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I just wanna do my personal rant about the recent episodes of the show.I have had just way too much to say about the past events that are happening in KYY , but honestly I haven't written or analyzed in the longest time. I think the crazy excitement and passion I had to make a post everyday was way back in 2011 when I just joined IF.But honestly , this show makes me wanna write again. Okay , without much further ado , I'll begin my rant. Haha. Forgive me for this sloppy post for I haven't written a proper post here in about 2 years , I kinda went dead after a show ended.hehe. Anyway.
Honestly , when I first started watching this show , I had no hope or expectations. I thought it was gonna be a typical superficial Indian-ized youth show with its usual typical elements of a lot of couples and romance with the story eventually going inside a deep dark well. Also , when I first saw the promos, I didn't believe that it even had a properly structured storyline. However , the length at which we have come to recently , I really have to say , KYY and I , I think, have come a long way and KYY has definitely surprised me at certain intervals , happily. When I first started watching it , I thought I am watching the tackiest version of BOF.But honestly , I can't tell you how glad I am that I was proven wrong. KYY is just KYY in its own right. I am really happy about that actually. When the show initially started , I had major problems regarding Manik's characterization . Honestly , as much as you guys will like to deny it, we know very well that we live in a very adherent , and inherently patriarchal society. It's like , an unsaid huge set of rules against us that society does not demand but compulsorily expects. I guess with the horrific things that have happened in our country , I have become ultra sensitive to slightly abusive and abrasive heroes. Before really taking off my rose tinted glasses from my rose tinted world , I fascinated and personally analyzed every action of disturbing heroes...be it Frankenstein , be it Macbeth or Othello or Hamlet or Heathcliff , Rhett Butler , Captain Wentworth , Darcy, Rochester ,Satan from Paradise Lost , YOU name it. But I guess , recently , my pink bubble popped by a horrific pin of incidents induced by reality . Maybe that's why I don't take Literature as fantasy and TV as not a pallet of reality anymore. Thus , evidently , Manik's character did give me a lot of struggles for personally accepting him as the main lead, at first. However , recently , I have warmed upto him in a way I never thought I would, really.
I remember, from one of the earlier posts in this forum someone had written how these selectively few branded misfits find each other in order to protect each one of them and engulf each other in way to save themselves or at least be distracted from all the serious issues that loom individually ahead of their lives for a long time. I think , I also agree with what Mais said in her recent post , that the amazing thing about KYY is , it never loses its story lines . It remembers it's present , and keeping that in mind carefully carves the future , and never forgets the problems each character is facing and never makes their problems take a backseat out of the blue. Everything sort of stands out and moves the story further ahead instead. Also , like Mais said , we don't know everything about these characters and their intersected pasts, presents and the foreshadowing of their possible disjointed futures. We can just guess. To be honest , the reason why I initially continued with the show was only for Dhruv. His character , for me , was so so intriguing. He is like this mountain of engulfing silence drifting from one shadow of mundane reality to another . Drifting within his footsteps , not really caring where and what he is walking towards , as long as his guitar is with him . Like another part of his body attached to this guy , only difference being , everyone can see it waving it's arm behind his back. I love how the CVs know what they are doing with him. I am personally liking this "Dhruv trying to impress Nandini" track but I honestly hope it doesn't meddle with the basic characteristics of what Dhruv is. You know why I think , forget chemistry or biology , that Alya is actually good for him , regardless of what their relationship is gonna be or what it is now? Because she sees something a lot of people forget to see. This guy likes to be aloof , invisible in his own shell , drifting away from the convenient array of colours stranded on the social platform FOR A REASON.The most obvious and on the surface reason are the attacks but it is obviously more than just that. And you know what guys? Alya sees it. Despite being the seemingly so called perfect barbie doll in every sense of the word , this girl actually sees him in deep for who he is. "No more hiding , Dhruv. " I don't remember the last time someone believed they had the right or the emotion or even the inkling to say something like that to him. I don't think even Manik says that to him. Or has ever said that to him.That man just babies him. 😆 Alya actually helps him in shaping up a proper personality instead of just letting him hide and tuck himself under the hooded jacket of his basic characteristics.His nature. She shapes him up.If that makes sense. I can't help but let that dialogue strike me like a light bulb! moment when Manik was like genuinely agaped as he asked Dhruv in genuine surprise ,
"Tujhe kya hua hai?"
And the most ironic part , they [fab 5] know each other and the patterns [old and new] of each other's relationships so well, that Mukti subconsciously even said it...Something that has a definitive foreshadowing of future bonds and relationships.
"Alya happened."
If that is not profound as to what is building Dhruv through not just a proper personality but also initializing in making him a man of real growth ,experience , strength and pain instead of a pacified boy who does not know how to control the things that pain him like his attacks , I don't know what is. That's the thing you see. We don't need medical doctors in the name of MaNan [of course we know the reason why this allegiance was even made was to further their own equation par khair...lol] to cure this little boy cause that's the way they see him as. No one knows it yet I know , but honestly , Alya is his cure. I see it. Hell, I feel it.
Also the recent scene of what we saw of them , a typical thing that happens EVERY TIME a friends tries to hook you up with someone , you know what I loved about it ? How the CVs decided to not show the typical convenient initiation of sudden romantic sparks out of nowhere in this scene. The fact that these two have been friends from probably childhood and how that current is maintained while Alya tries to fake try on Dhruv and vice versa, was a very refreshing scene. Because the strong meander of their pure friendship of years was kind of dancing around the entire room instead of the usual out of a box sudden revelation of romantic fireworks blasting out without any backing , reason or development which happens in every show. The fact that the friendship bonds within FAB5 is given this kind of delicate , platonic importance sincerely touches me.
About Manik-Nandini , I had an initial dislike and an eventual love for this equation. Funny, right?
My blood boiled to its degree in the initial episodes when Manik casually told her in unnerving heartless sarcasm that her parents are dead and her brother is ill. Something just ticked inside me. It was like hot red anger . Rage , almost. I just don't know. Whatever. I kind of realized that somehow , whether I have disliked or liked them , they have always gotten a reaction out of me. Somehow. The first scene that made me slightly warm upto to them was one of those early few good scenes where Manik watches Risabh have an attack and realizes why Nandu was insisting so much about knowing Dhruv's attacks. What really got to my heart was Nandu's vulnerability. No she is not an avalanche of strength. No she is not iron clad and no , neither does she seem to carry balls of steel. But that's the endearing thing about her. She is just a normal little girl trying to battle out the everyday pieces of her broken life and trying to hold it together for herself and everyone else, just like the rest of us. In her moment of emotional upheaval , she forgot she was ranting to the Monster Manik , the guy who splashed a glass of water on her face like she was a slave from the 1800s , who made her degrade her self honour she embraces so much by making her wipe his shoe. The funny part about that scene was, going down on a man's feet in our country is usually a moment and a symbol of virtuosity, and blessing. The fact that this is a modern show and any girl of today in our country would feel degraded and angry to do anything around the radius of a man's or an elder's feet was thoughtfully shown . The faint echo of the Hindi phrase, " Aurat ke haath humesha logon ke charano mein hoti hai" , being kicked to shreds. The way it caves its way to show what Urban India is today , is amazing and thoughtful. Khair , where was I? Right. She had forgotten who she was putting her heart out to probably for the first time. The very man who himself was a big cause of it. She put it out there didn't she? How she handles everything. How her relatives won't have the money to give her education , how she fights for her little brother through scholarships and other opportunities and how it is just too dangerous to not receive it , moreover to let go of that opportunity. Any opportunity , really. Those tears aligning the rims of her eyes in front of the audience for the first time , and as vulnerability , along with her heart chokes into her voice..." Sometimes I just don't know what do." So simple , a line . So overtly heard , but somehow , when you hear her say it , I don't know . You actually feel the helplessness in her ... that even if in her individual power she is doing everything that is tangible , that she possibly can..in the end, it is still not frustratingly enough. That scene just made me love Nandini so so much. I don't know how to describe it really. I cried in that scene by the way. Hey , don't laugh at me. Yes I cry when I watch serials , read books , listen to music... There. *Fumes in a corner* You know that phase between MaNan when Manik wanted Nandu expelled? It kinda reminded of the time when Abhay wanted Piya expelled in PKYEK , and when she actually was , he couldn't see it , digest it or even let it happen. Funnily both wanted it for the same reason , because both the men didn't want the girls to pose a danger to their world , that danger being possible closeness of every sort [ haha] .That phase also has always got to me. Okay , re landing to KYY land , sorry. 😆 Honestly , I felt the sparks of their chemistry pretty late but I always liked the height difference between them..reminded me of Mills and Boons Anyway , I felt it though like a lightning especially during the infamous mud kiss between them. The sexual tension between them is seriously simmering , but it's beautiful that even while the sexual wave is ominously present , the characteristics of their basic personalities still remain as they are. Also , just like everyone else , Hell yeah , love the drunk Nandini. SO much fun. Can't she be drunk forever? Hehehe. 😆 Also the "Toh abhi kyun dhoond rahi ho mujhe"..uff. Heart stopping moment , I tell you. And not because of the dialogue but because of the WAY Manik looks at Nandini when he says it .There is just so much of pain , emotional restraint of newly developed feelings and intensity within his eyes as he says that line when he pulls her towards him. I don't see Niti in that scene.For me that scene was all about Parth and the spasm of pain he threw in on Manik's face. Commendable. Also , the hug. Well for Manik it was obviously a desperate search for wanting someone or something..anything to fall back on. What that hug illustrated more for me was the evolution of Nandu's feelings towards him. The genuine shock , the initial coming to terms with Monster Manik warmly hugging her in an attempt to pacify a paining broken heart..the way how instead of freaking out she slowly gradually accepts the hug by placing her fingers on his shoulder . Almost symbolic of how she slowly and gradually begins to hold and accept his vulnerable side when he shows it to her. The eventual smile on her face as if that is what her unconscious mind kind of surprisingly wanted all along and how she didn't realize that all this time that she did. Touchy stuff. Pun intended..😆
Also I have a LOT ,like A LOT , to say about Cabir- Raghav but I am so so tired of ranting\talking\typing. *sigh* 🤔 Just wanna say that when this track developed , it was very relatable to me cause my best friend is gay and I have grown up with him my whole life. Yes you face consequences for who you are but hell yeah it is worth it. 😎 He was physically bullied in school a lot for it but hey High school is always a bitch anyway doesn't matter who and what you are. 😆 Anyway..so it kind of reminded me of that , but my bestie was never scared and he never hid anything but I can understand why someone would , you know. Student- teacher relationships don't bother me cause I have seen them happen in school and honestly school creates enough boundaries regarding who to feel for and who not to feel for already , we don't need any more of them . Feelings are feelings yaar. Kisike saath bhi , kabhi bhi ho sakta hai. Pyaar hai yaar. Jurm thodi hai. Right? Anyway. To be honest , that scene today where Manik out of blind rage hurt Nandu and realized it and offered his own hands in return. Instead of just taking it as a scene it kinda hit home for me. Made me feel awkward in my seat. Honestly , I have seen too many men in my life who out of blind rage do a lot of things to women , unimaginable things and then when they realize the damage, they say sorry..buy sarees for you..gehene ..make breakfast for you and then do the same thing the next day ..and this cycle goes on for 25 years sometimes..just it hits me in the gut I guess. That's if I see something even remotely like a guy injuring a girl kind of scene even though he doesn't mean it , hits right where it shouldn't..or it should. Just hyper sensitive to such stuff I guess. Makes me think of the mountain behind a tiny molehill. Teehee. Anyway. That's enough of my blabber. I wanna post here more..maybe I will. 😛
BYE!!!! 🤗
