Rajeev Khandelwal
I left Kahiin To Hoga because the character was not making sense to me, it
wasn't what I envisioned. If I wasn't convinced about the character, then
how could I convince audiences? Ultimately, I think an actor has to believe
in what he's doing.
What people don't understand is that this wasn't an overnight step for me.
It took six to seven months, I discussed with everyone in the channel that I
was clueless where I was going with the character. I tried my level best to
perform and listen to other voices. But I don't want to work for the sake of
working.
I wasn't creating problems, but I believe that it is possible to make things
intelligently, even if it's a TV serial. I didn't want complacency setting
in with my roles, even though I'd heard that it happens with the pace of
soaps. It was the love and affection that I got from people that made me
cautious.
Every actor is responsible for his character; you just can't be frivolous
about it. Even if the character is someone else's creation, the actor who
has played it for two years knows at least ten per cent of what it's all
about.
Taking this decision was the most difficult step. (The character) Sujal has
made my life; not being him is a nightmare. I'm losing so much money and
people are bound to forget me; I'm not Mr Bachchan. I'm a one-serial,
small-time actor. But playing the character without honesty is a much bigger
crime.
Sujal had become a demi-god and I needed to play him religiously and with
responsibility.
I never thought that I would be so moralistic – I'm a normal actor with
selfish interests. But whenever I've gathered strength, I've always stood
up. I've had showdowns while growing up over things I've believed in. I
can't be unjust to myself.
It's taken a lot out of me to take this decision. I'm glad that I could
stand up to my own principles and not get cowed down by worldly
acquisitions. Now I know that if I succeed in life, it will be very sweet.
got it from a yahoo group sorry if its already on forum
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