy..because if nh3 wins, it'll be my team's happiness, and if fab 5 does, it'll be your happiness..and you know what? I just realized that I feel so happy when I see you smiling..It feels good to see you happy..so that's why, win or lose doesn't matter to me..I have you with me..and that's more than enough." She knew she could be candid with him. She could tell everything she wanted to him. A smile played on her face, while Manik was experiencing a rollercoaster of emotions..
"Win or lose doesn't matter to me..I have you with me..Nothing else matters..." her words echoed in his ears. How could he do that??? This girl liked him so much and what had he come to do?? He had come to break his heart?? Why was he even doing that? Why was he even THINKING of doing something like that? It was meaningless!!
But then he thought of Dhruv..He loved her. He was his best buddy..How could he date a girl whom his best buddy loved? How?
"But wont it hurt Nandini if you leave her like this and make her fall for dhruv? Love just happens! You dont chose it to happen!! " A part of his heart echoed.
"But wouldn't it hurt Dhruv if you date her?? Won't he feel bad about it? Do you really think you can see Dhruv in pain? Nandini doesn't know about Dhruv's feelings, and neither does Dhruv know that you are dating her! It'd be best if you dont extend this matter and give up on her. Maybe you and Nandini aren't meant to be. " Another part of his heart said.
"How can he give up on her?" The first voice said.
"If he doesn't, he'll hurt his best friend."
"So you are asking him to choose between friendship and love? He cant choose friendship!! He really really likes Nandini a lot! " The first voice retaliated.
"He can't hurt his best friend because of a girl whom he has known only for sometime! He knows Dhruv since so long!"
"Love is built on trust, and he trusts her..It has got nothing to do with how long he has known her! He can't hurt her!"
"But he definitely can't hurt his best friend."
The first voice had nothing to say. Either way Manik was going to suffer. He had made up his mind.
With a heavy heart, he broke the hug. He saw her smiling. He felt a wave of happiness crossing his mind.
"I'm sorry Nandini. I promised never to hurt you but I am going to, now. I hope you always smile like this." He said one last time to himself as he put his monster mask on.
He smirked. "Really? I have you and all? I never knew Nandu was so serious about me!"
Nandini looked on as the smile slowly vanished from her face.
He knew a part of him would always be cursing himself for taking off the beautiful smile of hers.
"What did you think?? Manik Malhotra would fall for you? You really though that?" He chuckled.
"Manik.." she tried saying something.
"Oh god you are so dumb! You fell for this so easily..You fool!! I am not interested in you! Neither do I want to be with you..Gosh!! You are such a loser."
"Manik what are you saying?" She couldn't believe it. What was he even saying?? Was he in his senses??
"The truth Nandini..This was my plan. How many times have you insulted me Nandini?? This was my way of seeking revenge. By breaking your heart. Have a great time fixing it." he laughed.
How could he say all that? How? This was actually the first time she had felt something so intense for someone and that someone was Manik!! After spending all those moments with her, he was saying that everything was a joke?? It wasn't a joke for her!! They were some of the best moments ever and she had treasured each one of them. Each one, and now here was Manik saying that they didn't even matter to him.
Manik's heart broke into a million pieces. He had finally done it. Finally ended it. He had no idea where this was going to go, but atleast he now knew that Dhruv would be happy..
"But..." he shut the voice that was trying to say something and looked at Nandini who seemed like she was trying hard to control her tears.
She didn't break down in front of him. She felt numb. Manik was playing a game with her all this while? He had made a joke out of her feelings? But what about their kiss, the conversation they had before their kiss, the diwali night, all those special moments?? Did they mean nothing to him?
"Manik...did all those moments mean..? She spoke slowly. She couldn't even speak properly.
"Snap out of it Nandu. You'll always remain a loser."
To be honest, he was the loser. He had let go off someone who was actually his source of happiness.
Why couldn't she stop herself from falling for him? Why did it hurt her so much? She didn't have any clue about it.
Her eyes were filled with tears. But she knew she had to be strong. She had to be there for her team. How could Nandini Moorthy just break down like that?? No. She couldn't.
She didn't say anything further. Instead she turned around and ran as fast as she could. Away, from him.
She was not to be blamed. He had distanced herself from him.
And a disheartened Manik Malhotra stood there as memories of there kiss flashed in front of him, those special moments suddenly flashed in front of him.
"I'm sorry Nandini. I'm really sorry. I know you'll hate me after this, but I had no other choice. Perhaps it's better if we stay away from each other." He said as a tear escaped his eye.
She went up to the stage along with Harshad, Navya and Shahid. To the audience, she was like another confident, and happy girl, but she knew. She felt helpless, and sad. Whatever had happened was heart breaking.
The performance began. She couldn't sing. Instead she was on the keyboard all the time, and silent tears trickled down her cheeks. Every moment of the song was a reminder of how special every moment with Manik had been. And when she realized that all those moments which she cherished, he had loathed, her heart again broke into further small pieces. Reality hadn't sunken in, but she tried making her mind believe that he was a guy who could never change. And she didn't deserve someone like him. Manik Malhotra could never change and she had to get over him.
But who could tell her heart who by know had become accustomed to this familiar feeling for Manik?
Her heart didn't believe anything Manik had said. It still felt strong connection with Manik's heart. Somewhere deep down her heart felt that Manik was lying. For don't know what. But that was just a small feeling. Nothing compared to the pain she had experienced.
He was there at the backstage. Standing a few feet away from her, but the gap between them was now of so many miles, and that it could never be bridged. He had created it. He could never forgive himself for it.
How he wished to go to her and engulf her in a tight hug and wipe those tears off her face. How he wished to tell her that whatever he did was purely out of compulsion and he felt the same way about her as she did.
Was he really right in breaking her heart like that?
He looked at her as she played the piano while those tears kept trickling down her cheeks. He didn't like seeing her in tears. It gave him pain. Immense pain. It wasn't easy for him, to distance herself like that. He looked so nonchalant to her but it was killing him on the inside. The thought of them never being the same again made him hate himself, but he had no other choice. How happy she had been all the time with him..those promises..of always trusting him, of always shining for him, of always keeping him in her prayers...
...and his promise? Had he forgotten that? Had he actually forgotten that he was never supposed to hurt her? And if he did, she'd never forgive him. She was so right. She wasnt supposed to forgive him. Because he had hurt her. Again. And this time the damage was beyond repair.
That was it! If you liked it, do give your feedback! Will try continuing it if possible!!
Kumkum Bhagya
