Chapter three: Dard Tumara-Badan mein meri-zeher ki tarha-utar raha hein
The heavy eyes didn’t give away to the struggle Rohit did to keep them open. A whole world seemed to be blurr for a while as he tried to move his head off the pillow so he let his head fall back and tried to figure out where on the earth he is at. As some doctor observed him,his movements and reflexes he realized that he has again landed in a hospital and suddenly he remembered that he was in Goa. Ajit....pooji... they might be worried. He tried to open his mouth.
“Please don’t move Dr.Rohit,you got to have some rest.” A voice said and he nodded.
“Dr.rohit ko normal room pe shift karo.he is stable but better be kept under observation. Head CT aaya?”
“Yes sir.”
A sound of a waving CT film and some discussion about no observable hemorrhages goes in his background and he guessed that he would have had a head injury once more. Not bad, surviving another yet again. People sometimes die at their first trauma to head but looks like maut bhi saat chod diya hein mera.Wow.He sighed.
“Gharwaale aaya isske?”
“Haan wo log baahar wait karraha hein sir.”
Rohit heard people leaving and attendants come in to shift him off to the normal room. He looked at the time and it marked 10.30 in the morning. He has been unconscious for quite a sometime since last night so.He closed his eyes wanting some more time till his heavy head decides to get back to normal.
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Pooja came and sat next to his brother who was in a deep sleep. Meanwhile ajit walked here and there across the room in surging tension. They were in a frantic search of rohit whole night when a call from malabar hills of mumbai informed them of the mess rohit has gotten into. This hasn’t been a new thing for any member of sippy family but since it was ajit who took rohit with him to goa, he received an earful from his mother and YK both for being irresponsible.
“Bhaiyya teek honge naa ajit? Dekho naa baat bhi nahi karte.” Asked a worried pooja as she watched over rohit.
“Come on yaar pooji. Sedatives pe hein wo. Of course baat nahi karenge ab bhi.jeise wo medicines wear off honge usse hosh aayenge.lekin ghar jaate hi sab log mujhe mardalenege tum dekhlo.”
Pooja remained silent knowing ajit’s state of mind.
“Hadd hein yaar honestly.iss ke body pe kahi aur bhi bachaa hein kya chot lagneke. sar se peiro tak har ek din koi naya chot.upar se sharaab.peete nahi khudko uspe dhoobte hein. I am stupid ki I brought him here for a change.bade aaya away from the chaos I thought.nahi,yahaan aake bhi chaos pe chaos hein aur kuch nahi.YK mujhe itna dataa itna daata ki mujhe yaad bhi nahi hein ussne kya kahaata.”
“Ye ek police case honge kya?”
“Not till we put a case pooji,this is not a hit and run.car owner neh khud leke aaya hein bhai ko yahaan pe it seems.apparently apne saare details bhi dekar gaya hein it seems.but i said dr.chaudhry ki hume koi details nahi chahiye aur koi case nahi karne hein.aur karu bhi kese jab galati khud bhai ke hein. Iss tarha peeke khud inhone gaya hein gaadi ke saamne,un bechare car owner ke kya galti?”
Pooja nodded agreeing with ajit totally.
Their discussion stopped when they both noticed that rohit was slowly regaining consciousness. He stirred in sleep and slowly opened his eyes and both ajit and pooja moved closer to him.
“bhai...”
“Teek hoon....mein pooji...ajit tu bhi tension mat....le...” rohit said slowly.
“Thank goodness.ye lo paani piyo thoda.” Said pooja.
“Ajit mom ko kuch mat batade ok?” He said after sipping a little water.
“Really bhai? Aapko pata hein mom neh call kar khud batali hume aapke accident ke baaremein. We couldn’t even trace you. Pata hein kitna parishaan hua hein hum dono. Almost lost it we both.aur already isske sab inzaam bhi mujh par aaya hein aur aap keheraha hein ki....”
“What.how did mom get to know?”
“The car you got yourself hit,usske owner pechaante hein aapko. Aapke koi patient ki family hein.aapke aur humare ghar ke saare details unhone submit kiya hein admission ke wakt yahaan par. Eise hua hein sab.” Explained pooja.
Rohit waited trying to reminisce what happened. Nothing came to his head right now.
“Please bhai ab toh ye sab chod hi lo.kya karna kya chaate hein aap apne saat.aaj baal baal bachgaye,wo car ki log sahi samein aapko hospital lekar aaya hein. Warna pata nahi kya hojata....” blamed ajit in anger and rohit looked away from the window not wanting to argue.
“Meri galti hein ki mein ne yahaan aane ki zid ki.we should have got something from Mumbai for the wedding dress.ek kaam karte ajit? Mein naa order cancel karti hoon, jeise rohit discharge honge hum yaahan se nikhlenge.” Said pooja.
“Hey pooji. no no.eisa karnke koi sarroorat nahi hein.let’s get all your work done. aakhir jiss baat ke liye aaya hein wo poora karke bhagair yahaan se nahi jayenege hum.” Said rohit.
Pooja waited and nodded slightly. The nurse came and called them both for completing some formalities so they left the room and rohit dropped himself down to the pillow.
He knew something was incomplete. Well of course without her,everything was incomplete anyway although he yet hated to admit it. But why does he feel like this. Why does he feel like he just met her.like he was in contact with her just very recently.extremely recently.like few hours ago. Is it some mental picture that he felt like he spent few minutes on her lap,holding her waist and hiding his face in her embrace just like all the old days he loved to spend with her. Or is this the drowsiness due to the medications that was bringing him weird feelings like this.
What was it. He wondered. Closing his eyes unable to solve the puzzle that was troubling him,he took a deep breath in a disappointment.
“Please don’t move.your head is bleeding.”
“Kuch nahi hoga tume.hum bas pochne waale hein hospital.please....aakhe khol kar raho...please.”
“Sona....tum ho naa? Ye tum hi ho. Bas....tum aayi hein....ab.mujhe....jeena hein...tumari saat.....so mujhe marne mat do....sona....please...mere saat raho...please....”
He opened his eyes in a snap as those words rang inside his head and he found himself breathing fast. He had no idea when did that happen but he somewhere felt like that was real. And he had no doubt that it was her voice that begged him not to give up. And it was him who begged her the next in return.
Are near death experiences true? Did he actually imagine her at that very crucial moment. Or was that actually sonakshi? Did she hold him to her embrace and did she comforted him in her lap? Like all those days she used to do?
He felt his head heavy again, and he felt extremely weak. He thought of just going to give in to his drooping eyes for now and there he fell asleep.
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Next day morning after confirming that rohit is totally stable,he got discharged.it was the fourth day afternoon they were spending in goa and ajit and pooja decided to look after him the whole day staying in the hotel they were currently resided at. Rohit hated to be pampered like that but his siblings but he had no option than letting them stubborns at that moment.
Pooja was unpacking the hospital bag while ajit was calling the room service to order their lunch.
“Yeh packet kya hein ajit!?” Asked pooja and he finished his call looking that way.
“Oh ye,ye toh wahi sab hein jo bhai ki paas mila admit hote wakt. Wallet phone wagera.The staff gave me when we got there,bhai ye lo.Aur apna phone charge karo,mom call karengi.” Said ajit giving rohit the packet.
“Wahaan rakho.baad mein karte hoon charge.I’ll call mom from your phone.” Said rohit taking it and walking to the window nearby to talk to veena. Meanwhile pooja’s phone started ringing. She answered it to talk.
“Hi sharanya....arey seriously? Itni jaldi? Wo haan mein aaungi lekin kal aate toh teek hein naa? Hume thodi emergency aaya hein aur thodi busy hogayi hoon ussme. Yeah ok bye.” She disconnected excitedly.
“kya hua pooji?”
“Guess what ajit? Meri dress taiyyar hein.abhi sharanya ki call aayi hein.”
“What? Itni jaldi? par teri material wagera mangwaane chahiye taa naa unlogoko abroad se?”
“wahi toh.Sharanya ki dost france gayi thi aur kal subha hi lot aayi hein it seems. She has brought my material with her.so cool nah? They have stitched it within yesterday itself and She asked me if I could come back for fitting trial today. But I will go tomorrow nah? Bhaiyya ki tabiyat bhi teek nahi hein ab tak poore tarha se.”
said pooji and ajit agreed with a nod.
“What tabiyat!?” Asked rohit from behind,coming to them.
“I am alright naa pooji.don’t postpone your work. Go get it done.ajit tu bhi jaa uske saat.”
“haan jeise hum nikhalte aap phir jaakar peena shuru kar sakte tab right?” Said ajit sarcastically.
“shut up.don’t be an idiot.pooji listen you go.Get done with your work and come please. Go. Call sharanya and tell her that you are coming in a while.go.go.go.” Insisted rohit and the two finally agreed.
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Pata hein sona
Hmmm
You are lucky ki tume husband ki saat saat ek doctor bhi mila. Two in one.
Doctor nahi surgeon.
She says that and starts chuckling.
Heart surgeon.
He completes and they both starts to burst into a laughter while cuddling to each other under the duvet.
Sona...jab tum delivery pe hongi,mujhe easily theatre pe maujuud hone ko milenge, aakhir meri hi hospital mein honge.
Here you doctor surgeon...chaahe wo tumare hospital ho yaa naa ho....tume wahaan hona hi hoga.har mod pe saat dene ke kasam liya hein tum samje?
Ok mere drama queen wo sab chod lo. Of course honge naa tumari paas mein.Mujhe ek baat bataado....
Kya....
she turns to him with that and rests her head on his bare chest and he sends his arm around her waist and tightens her more to him.
Agar kabhi bhi...kissi bhi wakt....samjo ek naa ek din....mujhe kuch hua.... jeise koi bada saa accident....
Rohit.
She turns serious and glares at him.
Assumption meri jaan assumption.
I don’t like this discussion.
His hands move down to her soft abdomen underneath a little. And swiftly he runs his fingers over there. She shudders at his touch and his teasing fingers.
But you seem to like the other stuff amongst the discussion sona.
He says weighing on the word sona. She meets his eyes and he hovers to her level and nuzzles her nose with his.
Toh mein kehe raha tha ki...agar eisa din aayega,toh tum hongi naa mere saat?mere paas? Mere....
Nahi hongi mein.
She says and she looks angry. His face falls at her abrupt answer.
Kyun?
He asks as a disappointment surges through him.
She moves atop him and cups his cheeks with her hands.
Kyun ki mein kabhi hone nahi dungi eisa kuch tumare saat Rohit sippy.har dhard se har musibat se har takleef se tume bachaungi mein.
She says placing her lips on his forehead then and he weaves his hands around her waist feeling her flush against her like that and his eyes closes. He then feels her lips on his closed eyelids,each of them. He finds his breathes fastening and then she brushes her cheeks against his stubble and chuckles alone feeling it pinching her skin in the process. Her lips trails across his cheeks to just below his ear and he groans feeling the damning turn on she provides him shamelessly.
Sona don’t....
He says though he wants her to continue.
Liar,don’t play that game with me.
Lies nahi.....I....
He pauses not able to reply her, as he feels her nipping his skin just below his jaw.
With that he rolls her down underneath him.
Stop driving me crazy woman.
He orders and she starts laughing at the newest avatar that comes to his surface.
I love this bold doctor surgeon.
Aur fire hein tume dikhaane keliye iss bold doctor surgeon ke paas,don’t awaken the sher inside me.
He brushes his lips against her and she captures them lips with her again. Getting lost in themselves they make a world of their own.
Bolo phir se ki tum kabhi mujhe chod ke nahi jayengi.please sona.
He begs as if his life depends on her.heck it does depend on her.
Nahi jaungi rohit. Agar gayi bhi,mujhe pata hein ki har jagaah srif tume hi paungi mein.
Unable to sleep peacefully with the dreams of his memories,painful ones that is-right now coming overtly to him;he opened his eyes in frustration.
Kyun ki mein kabhi hone nahi dungi eisa kuch tumare saat Rohit sippy.har dhard se har musibat se har takleef se tume bachaungi mein.
Her voice. It rang in his head again. Remembering his daily unreverted desperate call to her irrespective of the hate he held for her,he then got up from the bed and walked to find where his phone was.
the so called hospital packet which contained his belongings post accident was lying on the dressing table yet and as he picked up and opened it he remembered that his phone is on dead battery. He cannot make outgoing calls from the hotel intercom anyways so he will have to wait a bit more till his mobile charges a bit.
“shit”
cursing under his breath in frustration he threw his phone aside and it went and crashed against the rest of the stuff in the packet and his wallet fell off of it.he picked it up but paused a moment seeing what was in his hand,of course his wallet yes but to the zipper of the wallet stuck something which looked very familiar but not belonged to him.
Sonakshi’s friendship band.
The same,which he made her wear on her wrist on their engagement.
The same,which she wore everyday throughout their marriage.
The same,which she never returned to him ever even after the day she left him.
There wasn’t a millisecond’s delay or even a minute doubt or a further questioning on that for him.
How on earth is this in his hands now, how did it get here.
Sonakshi?
“Please don’t move.your head is bleeding.”
“Kuch nahi hoga tume.hum bas pochne waale hein hospital.please....aakhe khol kar raho...please.”
“Sona....tum ho naa? Ye tum hi ho. Bas....tum aayi hein....ab.mujhe....jeena hein...tumari saat.....so mujhe marne mat do....sona....please...mere saat raho...please....”
Sonakshi.was.real.
Naa koi wehem naa koi sapna naa koi shak.
It was her. Last night it was she who brought him to the hospital.
She was here and I cuddled to her lap last night not wanting to let her leave me. Yes.
He sat down on the very place he stood,the band clutched to his chest tight.
We met.nashe ke halat mein sahi mile hein kal hum dono.she saw me and I almost saw her too,almost....off the senses.
He took the band into his cupped palms and smelled it and her scent which he perhaps can never forget filled his whole being.
Closing his eyes he wondered if he was laughing or crying exactly but however after awhile he realized he was doing the both a little,unable to register that they almost almost almost made it to each other after five freaking years.
Kyun ki mein kabhi hone nahi dungi eisa kuch tumare saat Rohit sippy.har dhard se har musibat se har takleef se tume bachaungi mein.
So she kept her word?
He got up frantically plugging the phone to the charger wanting to make a desperate call. He didn’t know how he managed to wait till it switches on after reaching the least precent it needed,but once it did,he dialled the number as fast he could. And at the end of that call,his confirmed assumption had turned into a factual reality.
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One hour later,rohit reached the place he wanted to.located in a little of outskirts of goa, he realized he has come to the place he wanted to come.
“Sir address ke mutabein yehi kahi honge wo ghar.”
He heard the driver saying and he got down.
Opening the crumpled piece of paper he clutched in his hand till now,he reread the already byhearted details for the umpteenth time.collected from the hospital and written into a paper in his weary handwriting were the details of owner of the car he met with an accident that night,of his rescuer not once but many a times,of sonakshi rastogi....sippy,of his so called “late” wife.
World-0 Rohit Sippy-1, he gave an evillish smile silently.
He was right,she didn’t die. He knew she cannot. She just cannot.
happy?angry?mad?relieved? He didn’t know what he was feeling.
Walking down the little lane he checked for the correct number of the house address and there at the end of the lane,he found it.
Her house.
His heart skipped a weird beat as familiarity gushed over him invisibly but sensationally. In a minute, I will see her,soberly this time. After five years. He thought to himself.
How would she react? The same as the last day she talked to him? Or the same as the days they were in mad love with each other? Or the same as the days they were best friends? How? And how will he react?
He paused as he found himself walking to the door.
Who the hell cares how will we react? Aaj man mein kuch nahi hein toh jo hona hein wo hone dena chahiye.
He pressed the bell once. A silence. He pressed it again impatiently. Only a silence.
Third ring and with that he also crashed his palm against the door few a times. Then only he noticed the lock outside the door. He realized there is no one in. She isn’t here. Has she gone away again? Did he fail to reach in time? Or did she lie on her whereabouts as usual the liar she is?
He sat down on the doorstep and took a deep sigh.
In one hand,yahi toh hona hi ta. Aakhir hamesha ki tarha wo mein hoon jo uske peeche pade rahe hein.she never wanted me.He thought to himself leaning back his head against the door. dhamki dekar gayi hein ki kabhi uske peeche nahi aanekeliye phir bhi har subha teek uske hi number try karke it was me who went after her,while hating her. Bewakoof. He said to himself with a mocking laugh. He honestly felt so damn lost,alone than usual and hope broken though he didn’t even know what his hope was in the first place.
Bas usse milne ki chaahat se aaya hoon,aur wo bhi adhura hi reh gaya.
Chaahat?
“Aap bhi.shyaada gussha mat ho aur gumshudha mat ho. Agar ho bhi gaya ho,yaad rakhna mein aapko apne manzil tak phir lekhe aaungi.”
her sweet voice saying that filled his ears. he found himself smiling at the thought of her itself. Toh wo hein jo Ab mujhe teek kar sakte hein.
He took his phone out and dialled ajit’s number.
“Tum log ab tak taqdeers mein hein kya?......Haa wahi rukho mein bhi aaungi thodi dher mein.” He ended the call and got up to leave.
Walking a few steps he turned and looked back at the door.
“Chalte hoon mein,sona.”
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“I am so sorry pooja,if I knew that you were going to come,I would have brought your dress when I was coming here in the morning.”
“No no it’s ok.mein ne tumse kahaan ki mein kal hi aaungi aur aaj aate wakt call bhi nahi kiya naa mein.its okay sharanya don’t worry hum wait karenge.” Replied pooja to and ajit came to them.
“Bhai ka call aaya hein jab mein cafe mein hote wakt. He is going to come too.” Said ajit handing over the two cups of coffee he brought for pooja and sharanya from downstairs.
“That is great. Rohit ka bhi feedback le sakte hein right.” Said pooja excitedly and they got interrupted by a voice behind.
“Hi guys.”
“Bhai long life haan abhi abhi aapko yaad hi kiya hein.” Said ajit.
“Mujhe laga ki tum log kaam katam karke aaya bhi honga hotel mein aur...” rohit said but pooja interrupted.
“Aaya bhi honga matlab? Kyun aap hotel mein nahi tha kya ab tak?”
“bhai aap phirse akhele baahar gaya kya.what man!? Come on.”
Both the sister and brother started ranting.
Rohit stayed silent without replying,not wanting to talk about it.then he looked around searching for chaahat.
“Miss sharanya aapki beti nahi aayi aaj?”Asked him feeling a need of talking his heart out to the little one.
“meri beti?” Asked sharanya.
“Bhai chaahat ko doond rahe hein.” Said pooja. Sharanya nodded with a smile.
“Wo....actually chaahat meri beti nahi hein.....”
“What!?” All three remaining people infront of her asked,so stunned.
Rohit of all them,was really shocked and his heart had some ajeeb kind of feeling which he couldn’t depict what.
“Sharanya I am sorry,I mean wo tume maa keheti hein all the while aur humne socha.....”
“No pooja. Darasar chaahat meri achchi dost ki beti hein. Uske naate mein uski mausi hoon par aap logo to pata hein uski batein ke baaremein.usse mausi kehena nahi aati,pehele maashi kehe kar bulati rehethi mujhe aur baadmein shi part bhi drop kiya aur maa kehenaa shuru kiya....”
Ajit and pooja chuckled hearing that but rohit was staying listening to that as it is. Something was stirring inside his heart and he felt very weird all of a sudden.Yet he was not able to figure it out.
“Aur Mr.rohit aap thoda wait keejiye.chaaht aajayengi.Kyun ki pooja ke dress lekar aarahi hein uski mumma yahaan pe aur i am sure wo bhi saat aati hi hogi.”
Said sharanya jutting rohit back to the reality from his lost status.
“oh so wo France se meri material leke aayi thi wo aapki dost hein?” Asked pooja.
“Yes,in fact ye uski boutique hein aur mein ne baad mein involve hui thi apni college katam karke,paanch saal se jaanti hoon usse.” completed sharanya.
They were talking about random things while rohit wondered at the sudden revelation of chaahat. There’s definitely something amiss. What it is?
“Mishter shipppppppy!!!!”
There was a scream at the the entrance breaking his trance and everyone turned that way. Rohit forgot every trouble in his head seeing the little girl storming her way to him like a mini toofan making him smile wide.
“Shaitan ke naam lete hi shaitan present ma’am kehediya hein.”
Said ajit and all burst into a laughter.
“Hato hato hato ranveer shingh mujhe mishter shippy ki paash reach karni hein jaldiiiii.”
She said running among the little crowd wanting to reach her friend as soon as she can.
The next moment she reached him,and hugged him with her tiny hands tight and he scooped her off the floor into his arms and started twirling her around,making her give out baby chuckles.
“Easy easy easy my baby.saas lelo pehele.kahaaan bhaagti hein aap itni jaldi mein?” He asked holding her tiny nose.
“mumma....aur mein cat....and moushe play karti thi....She wash chashing me lekin mein.....itni tez bhaagti thi ki usshe mujhe pakadneki mauka nahi mila.aur mein.....jeetgayi.....yay!!!! Mein best hoon naa?” She cheered.
“How sweet.Haa Mere chaahat is the best.” he said planting a kiss on her cheek.
“Mumma kahaan hein baby?” Asked sharanya and rohit turned towards sharanya letting chaahat answer her question.
the little one opened her mouth to answer but a voice that just came in halted everything.
“Arey.kitni dhoor bhaagi mujhse aap.chaahat,not fair baby.”
There was a whole silence in there after that and rohit felt weak in his legs just as that voice reached him from behind. He knew everything else that happened till now could be an imagination,but what he just heard cannot be,at any cost. No way. There is no way on this freaking earth that he will make a mistake in recognizing that voice.
He turned his head sideways,unable to do anything else that moment. He saw ajit and pooja’s face that was pale as a white paper and he knew that he was right.
“Mumma!!!!” Exclaimed chaahat while being in his hands as he turned to face the bearer of the voice and nothing was remaining as a doubt anymore.
It was her.
Standing at the door was her.
Sonakshi.
Their eyes met finally after five years,with more and more realities dawning upon them, this moment being the biggest of them all.
“Bhabhi!?”
He heard pooji and ajit uttering in unison but not for a moment the gaze they shared broke. He and she stayed locked in each other’s eyes and rohit assured to himself that his heart had indeed stopped beating.
He tried to gulp down to help his throat get rid of the lump that is stuck in it but failed a big time. Everything seemed to go blur for him except for the site of her, dressed in something yellow and her hair running loose down her sides,in a way he always used to love to see her in.and he in a trance found himself walking towards her then.
As every step he took near her,from the first moment he saw her at the set to the last moment he saw her in his room five years ago,everything started coming and going into and out of his head in an extremely rapid manner. Her smiles,their cuddles, their cute fights,their kisses and how they loved each other for one whole night.... every little thing and now chaahat. Every ends of the broken chain were meeting.
Sonakshi who had received the biggest shock she could ever go through stared at the person who was advancing towards her,holding her baby daughter in his arms. The bags she carried had slipped off her hands and she felt like everything was stopped; the times,her breaths and heartbeat and everything.Two nights before,this very same person bled in her arms begging her not to leave him in a state of inebriation and she alone knew how she embraced him to her frame and planted kisses between that ruffled hair while he was unconscious.she just couldn’t stop herself that night seeing him like that after half a decade and she alone knew how she came home from hospital, hugged her sleeping little daughter and bursted into tears all alone.and now there he was,once again,at the most unexpected place at the most unexpected time holding the most unexpected person in his arms like this.
And he was now standing right infront of her staring directly into her eyes and she wondered what will happen next to them both.Rohit didn’t move a muscle of his face and gave no expression whatsoever,fearing sonakshi even more. Silently and putting her to further amazement,he handed over chaahat to her,and she in a trance remembered taking her to her arms as he did that.moving dangerously close to her,he peeped into her eyes fiercely.and that one look shuddered her like it used to do whenever he was close to her.
“Ussne nahi bhaagi tumse dhoor,tumne bhaagi thi mujhse dhoor.not fair right,Ms.rastogi.”
He uttered before storming out of there,leaving them all and leaving her as she felt her whole being shaken to the core.
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Rohit kicked opened his room door and entered in. His whole body shivered in an anger he had no control over. He had no idea how or when or where he came now, he just felt so crazy.
“inshtant noodlesh kaane ki mood aayi aur mein toh food court jaa rahi thi.”
“Matlab aap ek Doctor hoon?”
“Doctor nahi surgeon.”
“Arey ek hi toh baat hein.”
“It wash naish meeting you too,doctor shurgeon.”
“Kyun mein,Doctor shippy ki taqdeer hoon.”
“Toh pakka meri mumma ki yaad aayi hogi aapko.shab log kehete hein ki mein bohot milte hoon mumma she.”
“Mumma kehti hein ki meri kuch adaa paapa she mila hua hein...”
“Jeise?”
“Jeise ki nange pau jaati ho to mujhe jaldi zukaam hoti hein.aur.....agar neend mein thoda sha bhi meri poshture badli toh meri neck shtrain ho jaati hein....aur mujhe naa karela thoda sha bhi nahi pashand.....aur inshtant noodlesh ke alaawa meri favorite kaana hein...dhokla aur shamosa.....”
“aap aur meri paapa related hein shaayad then.”
“Kya aapko meri ish cream chahiye? No no no,mein apni ish cream kisshi ki shaat share nahi karti.”
“Bhai aapko pakka yakeen hein naa ki aap ne apni beti ko nahi koi kissi maha kumbmehla mein?”
“It’sh not needed for you to know what you need mishter shippy.kyun ki mein,yaaniki chaahat jaanti hoon ki aapka chaahat kya hein.Aur aapke chaahat aapke shona ko waapas paanekaa hi hein.”
He didn’t have anyomore doubts on anything, he wasn’t a fool to know who he was holding in his arms awhile back,who has he been friends with all these few days since he came to goa,who has he been depending on to get his broken heart at least a bit better. There was no question of why he felt that bonded that familiar that close that dear to the little human being he held in his hands.
Chaahat.
She was his.His baby.his blood.
The beautiful result of the first and last night he and sonakshi spent loving each other.
He felt his eyes turning wet,the sense of knowing a part of him has come into his world, his own little baby, the look alike of the one he used to love all his life.
All that doubts he had on her about how can she be so much like sonakshi now had an answer.it wasn’t a mere coincidence but it was the reality he was unaware of, no, actually it was the reality he was made unaware of. By the very person he loved beyond boundaries.
Five years. Five damn years. He has missed feeling her tiny kicks against his wife’s stomach,he had missed her being born, he had missed her first step,he had missed her first word and he had missed her for five freaking years.
And sonakshi did that to him.she kept me away from my baby girl. He could have ignored all what she did to him. All what she did. But not this.not this.Never. All this while He has been suffering without knowing what his fault was.and this,top of all was his right to know about his baby but the one he loved has brutally ripped off his heart into pieces by hiding the biggest truth in his life.
Tears of betrayal rolled down his stubble and he felt his whole being going on fire.what was my freaking fault to go through all these? He thought gritting his teeth and pulling his hair meantime. It felt like sonakshi has poured venom all over him and turned him to a devil who is going to destroy every freaking thing.Yes he was evil for all this five years,but now even he couldn’t figure out who he was. And he didn’t want to either. He fisted his palms in anger,wanting to punch everything that comes in his way.his red eyes looked at his reflection in the mirror before him,he saw a person whom even he couldn’t recognize infront of him. His lips quivered in the anger that was surging through him so fast and there his punched his fist on the mirror and it broken into zillion pieces.
He didn’t know what and what he punched at and what else he threw down and crashed into pieces. He saw scattered glass pieces everywhere which had his blood painted in red atop them but he didn’t even feel a pain. He was broken,too broken this time and this betrayal wasn’t something he is going to bear at whatever cost it would take.
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Sonakshi opened the lock from one hand and pushed open her door as her little baby,her chaahat was asleep on her shoulder already. The tears that tried to surface from the moment she saw him were trying their luck again but she held on. Held on as usual.
Silently she closed the door behind her and carried the little one to the bedroom. Placing her on her little bed,amongst her favourite soft toys she covered her with the little comforter. A tiny hair strand fell into her eyes and sonakshi carefully wiped it away fearing that it will disturb her beauty sleep.
Chaahat.
Her life, her reason for being alive, her everything she was.
The little one who may look like her as everyone says but who shamelessly carries all her paapa’s traits that were constantly reminding her of him.The living being who gave her hope by starting to grow inside her when she had given up all the hopes of being alive after everything crashed down to the ground infront of eyes. Most importantly when she,sonakshi herself was the one who crashed everything to the ground with her own hands.
Chaahat was the only living proof she had in her hands about the extent she went with him on that beautiful night where she gave her everything to him.
To her rohit.
And today,after all this years,he has come back,and the mockery of life was wonderful that he has met and bonded with his daughter already,way too early before she knew about it.
His eyes expressed all the hate he caged in for her at the moment he left. She remembered again. That hate is something she survived all this years just by feeling it but today when she saw it with her own eyes,she just couldn’t bear it. She couldn’t. She just couldn’t. A minute sob escaped her lips but she tightened her palm against her lips.Not wanting to make her baby awake by her about to burst out tears she quietly stood up and left that room to go to hers.
Walking across the hallway she entered her dark room closing the door behind her and locked herself in,wanting to burst out into tears. And against the door she rested her head and started sobbing so badly then,unable to bear this torture anymore. She felt weak, and she knew her rohit would be even hating the site of her now and all the minute hopes she had about their togetherness when he begged her to be with her at the night of the accident went haywire today seeing that rage in his eyes she remembered. And that made her sob more and even more.
“Saalo gaye hein lekin tumari nautanki skills ab bhi intact hein ms.rastogi.”
Her sobs got stuck at that and she turned back to where that voice came from, but there was only darkness.
And in a second through the darkness,appeared he.Rohit sippy.And even in the pitch blackshe clearly saw his bloodshot eyes burning her with a deathly glare.
The next moment his hands caught her shoulders as tightly as it never has been before and he pinned her to the wall not letting her even move an inch. The gap between them was just a little space where their breaths mingled with each other and she felt her inhaled breath got stuck at where it was owing to the force he pulled her with.
“Aur aaj,tumari har ek nautanki ka anth kardunga,mein. hamesha keliye.”
He hissed dangerously at her as chills ran down her spine.
Chapter title credits: bekhayali (kabir singh 2019)
Edited by wasuthecrazy - 5 years ago
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