Chapter-41
Jalal's' Manor
Bedroom
It seemed like a long time before Jalal emerged from the refresher, but perhaps it only seemed that way because she felt on edge the instant he was out of her sight and wouldn't look away from the refresher door until he was out. When he did finally come out, he half-stumbled into her arms as if he were about to faint.
"Honey?..Carefully" Jodha reacted with a worried look who was arranging beddings on appropriate places.Jalal gave her a dreamy look.
"I'm fine . . . legs're just a little weak . . ." Jodha quickly threw his arm over her shoulder and started leading him back to the bead.
"I think you've been overworking your muscles.They're not used to movement right now.You aren't regained your full strength.That's why this feeling of weakness.
""Yeah, well, I didn't exactly have a choice when my wife instructing me, did I?" asked Jalal lovingly at Jodha with making a baby face
"Well you have a choice now,"Jodha chuckled and said as she sat Jalal down on the cushion of bed and sat next to him.But he readily enveloped his hands around her belly and collapsed on the her lap.Jodha giggled beautifully at his act and skimmed her soft fingers through outlines of his face.She started to talking...
"You know Jodha,you are so so beautiful" confessed Jalal caressing wisps of Jodha's silky hair.Her cheecks instantly turned pink by his compliment as she alway do and answered back
"I know that"
"Have I said this before ?" asked Jalal in wondering.
"Oh several times.I can't even count it" chuckled Jodha while rubbing her thumb against his dimples."
"I see,but can't remember it.Anyway I want you continue narrating rest of my details"
"Job details ?" She put forth a question.
"Obviously.Because I can remember almost every thing about you.But can't memorize about my company and my Job"
"It Will come Baby, but slowly because Your memories are scattered in the form of fragments.You don't need to worry it now.See I'm with you and about your company..Hmm...You are working in MGI as Managing Director.You have a car model etc..." Jodha shared every information with him.Meanwhile Jalal tried catch her every words cautiously.As fifteen minutes passed sensation of sleep almost started to engulf him.
"Need . . . sleep . . Need . . . sleep . . ." he muttered.Jodha made him to lie on pillow carefully not giving much stress to his bandage while lifting him from her lap.She pulled the covers over him and wrapped them around his shoulders, tucking him in with the tenderness of a mother.
"Here, get yourself all the rest you need." said and tried walk away making an excuse to him because guilty thoughts started to capture her heart.It was a heart braking decision for Jodha when she took a decision of move away from Jalal.On a spur of moment Jalal grabbed her arm, pulling it towards him and pressing her hand on his cheek, letting her feel his handsome face.
"Maybe I could nap in your arms?" asked Jalal.Her stomach jumped.Not long ago, that would have sounded like another one of his cute attempts to get intimate with her - in fact, some part of her psyche still heard it that way - but now he was squeezing her arm with a certain desperation that was usually like him. Though he was giving sleepy blinks, his eyes still stared directly into hers, communicating the true meaning behind his words.He was afraid of her leaving.She gave a small sigh
"All right, move over." said Jodha while stepping out of her shoes, sat down on the bed, and eased herself under the covers next to him. Once she was in a lying position, Jalal immediately rested his head on her mounds of breasts, apparently thinking she was more comfortable than any pillow.
"Thanks my wifejaan" mumbled Jalal and wrapped his right hand around her belly with drawing her closer.Jodha closed her eyes while relishing in his passionate cuddle.While relishing I'm Jalal's protective embrace she tried to forget her every pain and sorrow.His one little touch made her feel like cherished and loved.She swiftly wrapped her arms around him in a passionate cuddle and waited for him to do something more, but all that came was content snoring, his mouth blowing warm air onto her arm. Her hand ran through his hair as she gazed at the top of his head, noticing even the tiny knots in his hair and the flecks of dandruff on his scalp.
"Had she ever properly looked at the top of his head before?"She gulped, feeling the weight of Jalal's head on her breast, her thighs tightening slightly when they were pressed against his thighs.
Since Jalal dozed into sleep.Jodha started to shedding her tears which was she holding for a long time.Her face were filled with guilt and pain as she cried out heartily without making any noise.It was first time Jalal's closeness giving her sting.Today their beautiful moment was painful for her... Her heart was enjoying his closeness but her mind was warning her saying that she is cheating him.
As moment passed by,Jalal hugged her by curling his both hands around her waist in deep sleep and buried his face into her bare neck.His warm chest were pressing against her bountiful breasts under her night gown.Jodha stiffened by that sensation as his whole body covered her tiny form while his hot breath on neck created goosebumps on her body.Her left hand robotically went to his hair and right hand skimmed across bare skin his perfect waist.
Immediately she withdrew her hands realizing what's she going to do.She control her feeling not to move her hand...
"Kahnaa,what was wrong with me ? I couldn't stop my longing for his closeness.I wish if he had loved me..No..No.I can't think like that.I am a betrayer" Jodha heart and mind were playing world war.But she amazed by herself when found her body straining to go intimate with him.Even though they were both clothed, even though he was certainly in no condition for that now, she couldn't deny what she was thinking about.That's it,she thought,no more thought about him.Without disturbing Jalal's sleep she tried roll other side.But stopped seizing Jalal's passionate hold around her belly.She gasped in elation yet tried to came out of his grip.Unfortunately it was solid like a rock.She helplessly gazed his face apprehending she doesn't going get a mere success and saw his face expression changing.He started to talk in sleep... She heard...
"Jodha...Don't..go.Don't" Jodha's heart beat become erratically high hearing it.Her heart again announced a win over her guilty heart.. She was lost in their past beautiful moments once again... Finally she felt Jalal's little movement noticed he freed her hand from her belly but holding her hand tightly.Jodha made out he maybe started to feeling pain.
"Is he in pain again?" her heart stopped once feeling his pain.
.She had no strength left to fight with her heart anymore.Seeing him in this difficult condition was more painful for her than him.Jodha turned around came above him,he hair strands fell down on his face when she gave him soft hug and kissed on his forehead and cheeks, as soon as Jalal felt her nearness he calms down, at the same moment his warm hug soothed her emotional heart.Filling the space between his arms Jodha nestled him and gazed him without a blink waiting for the sleep to engulf her.
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Six days had passed since Jalal's return from the hospital.He didn't remember much about the emotional roller coaster he had on the day before his surgery.Anyway he could sense he had hurt the person he loved most in all the world, and for that he was ashamed. And he vowed to make up for it by giving Jodha immense love from the bottom of his heart.On the other hand Jodha was really choking him out by her affection and care..
It was strange what a close brush with death, and facing losing everything you hold dear, can do for ones outlook on life, and help to put their priorities in order.
In all these days Jodha was taking care of Jalal... Staying with him entire day she look after him lovingly by taking care of every little things ...his medicine... his cloths... his food...even she was controlling his sleep... she held him when he felt drained...helped in exercising.Jalal completely became depended on her.His health seemed to getting better gradually... Jalal's love and respect for her was growing deeper and deeper.But it wasn't sudden happening as his character started to changing.Jodha had also noticed that after he came out of his coma something seemed to be different. She couldn't put her finger on it, but something was different, he was different.
Although Jodha behaved normal in last six days Jalal could figured out she was not normal.Something bothering her.Despite of she was actually enjoying Jalal's nearness but there was a feeling of poignancy in her heart.It was filled with guilt.She wants to open up everything to him but fear about his state of health made her to backout from that effort.She also paid attention to not intimate with him physically.They were distant in that way but emotionally they came much closer than before...It was killing Jodha inside distance between she and her love... they were so near but apart from each other.She was taking care of him like a nurse... there was a lot silence between them... Jalal tried to investigate many times but her wounds were so deep she just smiled at him and avoid talking about it.
While Jodha's Miss World round ups had started between this and final wasn't so far away.She struggled a a lot making up her competition schedule over her personal problems.Jalal's change was the beginning of her nightmare as doctor referred before, in the days that passed.Jalal's temper grew worse and his tantrums became more severe. The kind, loving, gentle man she married was now a mean, violent, and angry man.Jodha had no idea how to help him, but she had vowed when she married him to loved him in sickness and in health, and love him she did..
Jalal's stubbornness become main reasons of her headache.At first it was just small things, like he raising his voice to her for no reason, and then he started throwing things at home. This had been going on for several weeks and Jodha was starting to become more concerned that something was really wrong with her husband, but when she approached Jalal about it he would tell her he was stressed from being stuck at home all day, due to his injuries to his head.It was Bakshi whom Jodha assigned caring for Jalal in her absence on account of Miss World rounds..
In one day like that.
"Very Good Morning Miss Jodha..." Jodha lifted her head and saw that same man.Pop singer Justin Bieber was standing there in make up room.Competition delegates were just finished the practice session and Jodha was ready to go back.
"Mr Bieber, Are you following me ?" She asked out of irritation.Bieber was constantly trying flirt with her now a days.He had also to visit her occasionally during her round up time.She knew it will happen anyway since she back out from that kiss during their dance.He was really desperate for her.In spite of Jodha's constant rejection Bieber wasn't ready to give up optimism.
"Oh no Ms Jodha, I just want to give you this..." Bieber spoke handling her a bouquets of roses to her
"You have brought gifts to me before and like always I have denied it.Then why didn't you try to understand ?" Jodha annoyingly shouted.Meantime Justin made a sad face.
"I just want to give it to you... Please accept it Ms Switzerland" Bieber said bowing to her.Watching his self confidence Jodha inwardly smiled deciding to not deny his gift this time.However he is also one of her fan.She shouldn't be depress her fans
Jodha massaged her head when she received a bouquet of flowers from him and warned"See this is the first and last time I accepting your gift.Next time don't bother yourself to bring me gifts.Got it ?" Justin's face glistened with joy when Jodha accepted it.Considering it acceptance love from her side Bieber eyes shown with pride.
Let me help you to carry this..."said Bieber enthusiastically wanting to help her to carry her luggage
"Please don't...I can do it myself.It's not heavy.." Jodha assured him."Leave it Ms Jodha.. I'll help you.." Justin said smiling.
"All right.." She gave up finally and led him to her car.
After one hour...At Home.
Jalal came out of the bathroom after bathing. He took the clothes prepared by Jodha and wore it. He noticed something on the dressing table when he was about to comb his hair. He took the card before reading it.
""Ms Jodha,I'm sorry to tell you that... I love you.. I know you were in another relationship.. I tried to ignore my feelings but I couldn't... ""
Justin Bieber...
Darling let's eat.." Jalal just kept quiet when Jodha called him. " ?" She made her way to her husband when Jalal didn't answer her. She widened her eyes looking at the card held by her husband.
"J-Jalal ?" She called him making Jalal looked at her."What's this ?" he spoke with a cold voice.
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It has been two days since Jalal avoided Jodha. When she wanted to talk to him, he would just walk away leaving Jodha dumbfounded. She cried everytime her husband ignored her. For Jalal, it hurt him wheneverhe took a glance over his wife and saw her puffy eyes but he chooses to ignore it. Not because he didn't love her anymore but he afraid that he couldn't control himself.
He needed to be calm first.Jalal and Jodha still sleeping in the same bed but they were acting like strangers.He was jerking Jodha's hands whenever she tried to come close to him.His actions was so painful for her.Jodha was planning to tell her husband everything that day. The day when he found out about the card. Unfortunately, Jalal found it first before Jodha could tell him. He didn't give her time to explain two days ago making Jodha
Flashback
"Jalal's... Let's eat.." Jalal just kept quiet when Jodha called him.
"What happened Jalal ?" Jodha made her way to her husband when Jalal didn't answer her. She widened her eyes looking at the card held by her husband
."J-Jalal ?" She moved near to him and placed one hand above his shoulder then called him making Jalal looked at her
"What's this ?" he spoke with a cold voice. She gulped down her saliva before looking at her husband.
"I-I want to tell y--" Jodha shut her mouth up when Jalal ut her.
"You wanted to tell me ? But, I found it first.." he spoke looking at her.
"Don't you want me to know ?" Jalal snapped at her making Jodha sook her head.
"But..." she said trying to grab Jalal's hand but she was shocked when he yanked her hand away.
"It's not as what you think.." Jodha said soflty with her tears already appeared at the corner of her eyes.Jalal went to the drawer and took an envelope before sitting down on the bed. Jodha followed him still looking at her husband.
"Not as what I think ?" he spoke with a cold voice. He opened the envelope and threw some pictures on the bed. Jodha took the pictures one by one before widening her eyes.
W-Who g-gave it to y-you ?" Jodha spoke with a crack voice looking at her dancing pictures with Justin during Miss Switzerland Competition
. "It's not important.. It's you! Are you planning not to tell me ?!!" Jalal raised his voicemaking Jodha flinched a little bit.
"Jalal... Let me ex---" her words was being cut when Jalal threw the crumpled card on the floor.
"I had sensed you are hiding something from me before.But I didn't even thought in my wildest dream about this.I am a useless and a boring person according to you,right ? This the reason you are attending these parties and dancing with strangers.Tell me did you fed up with me ?"
Jodha's mind stopped hearing Jalal's hurtful allegations against her.She interrupted his talk in midways and responded angrily.."Wh...What are talking Jalal.How can you say like that.I love..."
Jalal jaw tightened and fists clutched in rage.He blurred out everything what comes to his mind,yelling at Jodha"Shut up..Just shut up.I have knowledge about your every secrets now.So being you are an unfaithful wife I can't talk to you right now.." he stood up making his way to the door and shut the door with a thud sound making Jodha cried.
End of flashback
"J-Jalal..Let's eat breakfast.." Jodha called him fearfully when she saw Jalal was ready to go to gym
"Never mind.." he answered without looking at her. As she tried to approach him with love he prevented her and vanished from her sight. After closing the door, Jodha sat down on the floor crying heavily with he face in between her knees.She recalled how her husband called her 'unfaithful' it was unbearable for her.
Jodha wiped her face before standing up after crying for nearly ten minutes. She cleaned the kitchen and packed the untouched breakfast in a box before getting ready to go to the preparation of sports rounds.Suddenly she the door bell rang heading towards living room found it was Abdul sitting on sofa with a smiling face.Jodha composed herself while smiling back at him and sat next to him on sofa.Abdul breathed in relief and straightly came up to the matter.He was in so urgent..
"Jodha I need take some advices from you.Our company is facing a big crisis.As you know it's Jalal who always handle these kind of matters tactically.But since he isn't well I thought you can give some suggestions." Jodha amazed at Abdul's question.
"Me ?" questioned in wonder
"Yes.Because you are his wife.Of course you would have a natural business instinct like Jalal.He had always hinted to me before.
"Okay.I will try my best.What's the matter" As Abdul explained every thing to Jodha ,she listened patiently and engrossed in deep thoughts.Calculating something in her mind she softly answered...
"I think it is sufficiently clear that we can deliver a high quality product for Asian market.But the question is how will compete with Chinese products ?"
Abdul confidently enunciated" I don't think that is a concern for us.After all our quality is higher and prize is Lower"
Jodha's lips curved into a witty smirk "The prizes are only possible if the production cost and selling function of these numbers.The Chinese yuan keeps fluctuating.Where is the contingency plan for that.If the dollar rises raw materials cost also will increase.Isn't that right ?"
Abdul slack jawed by jodha's cunning question.Confusion filled in his head.Scraping his temple Abdul again inquired "So What should I do ?"
"You should have factored that in.You need present a revised proposal tomorrow.Don't you think elections in China would be in next year.The policy will change with new government.Then the tax concessions also change.You must factor that in too"
Abdul contentedly nodded his head.He got the solution that is from a mere college girl who hasn't any past experience in any business firm.Abdul couldn't help himself but mentally congratulate Jodha.Jalal's choice was right, she deserves to be his dear wife and bearing a potential to become a business women.
Abdul stretched his body little bit embraced Jodha in happiness and said "Actually you are totally right..You are right as usual.Anything can happen.Thanks a lot for your help"
"You welcome" said Jodha emotionally Jalal's words again started to disturb her mind.Her mind again lost somewhere.Tracking gloominess from her face Abdul concernly enquired.As he looked at Jodha, could see his concerned mirrored in her face.
"If you don't mind.Can I ask you something to you,Jodha ?"asked Abdul with serious face expression
"Yes Abdul.What's that ?" said Jodha lifting her eyes lids slowly..
"Jodha, it has been brought to my attention , and not so pleasantly I might add, by Jalal hasn't been well these days...eh, shall we say a little high strung in these occasion. What I would like to know is if there is something that I should know about "now", before it gets out of control."
As soon this heard Jodha started to shift in her seat and clinching her hands into a tight fist, both of which didn't go unnoticed by the Abdul.Her tough shell cracked and face crumpled.It was at this point he noticed tears fall on her olive colored cheek and decided she needed a brother to talk to, rather than a family friend talking to her.He didn't like to interfere with the personal lives of Jalal and Jodha, but he felt close to Jodha because she had always been treated him like her own brother
He moved more closer while sitting beside her, reaching for her hand and holding it in a brotherly manner in his left hand, he patted her hand with his right one.
"Jodha tell me how I can help" he asked.
"Abdul,Thank you for your concern but excuse me I can handle husband by myself, you need not bother yourself about us." replied Jodha stubbornly.She didn't want to disclose anything to Abdul.
Abdul knew her very well.He continued his endeavour forcing Jodha to say something."Jodha,I can see you need a brother to talk to , please let me help. You and Jalal are more than just part of my family.I hope you know that by now"
"Yes Abdul and Thank you, but I don't know what to tell you"
"How is Jalal's temper at home Jodha?" he asked in his quiet friendly tone.
Every bit of color drained from her face hearing it but stated in a composed manner "Oh Jalal is okay at home" fruitlessly lied Jodha knowing he would caught her.
Watching Jodha acting like a persistent baby girl a pleasent smile kept on Abdul's lips.Immediately he added
"Jodha, this is me your talking to, and I know he isn't just like this at the office. Please Jodha, talk to me, let your brother help you both".
It was this that was her undoing and she burst into tears, and was comforted by the Abdul. After she had cried for several minutes she composed herself and regained her professional decorum.
"Sorry Abdul, I didn't mean to cry like a baby on your shoulder"
"That's alright Jodha, and please it's just us here, call me brother if it helps for you to talk to me"
She illustrated "Abdul, I have no idea what is wrong with my husband. it only been since his accident that he seems to be different, but I don't know why. They said he had no permanent injuries and that he would be good as new, and he seems to be walking fine and his head injury hasn't bothered him at all.I can't blindly believe doctor's words as this after effects of surgery.Something is not right Abdul..."
Jodha's tear-chocked voice startled Abdul yet he responded calmly"Hasn't the doctor explained to us about Jalal's temporary amnesia ?"
"Yes" nodded Jodha...
"Then you need to bring him to hospital once again.May be doctor can help us if you described problems related with Jalal to him"
Jodha pouted her lips in despair and stated "But Jalal refused to let me take to hospital either"
Abdul shooked his hand while hearing Jodha's words carefully and made a point "Jodha, if he continues to have these problems let me know. If he refuses to have them checked I will pressurize him to, or I will have bring doctor here."
"Thank you Abdul", she replied with a little glimmer of hope on her face, she felt like a weight had been liftedand she was thankful for the brother she had in her small assembled family.
***
From: Wifey...Jalal..
''I'll go having lunch with Albert and Alfred ..want to discuss an important matter with them... You eat too hubby...''
Jalal sighed heavily after reading the text from his wife. Even when they were not in a good term, She always took care of him. He wanted to hear from her but he afraid he would burst out. He loved her so much and didn't want to lose her. He closed his eyes leaning on the chair.
Night...
8:00 pm
Jodha just finished cooking dinner and went upstairs to take a bath. She changed her clothes and went downstairs again to wait for Jalal to whom Abdul taken to hospital When she heard his car entered the garage, she stood up and went straight to the door to welcome him. She would do her duty as his wife even though Jalal didn't want to talk to her.He made his way to the bedroom and changed his clothes before going to the bathroom to take a shower. Jodha sighed softly and took his new clothes and placed it on the bed. She went downstairs to set the table for dinner and that was when she noticed he was not wearing the clothes she placed on the bed earlier.
"A-Are you going to meet someone, Jalal ?" Jodha asked her husband. "Hmmm.." Jalal hummed and wore his shoes. He took his car keys and went out of the house without saying anything to her.Jodha tried to spoke him but he rudely shoved her aside while making his way to outside..Jodha held herself from crying when Jalal left her without telling her where did he wanted to go. She sat down on the chair and didn't have mind to eat the dinner which she specially made for Jalal...
He returned back to home after two hours of meeting Rukaiyya.He was so shocked when seeing Jodha was in the living room sleeping on the couch.
"She waits for me.." Jalal muffled softly looking at her sleeping figure. He switched off the tv and went to his wife before bending down his knees on the floor.He caressed her face soflty not wanting to wake her up. He kissed her forehead before whispering.
"Please forgive me for hurting you baby..."muttered Jalal with a guilty face.Everything was very clear now.Abdul's words really hitted Jalal's brain.He made him reminiscent every incidents and details of him and made him to think about how cruelly he behaved with his wife.Jalal started her with a guilty face and carried her bridal style and went upstairs to their luxurious bedroom. He gently placed her on the bed and took the blanket covering her. After that, he went to the bathroom to take a quick shower before joining Jodha on the bed. She squirmed in her sleep but didn't wake up making Jalal sighed in relief..After finishing a comforting bath he walked near the bed again, noting the presence of his wife already sleeping in their bed. He laid down, waiting for the sun to come out so he could dress and go to gym early, not feeling tired despite the fact that he had some...intense talks hours before.He turned to the side and looked at the female beside him, her wavy, long hair spilling on the white pillowcase like an angel's halo. Any normal blooded man would be crazy not to jump at this golden opportunity with such a beauty.Her body structure was spell bounding and attraction was heart stopping.Jodha could have always inspire in him the same passion and desire he felt whenever he was with her...his lover. His wifejaan.With another sigh, he laid on his back, watching the shadows of the night change slowly into morning. He found himself, again, wishing that the girl lying next to him wasn't be this much beautiful that he was finding extremely difficult to control his emotions..
After some moment,couldn't controlling himself he rolled off to Jodha's side draw her body closer and caressed her face with the back of his fingers remembering what was told by Abdul just an hour before.
Flashback
"She trusted you before this.. and here you are.. doubting and not trusting her..What happened to my old Jalal ?.That's your Jodha,Jalal who loves you most and for God sake she can't even think about any other man"Abdul said after sipping his drink.
"Look.. I really wanted to talk her.. but--- " Jalal couldn't finish his words when Abdul snapped him.
"Then.. You're not trusting her.. Think about when she found out what did your ex secretary do.." Abdul suddenly spoke making Jalal sighed.
Abdul continued.."Have you forgot she is Miss Switzerland.She have a laks of fans.It was her final.More over dance with Justin Bieber was just a coincidence and she was bound to do it.Yaa Allah, I can't believe you forgot about it.".
Flashback ended...
"Forgive me Jaan" He cupped her angelic face romantically with kissing her forehead and her lips.He couldn't cope himself apprehending how badly he behaved with his Jodha.He unnecessarily hurted Her.A guilty look flashed in his eyes.Untill now he hadn't picked up the real reason behind his harsh behavior.Especially since he know dance with another man caused a spark of jealousy.Whatever he was always so possessive about her.It may be the reason ?...
The next morning, he woke up without Jodha beside him. He sat down on the bed rubbing his eyes to get a clear vision. Looking at his iphone on the table beside their bed it showed 7.45 am. Jalal then stoodup before going to the bathroom to take a shower. After bathing, he wore the office clothes prepared by Jodha and went downstairs to the kitchen seeing his wife was busy cooking for his breakfast.
When Jodha felt like someone's presence, she turned around seeing his husband leaning on the fridge.
"H-Have a sit Ja-lal.. It a-almost d-done..." Jodha said as she concentrated on her pancakes.Jalal made his way to the dining table and sat down waiting for Jodha finish. She placed a few layer of pancakes in two plates and put strawberry slices on each plates. After that, she put a lilttle bit whipped cream and took the plates bringing it for her waiting husband
"Here J-Jalal.." Jinah placed the plate in front of him making Jalal nodded. She sat down on the chair looking at her plate not daring to look at her husband or else she couldn't control her tears. She knew her husband carried her to their bedroom last night because she remembered she fell asleep in the living room while waiting for her husband.
"L-Let me wash it..." She spoke when he already finished his pancakes. She stood up from her seat and went to the sink bringing the dirty plates with her.Jalal looked at his wife and stood up making his way to her not wanting to be noticed by Jodha.When he arrived behind her, he wrapped his arms around her petite waist resting his chin on her shoulder. Jodha gasped when she felt her husband back hugged her.
To be honest, she missed his hug, his kiss, his touch and everything about him. She stopped from washing the plates enjoying the hug given by her husband.She shivered when Jalal peck her neck before whispering.
"I'm so sorry my love". As soon as she heard Jalal spoke she felt her neck wet realising it was from her husband's tears. She held the edge of the sink waiting for her husband to speak and held herself from crying.
"Please forgive me, baby.. I know I was wrong.." he spoke with his crack voice.Meanwhile Jodha couldn't control herself anymore as she closed her mouth with the back of her palm crying silently.
"Punish me but don't leave me.I can't live without you even a second Jaan,you know..." Jalal spoke tightening his arms around her waist.
"I-I love you a lot and I can't leave my dear husband..." Jodha mumbled as she cried heavily.Jalal released from hugg then slowly turning her body to face him.He cupped her wet face trying to look at her eyes but Jodha kept her eyes down as her tears streaming down on her face.
"Look at me.." he spoke lifting her chin making Jodha looked at his face.
"Forgive me..." He mumbled softly stroking her wet cheeks. "I am not angry--" she wanted to speak but Jalal sealed her lips by kissing her. He pulled away from kissing her when Jodha didn't return his kiss like usual.
"I know I was wrong... forgive me jaan.." He loked right into her eyes before leaning down to kiss her again.As Jodha looked into his eyes,she utterly captivated in his virile personality forgetting everything else.Raising tiptoes Jodha returned his kiss as she wrapped her arms around his neck for a hot and passionate kiss.As like always both of them started to lose their own senses and self control.Jodha realized tightening of Jalal's arms around her curvy waist when he moved her whole hair tresses to a side.She bited her lips and strained back more to him as he started to nuzzle silky smooth skin of her neck.Their fingers intervened and locked tightly as Jalal rained hot kisses all over her nape.Jodha moaned softly in delirium but it was all sudden her eyes widened in shock when she made out Jalal already started to disrobe her gown and realized she went too far from what she decided earlier...
"No.I can't do this.I can't deceive him.Kahnaa Why I am so attracted to him ? Why I'm so dumb" she scolded herself as her minod send a warning signal to her brain.But her heart didn't obeyed so like her body found it impossible to stop.She struggled, desperately trying to get his hands off her, failing miserably.But at last Jodha got succeeded in barking off Jalal's intimate hug by pushing herself from him and clumsily stumbled back a few steps saying
"We shouldn't be doing this Jalal.It's morning..." she said this almost in a whisper seek an excuse to move away from him.Whilst Jalal wasn't ready to accept her excuse
"Then I would be mad not to.Are you jocking Jodha ? have any idea how many times we made love in morning." Jalal said impatiently and came closer to her again but she almost pushed him.Her reaction surprised him but suddenly lips curved into sensual gawk thinking she is just playing with him.He looked into her eyes with a deep desire for her in his eyes.It was getting impossible for her too to resist as well
He again tried pull her closer with intense passion and a little fake anger.Meanwhile Jodha mustered her whole inner courage and shoved him aside and walked out clearly indicating it as her denial.Jodha almost broken into tears when did this and was not able to look at him directly, her eyes were down; she was feeling extremely guilty for her denial as this was first time she rejecting his touch
"Is there anything wrong Jodha ?"asked Jalal demanding an explanation from Jodha.He could sense something is not right with her.He noted Jodha shaking with fear
Jodha stayed quiet, she had no answer to his question.The only thing she could do was gazing with a pleading eyes.And she tremble as she remembered the details of the horrific event. How she was stripped. How she was touched.
"Honey" He paced towards her and set his hands on her shoulders.She flinched and shook off his show of love "Don't touch me Jalal.You can't because I am impure.I just want to be alone!" Jalal could take it if she lashed out at him"physically or verbally. Instead of heeding her warning, he again approached her and questionsed
"What did you said ?"
"Can't you understand Jalal.I lost my everything..my most precious thing..I would have died if I hadn't give you my word.Please Jalal,leave me.I can't bear this pain"
Jalal's eyebrows creased in astonishment.His face expression become serious "What happened Jodha ? I need you tell me everything"
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"I can't"
"Why ?"
Jodha couldn't reply to his question instead of saying something she started to sobbing.Jodha instantly realized she can't hide it anymore from Jalal.So she explained everything to him about what happened with her in his absence.Her voice was wavering and her body eyes remained closed while narrating it for suppressing her immense pain.
Hearing everything Jalal's entire world stilled for a moment.His body traumatized as he couldn't think straightly.This sudden knowledge struck his heart like a thunder bolt.His wife brutally raped by those wolves !! And he couldn't do anything ???? Neither his mind didn't grasped it nor his heart allowed him to believe it.His eyes turned dark due to extreme rage ,body quaked and blood boiled up to kill them all.The agony was extreme which can't be discribe in words.But in seconds he realized It's not the right time to take his revenge he needed to give Jodha his whole love, making her forget her pain..
As Jalal hold her hand she tried to back out and spun around facing him her back "Why would this happen to me! I never deserved this!I had started to dreaming live my entire life with you.My desires destroyed I have no wish to live.I have no right on you now.I lost it when they..."She couldn't complete that sentence but all she could do was to shed tears drops without a pause
"Go away Jalal !" pleaded Jodha while shielding her face in hands.Jalal ignored her plea and rushed towards her turned her to face him then cupping her beautiful face in his hands he called her softly with deep love
"Jodhaaa"
Jodha's painful gaze remained locked with his loving gaze.. They both were in immense pain and tears in their eyes... Jalal softly wiped her tears... Jodha suddenly broke into loud sobbing and hugged him tight... Jalal took her in his arms with deep love..They both were hugging and comforting each other... both had no courage left to say a word.After some moment Jalal whispered in a mellow tone
"Shh.. Baby. Please. Don't cry. I swear to God you're killin' me here."Her voice was a raw rasp. "Chin up, buck up, right? Be strong, be tough. Don't snivel. No man likes a crybaby"Jodha clung to him crying like her heart was braking.again Jalal's heart really broke when she made a soft sob. She scampered away from him quickly, like a crab sinking back into the sand.Jalal hold her hand and picked himself up from there and went to her. Jodha didn't shrink away when he wrapped his arms around her. She turned and burrowed into his chest again, sobbing.Jalal held her and let his tears fall along right with hers.Finally, he pampered her..
"My beloved Jodha.Believe me.You are still mine.Nothing has happened to your purity.No one can take away your integrity and pristine beauty because it's not lies in your body infact it is in your heart.Even if you think some thing happened to you then hear it that son of bitches going to pay for this.This Jalal always loved his Jodha and he always will be.Not even God can separate us.My love for you will remain as same as before" Jalal's long and most loving speech succeeded in soothing Jodha's wounded heart.She felt a lot better and heart filled with immense happiness realizing her husband still loves her even now knowing everything.Yet she can't be hide her pain as her body tensed.She screamed and screamed in pain and it absolutely ripped his heart from his chest.Jalal closed his eyes and listened while she let that anger and pain go. Let the frustration go. The hurt, she'd hang onto. He held her until the screams tapered off into weeps. She ended up facing him, her face buried in his neck.His hands possessively enveloped Jodha's fragile form hugging her against his cozy chest.
"Forget the past Jodha.Forget it.We will start a new phase.I assure you" murmured Jalal in her ears for consoling her.The truth was watching Jodha in this condition, he was fully busted inside but... He gathered himself... He knew she is utterly shattered and scared... She needed his care, love and support to come out of that horrible terror.More than anything her retching sounds, mixed with her heartbreaking sobs, made his eyes burn and his throat tighten.He was asking the impossible of her. He knew that. But he also knew that his wife had the kindest soul and the purest heart of anyone he'd ever known. That's why he fall in love with her madly.Jodha cried and cried until she ran out of all energy... she started to feel dizzy... suddenly everything started to move around her... her vision got blurred and she lost her conscious in Jalal's arms...
Precap:
"Jalalludeen Mohammed !!!" Shariffudeen numbed in shock."Yaa Allah,Is he alive ?" His eyes got filled with fear after seeing Jodha proudly smirking at him while melting in Jalal's protective embrace.Jodha however deftly side stepped his hand.Her hands rested on Jalal's wide shoulder lines for support as she piercingly gazed Shariff asthough she is going to burn him alive.
"I want you show that same courage when you tried to humiliate my wife in that night like an eunuch,Come on you spineless rascal" roared Jalal in his threatening sound.While Shariff felt Jalal's voice held an anger that he had never heard in anyone. It was somewhat startling at first, cause he felt this anger went further than the heart of the brain.He picked himself up from floor.Jalal came infront of Jodha and stretched his left hand protectively,.to pull his wife behind him.
Edited by Swissgerman - 9 years ago
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