Hi all,
Here is my take on Sonakshi’s side of the story. If you have not read Rohit’s version you can find it in the link below. Advise to read Rohit’s side first.
https://www.indiaforums.com/forum/topic/5118018#151403740
Also not making this mature, but please note there are sensitive themes below.
OS: Letting Go!
He told her to leave, he didn’t look at her he just said leave. Was she crazy to believe him when he said he loved her, should she have asked about Raima when he had said I love you! How did she get it wrong again? Karan was never mind but Rohit had said to trust him, he will always be there to support her. Guess he forgot to add in the words unless Raima comes back.
She did not want to hear anything else, she gave her Mumma back her bangle, she had given to her as a blessing and she walked out the door. She was glad no one had followed her. Mumma has stopped Pulkit from following, him and Pari did not know what had happened that night.
She needed to breathe everything inside her was breaking, she had taken the keys from Shankar and drove away. She didn’t go to the park because she could not risk Rohit finding her, she didn’t have the strength to listen to any accusations or explanations. He never asked about that night and what happened to her, maybe I was just a replacement till Raima came back into his life.
She had driven to a little place hidden behind film city, not many people know about it. Once she had stopped the car the tears hadn’t stopped. She was trying to breathe and control her emotions but nothing was working. She didn’t know how long she had been there but she was tired, everything over the last 4 years seem to catch up with her she was tired of being strong. That’s when a hand touched her shoulder, it was Nikhil. Her doctor/ fake friend, for the last 4 years he has been one person that has know everything in her life and through it there was a friendship that had formed but he was her doctor and that is why he knew.
He hugged me and let me cry. Eventually we started to drive, it was slightly ironic that as he drove, the sun started to shine was the new day mocking me or reminding me that Rohit is only one part of my life. Nikhil took me to his house and told me to rest. I did not have to go anywhere, as I had been given the day off from shooting and everything else did not matter.
I didn’t know if I had slept or not but it was 11am. I had checked my phone not a single message from Rohit. Stupid me, that was the last bit of hope that it might have been some crazy nightmare. I felt a tear roll down my cheek, Nikhil came into the room. I didn’t have to hide any emotion, he told me to shower and left a pair of clothes for me.
As I showered I felt my scar from 4 years ago, it was the only reminder left and that was one to many.
Flashback
Everything came rushing back, every memory that I had tried to erase. She felt trapped like she had done 4 years ago, helpless and destroyed. It was a day she wanted to forget the day had started wrong. Karan had come to her house around midday drunk, she had a night shot so still hadn’t left for the day she was playing the leads sister. Pari and Pulkit were at school and Mumma had gone get food for dinner.
Karan staggered into the house, I told him to leave but he wouldn’t listen. He pushed me onto the couch. I tried to push him off, but he grabbed my hands and said “ I’m going to make you mine.” As I struggled he pulled my top and ripped it. Tears had started to flow and I begged him to stop and he pulled down my bra. I was trying to stop him as bruises began to form on my arm and around my chest as he bit me. I don’t know if it was luck or him being drunk he loosened his grip giving me a chance to push him onto the floor and gave me a chance to run into the bathroom and lock the door. I was terrified and then Mumma came home. I heard Karan excuse himself and leave.
I switched on the shower to hide my tears but also to get rid of his touch off my body. I couldn’t believe it was it because he was drunk or was this what he was like always and I had not noticed. As I walked out the shower I saw all the bruises on my skin. I had to get to work, I didn’t have time to have a break down.
I had gotten on with my day when I got a call about Karan, it was some random girl. She had mentioned he had been cheating on me but all I was thinking was I cannot let what happened with me today happen to another girl. I drove to the address and ran upstairs to the flat. I had confronted Karan and he had thrown the ring at me, it had become an open wound. I didn’t know there was anyone else here, but I needed to leave. As I was leaving my Blood pressure dropped and I collapsed falling down the stairs.
I remember making a phone call and that was it. Nikhil had come there and he had seen Raima, he had helped her but done the minimum as a doctor and called an ambulance and he came to find me. Karan had either left me or didn’t know, but it didn’t matter, Nikhil had found me and had taken me to the hospital. He had waited for the ambulance as I was responding but he made a choice to chose me as a patient and leave Raima there.
After what had happened Mumma has asked me to stay quiet as Karan had threatened her. She made me make a choice and I had agreed but if the girl was alive and accused Karan, I would not protect him. Nikhil had completed my medical exam and had asked me to evidence what had happened if I chose to press charges.
Present Day
As I stepped out the shower, I didn’t know if I had the strength to carry on. Karan might have physically hurt me, but Rohit seemed to have emotionally broken me. I had trusted him with everything, I guess it was one sided.
As I spoke to Nikhil and bared my thoughts to him, he just listened and never judged. He managed to get me to take things one day at a time.
A few weeks later Rohit had tried to call, I didn’t know why was it cause I had told Deepa Chachi the truth about Karan and what happened to me. I didn’t want to find out if it was cause of the proof. I changed my number, I didn’t have it in me to be his friend or know about him and Raima. I was being selfish but I had to protect myself
I had bumped into Pooja as she was shooting for another ad in film city. There were parts of my life still connected to Rohit but she had told me he doesn’t know and no one in the house knows what had happened. She was respectful and did not mention Rohit, though she had said it was not the same without her. Her and Ajit had forcefully taken me to dimmer one night, I thought it might be a setup to talk to Rohit but they were both great. They just wanted to hangout and laugh at stupid jokes. They had met Nikhil and Pulkit as I had called them to the dinner in case Rohit was there.
His family had started to help me heal, It was the 6th November and I had made the decision to listen to what Mumma had decided, I had tried to follow my heart and both times I was left wounded, some scars that could be seen and others that were hidden. Nikhil had offered to take Rohit’s things back. He had his own motive to check on Raima if she was there. As a doctor he wanted to know she was okay as the guilt of his choice was always on his mind. It was going to be the 7th November her 29th Birthday. She wanted to start her new year with a new start.
She had asked her mom to postpone the engagement announcement, she wasn’t ready. Suman had agreed because she also knew it wasn’t right. The party was in full swing with all her loved ones around her. I had felt something when I was talking to Nikhil’s wife, it was as if someone was watching me I looked around but saw no one.
She was happy with the small birthday celebration, as she went to see off a guest. She was surprised, she heard Rohit’s voice. “Can I talk to you for a minute, please?” She nodded, it had been 7 weeks since she had seen him or heard his voice. “Umm...I never blamed you, I knew you were innocent but it is not an excuse but I was in shock that day. You didn’t give me a chance to explain and I understand why I broke your trust again but I still love you and just wanted a chance to wish you ever happiness in the world. Anyone that has a chance to be a part of your life will be the luckiest person, I just wanted you to know I believed in you. I have not asked for any proof or explanation because I know you and anything that happened in the past you can put behind you and move on. Be happy always Sona and take care” he kissed my forehead and left.
She could not react, she was overwhelmed with emotion. Watching him walk away was difficult and she wasn’t sure if she had got closure or all she wanted to do was get lost in this embrace and forget everything. Though one thing was certain she wanted him to be happy.
End
I did not make it a happy ending, but I do hope in terms of mental health Sonkashi had built a support system without realising and so if you are struggling please ensure you talk to someone, even if there is no solution talking about it is a good start.
Anupamaa
