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Hiii guys it's me d late n bakwas queen again😳 Yeah yeah I'm giving u my today's bakwas topic🤢
Few days ago I came across this song "Do naina ki ek kahani" n loved it😊 So thought of writing an OS on this one. But I had nooo idea ki kya likhu😛 To socha meri friends pr thodi torture kr leti hu
To jo dimag me aya ulta sidha ( I really mean it, Ulta Sidha n Completely Bakwas ) likh diya😆
If u have lotsss of free time n really have an urge to waste it then read on your risk😉
Suggestion before reading - Plzzz keep d patthar, juta n tamatar ready nearby. I'm pretty sure u will need them to bang my head after reading this😡 😲
I have no idea what originally happened in d movie in this scene. This story is a fiction of my bakwas, jobless n torturous mind 🤣
The Story Of A Pair Of Eyes
She threw herself on d bed thinking of d lame game that life brought her. Her shattered self was nothing but a living proof of d cruel world. It was just another night where she bathed d pillow with her hot streams. The darkness of d room was nothing compared to d ocean of darkness that her broken heart was sinking in. Still after almost an hour of shedding d bitter pearls she decided to let out d pain in her "Dill ki panna" (diary) as it was d only place where she could put her thoughts, her pain n all d anguish in Words. It seemed like God had made her River of Agony in d upwards way instead of making it downwards, that all d huge scary waves of agony from d sea kept barging into d small river making it overflow n never closing d way. Why does this agony river of her heart always keep flooding?! Why couldn't it be flowing from the river to sea maintaining d balance like every normal people?!!
Clasping d pillow with her left hand, her free hand reached d bed side lamp to turn it on. Still lying on her stomach she brought d diary close to her chest to write about her another day's experience of being a mohra (chessman) of life's gameplay. This diary has been d evidence of pouring of her all heartfelt pain since d past two years. She turned another page of it as d pen in her hand felt like a feather craving to fly with d storm of thoughts of its owner. Her tears kept falling abundantly from her hazel orbs soaking d cream coloured pages all d while the diary was getting marked in various designs in d form of syllables to show her heartache.
* In Diary * -
27/8/15
Here I am again to tell a story, or just d nuts n bolts of my life to my only friend whom I can Actually talk to, like in Words. Life is fair in its own way when it comes to being unfair to a girl like me. No, don't think that I'm trying to pity myself because I'm not! I've accepted every situation life has put me through. Be it my health or my love. But why... why do I feel it??? Why can't I stop feeling it!!! Why do I feel bad when he did the same thing he did two years ago??? He ignored me. Again. I knew he would've. Then why did that slight ray of hope emerged into my heart??? And when that ray was blown out why did it feel like my life has scattered into pieces!!! Why does my heart keep wanting d thing that I know wide awake I can't have. It's right in front of my eyes, I can see it clearly then why do I keep tying my eyes with d fantasy cloth??? Why don't these damn tears stop???!!!
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Her tears were constantly flowing freely along her cheeks.
~ BGM ~
Do naina aur ek kahani
Thoda sa baadal Thoda sa pani
Aur ek kahani
{ Two eyes n a story
Little clouds (kohl), some water (tears)
And one story }
Choti si do jhilon mein woh
Behti rehti hai
Koi sune ya na sune
Kehti rehti hai
Kuch likhke aur kuch zubani
Thoda sa baadal Thoda sa pani
Aur ek kahani
Do naina aur ek kahani
{ In two small lakes (watery eyes)
It keeps floating
Whether someone's listening or not
It keeps telling d story
Some of it is written n some of it is spoken out
Little clouds, some water
And one story }
Her tears were flowing vigorously n breathing got stuck as all d past incidents keep flashing in front of her eyes. Each n every moment of d past was making her heart burst with pain. For a moment it felt like she has to drag her hand to write farther as d burden of emotion was too heavy. She cussed herself out because her heart kept shouting all d feelings but her state of mind couldn't find d perfect words to pen them down. So she just wrote d cramped scattered little words that came into her brain to express her inner turmoil but again they weren't enough.
* Diary *
Destiny! This destiny! For all d other people it's a rollercoaster ride with ups n downs but in my case it only moves in circles. It just keeps taking me to d same place again n again. Today again it made me stood in d same place which I left behind two years ago. Yeah, I just said that I left behind but honestly I never really did. He left me two years ago also with ignorance just like today but I just couldn't close my heart's door for him. I kept loving him in these two years. Why should I say just these two years?! I loved him my whole life. But he never did. Why would he? Why would he love a girl like me!!! There's nothing in me for him to love. He couldn't even hear me saying "I love u" even if he did. But I just could never stop loving him. From d childhood he was d only one who ever made me feel Normal. But that was not d only reason for me to love him. I loved him for who he was. I knew he didn't love me. He never would. That didn't hurt d most. What hurt d most was he didn't even look at me when he was leaving. Forget smiling as a friend! Today again d same thing happened. Only difference was that today he came back. But that incident didn't change. It was like time was repeating itself. Today again he just walked past me. And...
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Writing upto this much her tears stopped and then d next moment she broke down into loud cries. Slowly her cries turned into sobs as d past memories n d pain they brought along were being too much to handle. The phenomenon of the day he left for London was going on n on in her mind. The date was just d same, only d year was two digits back. Yeah it was 27th August, 2013. A day when her last hope shattered but still her heart kept d flame enkindled.
She had also gone to d airport to see him off as d two families were very close since their grandparents n then parents were also business partners. She went there with her mom n dad hoping that day he'd atleast say a 'Goodbye'. But no, that also turned out to be just a dream or maybe d word daydream would fit better in her situation.
They were friends since they learnt how to share toys, even before they learnt walking or talking. They'd always be there for each other, be it teasing or supporting. They laughed together, sung together n cried together. Their friendship was something everyone smiled at. But again destiny would never miss a chance to devastate her life with an unfortunate event. But fortunately this one only made their friendship stronger. He was d only one who treated her like a human when she lost her speaking ability at d age of fourteen when some people treated her like a fragile doll n some treated her like an alien. Not being able to speak since birth n losing voice at d age of fourteen, suddenly in d growing years r two completely different things. He was there with her throughout her recovery period after that accident when she would break down or would be upset not hearing d words her lips n tongue were shaping. She could hear every single word everyone said but just not her own. He never needed to hear some words to understand what she was trying to say, just by looking at her face he would know what she meant. This friendship only grew stronger n stronger n soon after two or three years she realized that she had fallen in love with him. She had always loved him since the day she came to know about Love. She couldn't live without him but she knew she had to. She could never tell him about her feelings because it scared her. It scared her that this could destroy their friendship n take him away from her forever. Few more years passed by n then her life took that miserable drastic turn. She never understood what happened out of d blue that changed him this much. He started shutting her out of his life. He stopped everything. Every freaking thing that would indicate they were still friends. Nothing. Yeah she felt like 'nothing' was d only word left in her life. In that one n a half month before going to London he never ever visited her let alone talking! Finally that day came. She went to d airport with a rock heavy heart not knowing when she'd see him again. She wasn't even sure whether she'd ever see him again. She didn't know how she'd survive.
She'll never be able to forget d memory of that day. Untill today she thought it was her worst nightmare. She stood there n he came. He bid goodbye to everyone, every single one except her. He hugged his n her parents, smiled at all but ignored her. Ignored her like a statue. He walked past her as if she was invisible. Not paying any heed to her teary eyes he kept forwarding. Since when her tears didn't bother him??? She just kept staring at him in disbelief with a shattered heart. Not even a single Goodbye!!!
Her eyes were d witnesses of her life's futility. Those hopeless pair of eyes had to watch all d movements. She gazed at him helplessly trying hard to barricade those salty water rivers from flooding as he moved to check-in.
That was d first time she ever felt that much helpless for not having her voice. She never ever complained or blamed fate for her situation. She accepted n bravely won every challenge life threw at her. But that was d only time when she felt defeated. She just wanted to speak once. She prayed to God to give her her voice back even only for a minute. No, she didn't want her voice back to confess her feelings or beg him to stop. She wanted it back because she wanted to call his name. Just once. If only that malpractice didn't happen seven years ago from that day. If only that stupid doctor didn't accidentally cut her voice cord during another simple surgery which she needed due to a very common infection. She wouldn't have lost her speaking ability. They said they were extremely sorry for this mistake, like that would make her life d way it was before! They said they'd try to reconstruct d vocal folds n few other medical lingos but nothing worked. Nothing could fix it. Oh God she would've given anything away if she could just speak once in that moment. She wanted to scream his name, her love's name once. She wanted to scream "Jalaaal" on top of her lungs. But no, how can her life give her even a little bit of peace! Her heart wrenched watching his retreating figure. Only she knew how she had controlled her sobs..
Thodi si hai jani hui
Thodi si nayi
{ Some part of d story is known
Some of it is new }
Jaha ruke aansoo wahi
Puri ho gayi
{ Whenever d tears stop
The story ends too }
Hai to nayi phir bhi hai purani
{ It is new yet it is old }
ho Thoda sa baadal
Thoda sa pani
Aur ek kahani
{ Some clouds
Some water
And one story }
* Diary *
He had broken my heart into million pieces that day. But still that emotion called Love didn't go away from my heart. I never understood why my love for him never stopped even after that. Whenever I closed my eyes in these two years it pictured his face only.
Why couldn't it be just that way! I had accepted that too. Then why did destiny made me stand in front of d same door again? Wasn't that incident enough that today's one has also added to it in a more cruel n bitter way! Wasn't all these years being abandoned by my love enough that he had to... he had to do what he did today?
Well, the joke is on me actually. Stupid me. How could I imagine that he'd smile or atleast look at me today! He came back form Lodon today. Nothing has changed. He didn't change a bit outwardly n inwardly. He left when he was 21 now he is 23 n he still looks d same only more handsome. He came out of d airport n just repeated d history. He was greeted by everyone with lots n lots of smiles. Uncle Aunty Maa Papa everyone was joyful. I went forward too. When he just didn't pay attention n moved forward subsiding me. He again evaded me shattering d hope n breaking my heart farther. And to add more to it he kept walking with a big grin on his face n... n hugged that Sakeena. That... that b**ch who could never stop bullying me in high school. I wondered if I was dead?? Why wasn't I dead!!!
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Her tears trickled down desperately. Yeah she preferred being dead than watching her love ignoring her like vapour n loving that b**ch she hated with all her life. Why these things only happened to her!..
Do naina aur ek kahani
Ek khatm ho
To dusri raat aa jati hai
Hothon pe phir bhuli hui
Baat aa jati hai
{ Two eyes n a story
When one night ends
The other night comes
The words that r forgotten crosses my lips again }
The morning rays made her squeeze her eyes. Something else on her face disturbed her too. That touch seemed so familiar. She didn't realized when her eyelids close last night while crying. She slowly opened her eyes to get d biggest shock of her life. For a second she thought she was dreaming but soon realized it was real when she heard him calling her "Jo.." in that same affectionate voice while tugging her some hair strands behind her ear n caressing her head. She couldn't believe it was him sitting near her. Her eyes gleamed with fresh tears. She couldn't comprehend whether they were out of happiness or hurt. Maybe an amalgam of both. She just kept staring at him with drizzly eyes.
Do nainon ki hai ye kahani
{ This is the story of a pair of eyes }
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